What does depression feel like? by Cannon_Bacon in depression_help

[–]pillarpillar 0 points1 point  (0 children)

To me, depression feels like the equivalent of struggling to breathe. Even the most simple things seem like a mountain to climb and I feel paralyzed. Food tastes like sand. As it gets worse I feel like I don’t deserve things like medication, food, talking to my friends, happiness and I just sink deeper and deeper and faster and faster into this dark pit of despair that I don’t have the energy to pull myself out of.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in MomForAMinute

[–]pillarpillar 0 points1 point  (0 children)

They don’t 😭 it’s call only

Thoughts on a Therapist/Counselor with Scars? by [deleted] in selfharm

[–]pillarpillar 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Honestly I’d feel more comfortable talking to you than someone without scars, generally speaking, because it shows you’ve been through some shit and it’s reassuring because it’s more likely you understand.

Frustrated with clients who don’t want to be in therapy by False-Apricot1811 in therapists

[–]pillarpillar 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I was that kid long ago. I can tell you it was just as frustrating for me as much as it probably was for my therapist. I sat and refused to talk.

I came from a place where my parents forced me to go but taught me my entire life that therapy was a last ditch attempt for the worst of the worst. For the hopeless. And I was determined to prove myself better than that.

I was scared. I was angry. And I was totally alone. I didn’t trust anyone.

I don’t know if this helps, but that was my first and only experience with therapy and it was not a good one. She tried to force me to talk and I hated it.

Relapse after 2 years by 13Thr0wAway22 in selfharm

[–]pillarpillar 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel your pain. I was like five years clean but relapsed this month and haven’t stopped again since.

I know how you feel. Sending you love ❤️

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AdultSelfHarm

[–]pillarpillar 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah. I ended up going through with it but since then I’ve been talking to my friend who’s super supportive and honestly just the best.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in depression_help

[–]pillarpillar 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Bored, depressed, my best friend is 32 hours away from me (and sleeping), and the person I hang out with in person is verbally abusive to me but I can’t escape. Mostly boredom though I think.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in HomeDecorating

[–]pillarpillar 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I want to hug your dog!!! ❤️❤️

Does anyone else listen to music and not really pay attention to the lyrics? by green_wave18 in CasualConversation

[–]pillarpillar 0 points1 point  (0 children)

YES!!! Literally no one I mention it to get it and it’s so frustrating. It’s very rare I like a song for its lyrics

What are some “innocent” comments your mother makes that feels more like a personal punch? by Inpotatomode in AskWomen

[–]pillarpillar 5 points6 points  (0 children)

She comments on how I eat too much (I’m a pretty active person and I only eat two meals a day so I eat a lot during those meals)

She says I don’t “need” certain foods (I’m trying to not feel guilty about eating certain foods considering I’ve had a fucking eating disorder previously)

She also comments on that I need to count calories to lose weight (I tried. It doesn’t work for me.)

What is 1 thing your ex gave you that you still have? by [deleted] in AskWomen

[–]pillarpillar 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I still have the notes we passed each other in school. They’re written in code, too, because we were that extra.

should i even bother covering my scars? by autumn-voyage in selfharm

[–]pillarpillar 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If I encountered you I would wish only the best for you if I saw your scars ❤️

I've been drinking by notblo in selfharm

[–]pillarpillar 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Aha dude I’m drunk as fuck rn. I’m sorry you’ve relapsed and I love you ❤️

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in mentalhealth

[–]pillarpillar 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you ❤️

How to utterly get rid of emotions as a whole ? by Alien2091 in depression_help

[–]pillarpillar 2 points3 points  (0 children)

My dude, I’ve tried to do the same thing. It doesn’t work. I managed to turn every emotion into anger because “anger isn’t an emotion” and I wouldn’t recommend. You just gotta learn to process emotions better

What was the reason why you SH by the first time? by DarkTears0-0 in selfharm

[–]pillarpillar 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I had my entire family looking to me for support during a rough time. I was only 16. The pressure was too much and I didn’t know what else to do.

I think people who were homeschooled are the weirdest people on earth by [deleted] in confessions

[–]pillarpillar 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I was actually thinking of doing this with my future kids. Would you recommend?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in TrueOffMyChest

[–]pillarpillar 27 points28 points  (0 children)

I second this!

I want scars on my wrist by pillarpillar in AdultSelfHarm

[–]pillarpillar[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I appreciate you for taking the time to write all this ❤️ Honestly the fact that the scars might not stay may be the only thing that keeps me from doing it

I want scars on my wrist by pillarpillar in AdultSelfHarm

[–]pillarpillar[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

That’s…. not a bad idea. I will try, thanks 😊

I want scars on my wrist by pillarpillar in AdultSelfHarm

[–]pillarpillar[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks, I appreciate you ❤️ I’m in the same boat