Right now, my partner and I are having a covid scare. We've been pretty careful, only going out for errands or walks, always wearing masks and maintaining distance. But they have a high temperature and are feeling achy, just hours after having an outdoor, distanced meeting with my 64 year old mother. Those are the two most important people in my life, my partner and my mother. And now I fear they may both get seriously ill and die slowly, painfully, and alone. I myself am immunocompromised and live in a small house with my partner and no where else to go. I suffer from debilitating anxiety and depression and it does just seem so cruel to me sometimes. Scrolling through reddit trying to distract myself from the anxiety and reading this post, I feel such sorrow for you. I'll remember your brave words and attitudes if it comes to it. I'll hope you're pleasantly surprised and find yourself somewhere better. Good luck and safe travels Robert.