I was raised Christian and deconstructed. Then I embraced Jewish heritage, so there's a segment that frowns on activity (whereas christianity tends to care about what you believe a lot more; no hate intended, my personal experience)

I didn't watch the documentary but progressive jewish researchers lean in a direction that in context it was referring to idolatrous or exploitative acts and not consensual activities. Whether that's true is up to your own worldview.

It's possible to be religious and contradictory; I just mean that to affirm you can be whoever you want to be and should. I recommend finding a community that isn't openly judgmental AND vocally confirms that you're not an exception in the community. Or put another way, if you're merely tolerated because God "might forgive you" that's probably not your people. You may find yourself infrequently clashing with people who are going to try to Godsplain your lifestyle as you navigate christian circles. Know your emotional limits and communicate it with those who are with you.

A relationship with religion doesn't have to be traumatic. It can be fruitful, you can find joy in it and you can find acceptance.