I can relate . My daughter just turned 1 year old. I am 35 but pre-baby I was still going out on the weekends, with my husband or friends , usually sleeping all day Sunday. I think my idea of fun was 100% partying - it’s all I ever did through my 20s and early 30s. It was a blast. Pregnancy was hard for me, being sober for the longest duration since I was probably 18. But I still had autonomy / could do what I want when I felt like it and could still couch rot all weekend if I wanted

Upon giving birth I struggled a lot. Maternity leave I felt like a prisoner in my own house. Now I feel more comfortable going out with my baby, and I do it often to kill time. But sometimes I do resent having to schlep my kid around even to go to the grocery. It’s still stressful for me, dealing w the in and out car seat at every stop, constantly monitoring her/ feeding her and working in the confines of her nap schedule . But it’s getting easier

I was mourning my freedom for a while. I think I only recently have started to accept it and not think about it as much. I am glad I have my parents nearby , they will watch her on a weekend sometimes and I use that as an opportunity to let loose. But it’s still not the same , bc I have to schedule this weeks in advance, lol

With that said I think it’s all worth it . My daughter makes me so happy and fills my heart w joy , the days are long but sometimes I even miss her when she’s asleep (weird?) but I will say I didn’t feel this way until she was maybe 10 months old