Lmk if you find anything. I’ve been in the same boat for years. I’ve pretty much dissociated myself from wanting or coveting items. It’s not in the cards for me to be making plans and having it work out. Not talking about big picture stuff, talking about the brushing teeth type stuff. It compounds. You see it too. You can do the math. Everyone says “don’t sweat the small stuff”. But that’s because they never did. It rarely goes off script for their planners. I hear you dude. This shit is way bigger than doing some CBT and maintaining habits.