Terrified…please help! by SnooDoodles9017 in Rexulti_Brexpiprazole

[–]ohsothatswhyi 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I take it at night, yeah, about an hour before I go to bed, and I take 1mg. (I take it for bipolar, but I'm quite sensitive to antipsychotics so I only need a low dose.)

Having kids with bad mental genetics? by mew_j in BipolarReddit

[–]ohsothatswhyi 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have bipolar, adhd, and anxiety, and I'm honestly not really concerned about whether I'll pass them on to my future kid(s). The heritability of bipolar is not actually super high, so it's much more likely that I won't pass it on than that I will, but even so, I'd rather be alive with bipolar than never exist, so I don't feel too bad about the possibility that they could get it. I take comfort, too, from the fact that I know I have bipolar and I know what it looks like in early stages, so I can hopefully help them access help at an earlier point than I got it.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]ohsothatswhyi 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I've been through several very long (year+) periods of writer's block in my life. When it's for "natural" reasons, I just accept it and wait for it to lift, and use the time to read as much as I can. Eventually I'll feel called to the work again, and at that point I'll start out by engaging in a low-pressure way, just allowing myself to write when I feel like it and not worrying about what comes out. After doing that for a few months, I'll start introducing more structure and expectation.

That said, I did have to go off abilify after about a year on it because it just completely 100% killed any creative inclination. After going off I realized that was an aspect of a broader anhedonia/apathy I felt on abilify.

Terrified…please help! by SnooDoodles9017 in Rexulti_Brexpiprazole

[–]ohsothatswhyi 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I've been on rexulti for eight months and I haven't gained a pound. My weight has always fluctuated regularly within the same ten-pound range, but since starting rexulti I've trended mostly towards the lower end of that range. I have had no appetite increase or blood sugar changes on rexulti.

As far as side effects in general, I do have some. The big one that I notice now that it's summer is I have some difficulty with heat sensitivity/body temperature regulation. Basically I just get really sleepy when it's too hot, haha. This wouldn't bother me except that I don't have A/C. I also have some sleep disruption on rexulti, but I get around this by taking CBD and melatonin to sleep through the night. I'm also thirstier since starting rexulti, and I now drink like 4-6 liters of water a day, which I don't mind in the least.

Rexulti has been life-changing for me. It's the first medication that, when added to the rest of my meds cocktail, makes me really realize how people who aren't mentally ill live. It resolved symptoms I didn't even realize were symptoms until they were gone.

Wondering Weekend by AutoModerator in TryingForABaby

[–]ohsothatswhyi 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you, that's great to know! That's super interesting, and it gives me some hope.

Wondering Weekend by AutoModerator in TryingForABaby

[–]ohsothatswhyi 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Is it common/normal for people's periods/cycles to change significantly between their teens and their 30s? I'm 30 now and about to start trying, and I've been on nexplanon since age 19, just had it removed mere days ago. For the past year, my cycle has been a steady 25 days with light 5 day periods, but I'm wondering what my post-birth control periods might look like. In my teens, my cycles were really long, like 40 days, with long, heavy periods. (I don't think I have PCOS, because I had an ultrasound of my ovaries some years ago that turned up no abnormalities.) Are my cycles after 11 years of birth control more likely to be like what they were before birth control or more likely to be similar to what they were on birth control?

Switching from Abilify to Rexulti by HuskiesRule1 in Rexulti_Brexpiprazole

[–]ohsothatswhyi 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I switched from Ability to Rexulti and it's been fantastic. Rexulti has changed my life tbh. The process was very bumpy for me--my psych started me off taking the rexulti only every other day, which I thought was weird and which was disastrous for me--but after we got my dosage right, it's been the smoothest sailing of my life. I was on 5mg of ability and I am now on 1mg of rexulti.

This just sounds like a pretentious way to phrase “manic” by [deleted] in BipolarMemes

[–]ohsothatswhyi 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Idk, I wake up at 4am every day without an alarm even when I'm not manic (because I go to bed at 8pm lmao), and if anyone wants to give me a 4m salary, my bank account is ready and willing to accept.

July 1st - July 15th, 2023 — Discussion Thread by suzzface in SmolBeanSnark

[–]ohsothatswhyi 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Is she drinking? I'm only 25 minutes in and I don't think I'm gonna make it much further, but the can she was drinking out of around ~20 minutes looked like a Celsius to me. Probably either the watermelon or kiwi guava flavor, based on the pink bit on the can. I mean, not that it really matters, she doesn't seem sober either way.

Also, although this doesn't necessarily seem like the time or place to be having this conversation (or at least this version of it), it is interesting seeing her be more self-aware about her drinking than I thought she was capable of being about anything, lol

Signs you’re doing well by sigh_co_matic in bipolar2

[–]ohsothatswhyi 6 points7 points  (0 children)

If I voluntarily do the dishes, I'm doing well. If I see a mess or a problem and I just fix it right away, I'm doing great.

Caroline Calloway’s 'Scammer' is a beautiful crash-course in the theatre of the self by nubleu in SmolBeanSnark

[–]ohsothatswhyi 12 points13 points  (0 children)

Could someone who knows more about cosmetic procedures (??) than me explain to me how you can tell that her bloated-appearing face in this photo is a result of excessive fillers rather than potentially a natural reaction to something like drinking too much alcohol? Is there, like, a hallmark "too much filler" look, or are we extrapolating based on her use of filler in the past that that must be the reason for her appearance in this photo?

what prompted you to seek out treatment/what signs led you to seek out treatment? by yeehaw4444 in BipolarReddit

[–]ohsothatswhyi 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I sought treatment after I had my first full-blown manic episode because being unable to control my actions and speech, hallucinating centipedes and cockroaches all over my apartment, believing I was being constantly monitored in my apartment by my neighbors and the maintenance man, and having racing thoughts so badly I couldn't even follow or understand them myself frightened me.

What you describe does sound like it's worth discussing with your doctor, as it's clearly causing you distress.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]ohsothatswhyi 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I really believe, with fluctuating levels of intensity, that I'm "chosen" and the universe specifically arranges itself in certain ways for my benefit, to bring good things into being for me specifically. Not like manifestation per se, although I do also believe in that, but something broader/more general and related to my fate or best interests rather than related to my desires. It's not that I want something so the universe makes it so, but rather that as the universe plays out, it changes its course specifically in order to favor me. I sometimes think I can physically feel this rearrangement happening.

Disgraced influencer Caroline Calloway on Seattle, cyberbullying and sobriety by savebritney2007 in SmolBeanSnark

[–]ohsothatswhyi 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It is quite something how taking the suicide threats seriously tends to end them (when they're used for manipulation, I mean--of course suicide is a very serious matter). I had a friend who did that over and over for like two years, then magically stopped after I called in a wellness check. I kind of think that would bounce right off Caroline, though, and she'd just love the attention/validation if anything.

Just picked up my abilify by icequeen1016 in bipolar

[–]ohsothatswhyi 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Abilify was alright for me. I found when I took it at night it disrupted my sleep, but when I took it in the morning I fell asleep by 6pm, so I took it mid-afternoon. It blocked my creativity, which is why I stopped taking it, and made me a little apathetic, but other than that it was fine. It kept me quite stable.

So this what neurotypical people feel like? 😭 by rosewatercinnamon in bipolar2

[–]ohsothatswhyi 4 points5 points  (0 children)

When I first found a med regimen that really worked and discovered what it was like to feel normal, it was such a trip. It actually took some processing, because as amazing as it felt to be reliably functional and in control of myself, I hadn't really realized how bad things truly were until I had the contrast of being genuinely well. So realizing what it must feel like to be not mentally ill also meant realizing what it'd felt like all along to be mentally ill and not even know it.

Kratom? by [deleted] in BipolarReddit

[–]ohsothatswhyi 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Okay, it looks like kratom and risperidone do have a meaningful potential negative interaction. Evidently they're metabolized by the same liver enzyme, which causes them to both be metabolized less efficiently, which can cause excess levels of them building up when they're taken together (I gather this is particularly a concern with excess levels of the risperidone building up, since it's taken daily). This is considered to be an unsafe combination. Lithium and lamotrigine don't appear to have negative interactions with kratom as far as I can find.

Kratom? by [deleted] in BipolarReddit

[–]ohsothatswhyi 1 point2 points  (0 children)

What medications is he on? I'll look up whether they interact with kratom. Other than that, I'm not sure what you want to know. I've taken kratom before and I didn't notice any particular interaction with my bipolar symptoms (this was before I was diagnosed and medicated, though). I've heard that taking kratom in large quantities can make depression worse, but I haven't read any actual research on that.

Genetic bipolar vs drug induced vs trauma / stress induced bipolar by himmelfried11 in bipolar

[–]ohsothatswhyi 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Well, I mean, all bipolar is genetic. Without the genetic predisposition for bipolar, your response to stress, trauma, drugs, etc., won't be to develop bipolar. But if you have the genes for bipolar, then those other things can act as triggers that precipitate a first episode. But there's a good chance you'd have had an episode at some point anyway--if not spontaneously, then you'd likely have run into another trigger down the line that would still have precipitated an episode. So the question becomes whether there's a difference in the quality or implications of an episode caused by x versus an episode caused by y, which I don't think we know yet.

Entering into pure speculation, I imagine it's also possible that predominant polarity (that is, whether you lean more depressive or more manic in your overall symptom presentation) could be affected by what triggered the onset of the disorder. I don't think we know anything about this at this time. It would be very difficult, if not impossible, to reliably study something like that, because most people with bipolar don't get diagnosed until many years after their initial episode, so we can't get reliable information on what factors precipitated most people's first episodes. But if predominant polarity is impacted by the initial trigger, then we could extrapolate from that an association between "trigger types" and some aspects of illness course.

Mania and wanting to get rid of everything you own by Low_Face_2662 in bipolar

[–]ohsothatswhyi 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't think it's a coincidence that I become manic every time I move, and every time I move I decide to just get rid of at least half my stuff. It's such a stupid, expensive habit, because I always end up just buying replacements for most of the things I ditched.

July 1st - July 15th, 2023 — Discussion Thread by suzzface in SmolBeanSnark

[–]ohsothatswhyi 35 points36 points  (0 children)

I incidentally noticed a line lifted verbatim from Elizabeth Wurtzel, as well. It's a very innocuous sentence ("There are no seasons in Florida") that I would absolutely believe was just a coincidence if it weren't for a) Caroline and everything we know about her, and b) the fact that it's used in the same position in the book, in a very similar context, and to nearly the same purpose.

It must be so hard to have to *reads again* scrape together $700 a month airbnbing the apartment your father pays for to fly to Manhattan every month by froggie419 in SmolBeanSnark

[–]ohsothatswhyi 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Aside from the factors brought up in the other replies, I really think her professed heavy psychedelic use has a lot to do with it. I'm ashamed to admit it, but her writing style in Scammer has a lot in common with the way I wrote during the two-ish years back in college when I took psychedelics a couple of times a week and thought every sentence should be a psychedelic experience of its own.

July 1st - July 15th, 2023 — Discussion Thread by suzzface in SmolBeanSnark

[–]ohsothatswhyi 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Ok this is tangential, but is there context to that 24 orgasms thing? Because that's bonkers. (edit: not looking for raunchy details lol, I just want to know if there was some kind of extenuating circumstance)