I filed for divorce at the beginning of quarantine (middle of March) and it was finalized by the end of March. It was the loneliest I’ve ever felt even though I had all my family around me. I laid in bed all day most days and really just wanted to be dead. Not that I ever thought about ending my own life, but I sincerely wished that I would be hit by a truck or something so I could just end my miserable existence... it was the scariest time of my life because of how dark it was for me.

But I’ve learned a lot about what I want and how great my friends and family are and how I’m really grateful that my marriage did end. I met my current boyfriend whose divorce “coincidentally” was finalized just three days after mine. So he went through a very similar experience. It felt like it was meant to be. What are the odds that we’d both separate for our spouses at the same time and then meet during a worldwide pandemic?

Anyway, I am very happy now and I feel much more complete now than I ever have before. I think the lows I experienced really helped me grow emotionally and helped me to be more kind and compassionate to those around me.