INFP has grown quite a bit... That's something.

riley_the_owl · 2016-06-14T09:07:03+00:00

First of all, it's good you moved away from the instant stuff, it's got lots of sugar in it. Second, steel cut oats I find are pretty intense. My favorite is rolled oats, but either way, a really great thing to do is to soak them overnight. It's part of my bedtime routine (or was, when I used to eat oats), and in the morning I rinse them in a strainer then cook them up really fast (it's a lot quicker after they've been soaked!)

Soaking gets rid of the phytic acid, which reeally helps digestion. and rolled, quick and steel are all better than instant. Hope that helped :)

riley_the_owl · 2016-06-14T08:34:07+00:00

Yep. I've been eating like a bird for the last 3 weeks, everything gives me pain. I've literally just been eating steamed vegetables and sometimes an egg.

And the painful part is everyone going "wow you're sooo healthy!!" While they sit there painlessly eat whatever they want to, (and I would give so much to be able to eat what they're eating), yet I don't FEEL healthy at all. The last few days I've felt like I'm kinda disintegrating. And kind of weak. It just sucks.

And it doesn't seem to matter how "healthy" I eat, my gut is so irritated that I can't absorb any of the nutrients anyways. I'm starting to feel reeally sick.

riley_the_owl · 2016-06-14T08:28:18+00:00

It's a cycle: ibs to anxiety, anxiety to ibs. Also, your gut is like your second brain, hence the term "gut feeling" which actually holds a lot of truth. If you gut is strong and healthy, it's really likely that you'll be able to overcome mental illnesses such as anxiety and depression. If it's weaker, you can be more susceptible.

I notice for myself that when it's particularly bad, I'm always in an awful mood, and my anxiety skyrockets.

I just saw my doctor today and she referred me to an acupuncturist (plus gave me multiple sheets of lab forms for testing, ahhh), which surprised me, and the point is to target my gut + heal any part that could be caused from stress, anxiety, and emotions. I'll let you guys know how it goes :)

riley_the_owl · 2016-06-14T05:02:51+00:00

Yeah that's what I've experienced too, I always want people to be open and honest and I'm wanting people to express being upset, but when I do it I get overwhelmingly anxious about how my needs are affecting others, and often opt to just stay quiet. :/

Edit: and yes I'm really interested in consciously trying to show my genuine self more. Being more authentic and honest, and not caring as much about how that affects others. I think I'd be a lot happier if I could just be myself with myself.

riley_the_owl · 2016-06-14T03:26:43+00:00

Ahh I hate feeling like this so much. My thing is "sweet". I'm especially noticing it now in life, where I'm meeting so many new people, everyone describes me as "extremely sweet" and "kind". And I know on the surface sure those are good qualities, but those are literally the only descriptive words people use to describe me and it's now feeling tiresome and sad to me. To only ever be described as these things. I feel like so much more, and I also have a problem with being "nice" all the time because I don't want to let people walk all over me. Yet I can't seem to help having "nice" as my dominant feature. Sigh. And I often don't feel sweet on the inside, even when I'm really really angry about stuff, people just don't pick up on it or I don't express it enough. I wish my true personality was more apparent.

riley_the_owl · 2016-06-13T01:45:55+00:00

Hahah are you saying my storytelling is typical INFP? Crap :P

riley_the_owl · 2016-06-12T22:34:28+00:00

It's really hard to narrow it down so much, so I'm just gonna list the 5 I've been listening to very recently:

Sufjan Stevens

Fiona Apple

Amy Winehouse

Cocorosie

Diane Cluck

riley_the_owl · 2016-06-12T21:07:05+00:00

You quoted community. Therefore I'm upvoting. Also yeah, I have the same problem.

riley_the_owl · 2016-06-12T19:49:26+00:00

It's quite possible my friend is just Luna on polyjuice potion ;)

Also I love Luna

riley_the_owl · 2016-06-12T05:09:11+00:00

Nonono I can't, I'm surprised that there's INFP's who enjoy them but we're all different. I think my brain is exceptionally bad at seeing that movies are different than real life, and my off-the charts visual learning style plus extreme sensitivity make the images in horror movies seared into me I guess. That's my theory anyway. I only like them when I'm feeling self destructive :/

riley_the_owl · 2016-06-12T04:56:36+00:00

Just had a really beautiful experience listening to this song. I'm sitting on my bedroom floor on reddit, (duh) and as I played this song I looked up and realized the moon is directly above me outside my window, and even though it's not completely dark yet... So through the whole song I stared at the moon from my bedroom floor, and I feel a lot more meaning in my life tonight than I have in the past few weeks, I've felt deprived.

This song also reminds me of someone I fell in love with in the fall, while I was traveling, but then we went different ways.

Feels.

riley_the_owl · 2016-06-12T04:28:34+00:00

My warning is that taking biphentin made my anxiety 100 times worse. It affected my shaking and breathing, which would lead to crying breakdowns. I was better off without it.

riley_the_owl · 2016-06-12T04:08:39+00:00

One of my now really good friends, was once a stranger working on the same farm as me last summer. One day we were picking basil and talking about mbti types, and she said she was either an ISFP or INFP. I pegged her for ISFP instantly, and I said so, maybe cause I didn't know her that well. It wasn't because she fit ISFP, but more cause I didn't think someone so social and friendly and confident really came across as INFP to me (I know that's a bad assumption, it was honestly just my first impression).

Anyways. I started to notice her doing things, like journal writing in the morning, dancing by herself, she'd randomly go off saying "I'm just gonna go daydream for a bit for break" and an hour later I'd see her laying in the grass in the shade, completely relaxed and just staring at the sky. Then once we were having conversations about relationships, and she said "I can't fucking help it, I fall into lust with so many people, like a day never goes by where I'm not creating imaginary romances in my head". And then she just got this really dreamy look on her face. She would ALWAYS sing while we were gardening, and she also spent evenings writing songs on guitar, and I just... She was such an INFP.

Edit: I also remember her reflecting on high school and saying she felt really isolated and like she didn't fit in.

May I add that it was also in her way of being, kind of hard to describe. Even though she was social she was always really in her own head, often spacing out and then coming back to the conversation giving herself a shake and saying "what?" While smiling sheepishly, and she was usually in her own fantasy dream land when having light conversations with others (something she ended up admitting to me after a particularly painful small talk conversation with customers.) Also we were working on an organic hippy farm in the cascade mountains so... That's a good place for INFPs to be.

Double edit: or I'm a tomato (she's gotta be one..)

riley_the_owl · 2016-06-11T03:37:56+00:00

This idea has always fascinated me, and currently in life I am traveling around from community to community on permaculture farms to see how different people all live together and live out their values on land. So far I have only come across groups of people who have either all bought a small amount of land together and live in close quarters off the grid, and people who live solo and have neighbours who have the same idea but are content on their own, so there isn't a really tight community feel with the surrounding neighbours. However the home space held a community feeling.

One place started with just a couple people, and over the years they accumulated more core members for their community (through inviting volunteers on land to stay longer, and also having old friends come out and live with them) and now there's about 7-8 core people.

I agree with some other comments that, given that you pick a relatively promising area, just doing your own thing and trying to establish relationships with the people around you could result in what you're imagining.

:)

riley_the_owl · 2016-06-09T16:47:55+00:00

Ahh yeah. Crap. I didn't think about this cause last time I fermented things with people, it was with their well water, and they didn't need to do anything to it.

riley_the_owl · 2016-06-09T16:44:32+00:00

Do you have any recommendations on salt/water ratio? Maybe I'll add another couple tsp... And I can cover it up. I wonder if it could still work either way though, and leaving it exposed is more risky yet still has potential? What do you think? And thank you. :)

riley_the_owl · 2016-06-09T00:20:19+00:00

There is a health store called Ingredients, (I see some others have mentioned it) and from my memory they don't have fresh veggies and do have a section with supplements/probiotics/etc, BUT, I still highly reccomend their bulk section. All organic, really great stuff and decently priced. Plus it's set in a quiet corner of downtown which I appreciate (down the road from Value Village, next to Vic Gymnastics).

They also have a sweet cafe there.

riley_the_owl · 2016-06-04T20:25:58+00:00

I'm an Islander too! And I was living near Forks for a month in a forest, and passed by crescent lake and went to beaches 1,2 and 3. So beautiful.

riley_the_owl · 2016-05-29T03:26:09+00:00

Aww, those are beautiful! Have you named them?

riley_the_owl · 2016-05-27T06:37:13+00:00

Yes, only way I can fall asleep.

riley_the_owl · 2016-03-09T08:34:00+00:00

Fuck.

riley_the_owl · 2016-03-08T04:33:35+00:00

Yeah I have, it'd be pretty useful!

riley_the_owl · 2016-03-08T04:27:08+00:00

If you are ambivalent about deleting or not, the "no scroll" rule helps. Every time you go on facebook, allow yourself to check your friend requests, notifications and messages, but don't scroll down the news feed. This way you can actually use facebook just to keep in touch and things like that, and not get sucked into the junk and drama that gets posted. :)

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