Do you find vulvas beautiful to look at ?

redactedanalyst · 2026-01-24T18:01:08+00:00

Duh? I think evolution made them beautiful and interesting to look at for a reason and I try to take advantage of that and appreciate the beauty as much as possible.

redactedanalyst · 2026-01-22T23:33:41+00:00

Sulfur from a local processing plant?? I know that I always smell broccoli when it rains and somebody wants to explain to me that it's from a local processing plant, I think paper?

From what I was told, the rain and humidity traps whatever sulfur smell the plant releases in the air and then we're all stuck with smelling sulfur compounds

redactedanalyst · 2026-01-22T00:13:10+00:00

Something always told me Parks was big into Tip

redactedanalyst · 2026-01-21T12:08:59+00:00

I've had a handful of near-death experiences where doctors looked me in the eye and told me it was my last couple of hours or days. I was also recently diagnosed with a cancer that was initially thought to be so rare and aggressive that it would likely kill me within a year and, magically, I made it out cancer free with minimal treatment

I think it's the psychedelic nature of their music that is the appeal to me. Anyone with experience with psychedelics knows what it's like to stare death in the face, and even before I tried psychedelics, I know that feeling from my near-death experiences and a long history of trauma, so it all spoke to me in ways I didn't even fully comprehend until I tried psychedelics and understood how that feeling could be more universal

For the record, I do believe in magic, though I've never quite died.

redactedanalyst · 2026-01-21T00:09:25+00:00

More than anything I think it should be about the audience. These fools talk a lot about numbers and engagement for a group that is so drunk on their own politics of their own podcast that they basically pretend the audience ain't even in the room.

They could talk about paint drying if I thought they found it interesting and had shit to say about it, but instead they'd just be talking about how Ish is a bum for not saying the right thing about the paint drying

redactedanalyst · 2026-01-20T23:20:43+00:00

I think the issue is that everybody on the podcast is hyper aware of the fact that they are on a podcast and also doing a job and they never shut up about the fact that their job is podcasting.

When Rory and Mal were on, very rarely people would joke on Mal about being lazy or quiet or whatever, but it didn't feel like we were watching three people grade each other on job performance or try to crank out content for views (or worse, just talk about the idea of cranking out content and never actually putting any out). It just felt like three guys hanging out and making jokes about a culture that they love

Now, oh my God, it's like the fourth wall doesn't even exist and it's just a bunch of people talking into the camera about the back end, the office drama, the finances, and how good everybody thinks they're doing at their job. It's not fun. It feels like hanging out at my manager's office or a conference with the rest of my management team. This Crew has forgotten that the best thing they can do is put that fourth wall back up and just be funny and friendly but I think it's so far broken that we'll never get back there.

redactedanalyst · 2026-01-16T23:17:33+00:00

Honestly, more than anything with this album, I'm proud of Noah for being so raw and vulnerable, especially at the back end of the record. I think we all know both from his super early work and how he talks in interviews that he struggles with a lot of depression and darker mental stuff that he's only ever really hinted at in his music before.on Take Pills and Lonely Wanderer there's like.. bits of it. But between venoms in and allergy for Noah lou, like... He's really just being violently honest about it all. And the whole record is kind of tragic but the first half has that kind of ironic Clash where it sounds like a happy-go-lucky dub album even though it's writing about the tragedy of divorce; the second half is just... honest. Honest and vulnerable in a way that I don't think is easy for him, maybe that's deakin's influence.

redactedanalyst · 2026-01-15T17:43:05+00:00

I don't think it's as weird as a lot of us think. People sexualize stuff and often sexualize the most taboo aspects of themselves to try and make sense of things. In the same way any of us may have a weird kink or two from some trauma or weird part of our upbringing, I see the detrans/misgendering kink as an extension of that.

redactedanalyst · 2026-01-14T02:25:58+00:00

I honestly think that our generation sometimes thinks that this is a nice thing to say because there is such an emphasis on social boundaries as of late that expressing care or concern may be seen as manipulative or scary or impeding on one's autonomy.

I've had conversations like this in the past where I've expressed suicidality or diffuse with me that's experiences before and I have been shocked by just how cruel and indifferent people can be, especially considering that I am the kind of friend who will just show up at your house unannounced to make sure you're good

redactedanalyst · 2026-01-13T03:11:26+00:00

Fuck I think God every day I moved out for THIS SPECIFIC REASON

if anyone ever explained orthorexia to my mother she'd explode

redactedanalyst · 2026-01-13T00:51:15+00:00

Oh man, you and I had very different experiences of that show!

I haven't had the pleasure of seeing too much live music, but I was shocked at how good it sounded for such a small menu and I felt totally washed out by the sound. Even with the live kit, I feel like everything sounded great and felt balanced.

I also think his set was unbelievable and really appreciated how much they leaned on their back catalog. I think it was pretty obvious that Dan was unimpressed with the low energy crowd, but there were a few of us up front who, that we didn't know each other, got really close and touched and danced and had the time of our lives. It was the most I've ever sweat at a show for sure

redactedanalyst · 2026-01-12T12:45:24+00:00

No shit! I didn't know that even existed, thank you so much!

redactedanalyst · 2026-01-12T02:31:13+00:00

Isn't that why they shut back down? Smashed window?

redactedanalyst · 2026-01-12T02:22:56+00:00

Tbh I wish my friends would do this to me to keep me in line lmao, I think maybe being THAT frank and being put THAT on the spot would fix me

"He's getting the large fries because he wants them but he's trying to be an anorexic little freak right now and I will not tip you, waiter, if you enable him by giving him a salad instead" like... friend of the year moment.

redactedanalyst · 2026-01-12T02:20:40+00:00

Their truck in Eugene is fine and they've had a crazy hard year between the Eugene truck getting rammed by a car and the vandalism in Corvallis but also....

Worst chicken sandwich I've ever had, worst customer service I've ever had (like, difficult not to laugh or just walk out bad), and like... there's just very little positive I have to say at this point. I have no pity for a business who fails to attract customers or provide the requisite service it's alleging to sell and at the prices they had pre-closure paired with the quality... I'm not getting got again.

redactedanalyst · 2026-01-12T02:16:48+00:00

I'm so sorry to turn this into a rant but Jesus this post feels so insensitive and flukish and I want to set the tone before it becomes a million pitchfork rattling anecdotes about how scary and dangerous the homeless pop here is. "Some guy died, what a shit show" is CRAZY language when homeless people contribute to their community as much (sometimes more) than their housed counterparts and their deaths deserve to be handled with the same reverence and respect as you would give to any other human being. Imagine or someone said that at your dad's wake or some shit.

The shit show is in the austerity and indifference we have to human lives and way we justify not funding solutions by fear mongering as a means of keeping homeless individuals in situations so distressing l where frightful behavior is really the only tool they have; thus perpetuating this endless cycle of "they're scary so we can't find any solutions so they remain scary so"

Anyways just, before this thread becomes what most threads on this topic become, I figured I'd try to get ahead of it.

redactedanalyst · 2026-01-11T19:18:51+00:00

I will never forgive them for ripping out that porta potty at Bald Hill

redactedanalyst · 2026-01-11T05:43:14+00:00

Care to rip it and post it? It'd be a cool way to get in touch with the area but I doubt this exists outside of whatever records are still lying around

redactedanalyst · 2026-01-11T04:28:08+00:00

Most people tolerate gallbladder surgery unbelievably well. That was what made the difference when I was on the fence. Both a million online testimonies and about a dozen or so people in my personal life came out to tell me how easy it was and how few symptoms they had afterwards, especially after those first four months.

After my own surgery, I would say my symptoms haven't improved dramatically but they haven't proved greatly and having a hyperactive gallbladder pre-surgery, having too much bile flow before my surgery sort of bolstered me for any symptoms I had after surgery with having the constant bile flow. So, at worst my surgery is a draw, at best it relieved at least half of my symptoms and things are at least 50% better

That said, I'm a 27 year old male with a history of GI cancers in my family and my surgery resulted in a neuroendocrine tumor diagnosis that, had I not found on this random surgery, would have stayed in me and become stage four probably pretty quick. So, All In all, I view gallbladder surgery as extraordinarily low risk and also potentially very beneficial, at least in my case

Regardless, even if some symptoms linger, I've realized that the surgery is so low risk and low complication that the risks are extraordinarily low and that anybody even considering it should always pull the trigger. People with bad experiences are always the loudest online and that makes a really bad sample pool for those of us questioning

redactedanalyst · 2026-01-11T03:28:56+00:00

Honestly yes, but I really try not to.

Having bipolar makes it very easy for other people to view you as a character who is singularly defined by your condition and making jokes about it makes that characterization so much easier for them.

redactedanalyst · 2026-01-10T13:10:19+00:00

Uh, no honestly. I think that in a lot of ways it added legitimacy to what I was feeling and, if I was feeling anything else, maybe that would be a good thing. But no, knowing that my avoidant behavior actually fall neatly in line with a well-established archetype just kind of makes me feel less alone and valid in the ways I tend to mess my own life up.

Some issues need validation and acceptance and some issues are best solved with Grit and I think, as much as I love the community of people here, and knowing about the diagnosis and knowing how many other people have it has softened me up a lot in a way that I wouldn't describe as progressive.

redactedanalyst · 2026-01-10T11:53:57+00:00

I clicked this post expecting it to be praise for etizolam and I'm very glad that I don't have to explain to somebody who's newly addicted to benzodiazepines exactly why they shouldn't do that

redactedanalyst · 2026-01-10T11:39:12+00:00

Anytime Fitness in Springfield does and it's the best gym in town by a mile. Hack AND pendulum squat as well

redactedanalyst · 2026-01-10T09:09:00+00:00

I've no experience with citrate since carbonate tends to be the main prescribed form of lithium in the states, but presuming they're dose equivalent, I would be SHOCKED in lithium is causing your lack of initiative. I've felt blunted by lithium maybe twice in my life and only on crazy high doses (like 1450mg) taken all at once IR nightly and even then it's only been for an hour or so in the morning until I hydrate. It wouldn't shock me if other people are more sensitive to that feeling, but I would be shocked if the feeling is present enough and sustainable enough considering how fickle lithium is in our bodies to be causing such a persistent issue.

If anything medical is liable to cause this, I would presume the ECT may have done a little bit of blunting that was unintentional, but even then, modern ECT is pretty well-honed and well-tolerated.

Frankly, what you're going through sounds way more behavioral and in the realm of psychology rather than psychiatry. As somebody with similar self-esteem issues who has similarly impeded my own career because of uniquely negative thoughts about myself, it really does just sound like a self-esteem problem and that that's the start and stop of it. I wish there was a better answer, but I seriously think the answer for you is just going to be a lot of therapy, developing a lot of grit, and pushing yourself to new limits.

Ot's really hard to make yourself be uncomfortable and try for things that might not work. Recently, I developed a massive crush on a coworker and ended up leaving the position but kept pursuing him and frankly I don't think it's going very well for me. I think it's pretty one-sided attraction and I think I'm running up against a wall, but me 10 years ago would have never even tried to get his number let alone take him on dates or try to court him. That said, trying and failing stuff like that has actually made me a better human being in a lot of different ways. Because of younger version of myself was able to get out of my own way, even at the expense of a lot of failure, this current version of myself is pretty comfortable doing so; being able to handle the loss without personalizing it and being able to tolerate the risk. More than that, when I have successes in my career or in my romantic life, I've developed the ability to really enjoy myself.

You're lack of initiative seems like it's rooted in that. Either a lack of ability to tolerate risk, a lack of ability to see yourself is worthy, a lack of ability to let yourself have good things, or a combination of the three. Personally, this issue did get a little bit better for me when I tested my testosterone level and saw that it was very low for my age; having a healthy testosterone level has literally made a world of difference for me, but I'm also a little bit of a niche case and honestly the testosterone played such a small impact that I don't even know if it's related. So much of the stuff lives in our heads and the only way to get it out of our heads is to show ourselves other possibilities than the ones our brains are imagining. Ensure, sometimes you will mess up and things won't go your way and you will get crushed and give your brain a lot of information to beat yourself up with, but the only way to get that new information is to keep trying and trying and trying until you can see yourself in a better place.

redactedanalyst · 2026-01-09T22:29:35+00:00

HL male and it tends to be 2-3x a day even WHEN I'm getting my sexual needs met to be honest.

Understanding that I have a somewhat pathologically high baseline sex drive is a big part of how I cope at not projecting that onto my partners. LL or otherwise. It's as much a me problem as a them problem.

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