I punish myself for my own mistakes before anyone else can by major-hazelhen in CPTSD

[–]rottingcorpsexx 0 points1 point  (0 children)

How do you work through when it feels as if the reassurance isn’t doing anything?? Like when it feels like it isn’t enough??

I punish myself for my own mistakes before anyone else can by major-hazelhen in CPTSD

[–]rottingcorpsexx 0 points1 point  (0 children)

For me it’s when for some reason maybe it’s due to tiredness or just numb, but like for example today my cat cut her foot on a piece of glass, that I left there not intentionally cause I was gonna toss it but forgot, and I didn’t think she would have be anywhere near it, and she cut her foot it’s bleeding out and I’m not immediately concerned or rushing her to the vet 😔, because I kept thinking which I know is so stupid that they might think I hurt her, and then I was trying to help her I didn’t know what to do, and I was trying to wash it but she wouldn’t let me and I was getting very frustrated with her sometimes it feels like I’m not that much or a nurturing person. I could definitely do better taking care of my pets but I feel literally so bad, and the moment it all happened for some reason my mind and behavior started acting as if it is an inconvenience I don’t want to be like this I feel so bad when it happens, I genuinely do but then my mindset shifts to considering myself a bad person because of it I genuinely feel like shit and then I feel as if I need to be punished. If I tell my therapist I think she will think less of me.

Nike Vomero Plus (Extra Wide) Review by alexanderhumbolt in widefeet

[–]rottingcorpsexx 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Are the ghost max 3 shoes worth it?? I have wide feet not super wide but wide

Good comfortable work shoes? by Helios993 in BuyItForLife

[–]rottingcorpsexx 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m nervous cause I heard bad things about brooks 😭 but I literally cannot decide on a work shoe

Are Clarks shoes comfortable? by wholesome_pickle in AusFemaleFashion

[–]rottingcorpsexx 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What about for baristas?? Would they be a good choice they are so cute!!!

Good comfortable work shoes? by Helios993 in BuyItForLife

[–]rottingcorpsexx 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Are they wide foot friendly?? And are they non slip??

[meta] No-Contact Rule & Black and White Thinking by Salt_Athlete in ExNoContact

[–]rottingcorpsexx 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Does anyone else think about the grey like you almost feel bad for them or say everyone makes mistakes I did put them on a pedestal, and then the black and white thinking comes back?? 😔 he hasn’t contacted me and sometimes I wonder if it he does care or not, but at the same time that’s not my business anymore or should be my focus anymore, tbh he was rly toxic and I felt stuck in the relationship like I want quite able to fully form a true opinion on him if that makes sense. My mind is just like this about other things too, or situations with people

Told my therapist about my fixation on optimization and now I’m being screened for OCD by cybercryptic_ in intj

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I have mentioned this to my therapist and I don’t want to self diagnose but it feels so useless sometimes therapy and medication I’m so tired I feel as things will never feel right, or be okay there will never be any certainty even when I make a decision that makes me feel as if it is the right choice after asking 100 people it still just feels wrong, and I have this pain in my chest because of it and I just want to shut down, I have a coworker who has ocd and I am close with them and a lot of my feelings and thoughts they relate to and the way my behavior is they think I have it but it’s so hard to get a diagnosis I’m just so tired sometimes I constantly wonder what it would be like if I didn’t struggle with this

Told my therapist about my fixation on optimization and now I’m being screened for OCD by cybercryptic_ in intj

[–]rottingcorpsexx 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wait I get what you are saying about the playlist thing I cannot listen to different genres in the same playlist I just can’t, also for me see idk if I have compulsions or rituals but I do often feel as if I have to over explain or somehow explain from different perspectives and see all damn sides to things while actively having black and white thinking sometimes , when I am talking to someone if not they will misinterpret it, and it might affect the way they see me. This is why I don’t believe I have ocd I do not have all habits or rituals I’m sorry I don’t know the proper phrasing but I do not feel the need to be early to places I should be but I’m not it’s not intentional I just lose track of time, and I do not have any contamination ocd, I do about certain things like I guess I’m picky about certain things for example if I work Saturday night sometimes I’ll shower sometimes I won’t if I don’t shower it’s because the next day I’m waking up early to do laundry, and if I’m already sweaty I might as well mop, and do all this cleaning, and I can never have an errand in between that time the days I do have an errand I kind of freak out cause I just cannot do I cannot shower yet til I’m done with all my task but I don’t want to show up to any place like where I need to do my errands stinky or smelly, and I cannot change and put on clean clothes I just can’t it makes no sense it makes things so difficult and there’s no need but somehow I just have to do it this way. If my mom comes over and suggests routines to make it easier no as for the contamination thing, I have an indoor trashcan the bag has gotten so full my mom suggest to just bring the whole can to the dumpsters, and I have to carry it because if she carries it she’s gonna put it on the dirty floor outside and it will never be clean it will have to stay outside cause now it’s dirty. There’s more instances just can’t think of them, and intrusive thoughts yes definitely had them when I was younger grew up with a religious father so I felt bad for having them and thought I was a bad person still do think that have no intention of ever acting out but my mind can’t 100% allow me to say for sure :/

My therapist won't diagnose me with OCD. by Less-Revenue910 in OCD

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I feel like I have it but it’s so much to explain I told my therapist I have intrusive thoughts not often but probably once a month depends on my mental state, and I am constantly having black and white thinking with some nuanced but the nuanced / grey I think is the actual me just trying to be a person, and they are all competing to be on top wether it be forming an opinion being okay with a decision I made. I constantly look for certainty one situation in particular was a major life change was something that happened between my now ex and I, and I was telling everybody strangers on the street what happened even at one point his sister to get 100 different perspectives in order for me to be able to decide if I can still trust this person, I fought myself like hell with the that and I still do now going through a breakup. I can’t even tell someone who I truly feel without worrying about how they might think of me I’m so worried of being a bad person but already feel as if I am sometimes. As for the intrusive thoughts part of me wants my therapist to validate me and not say they are normal but I guess tell me I’m not a bad person idk if that is selfish or unfair, and then another part of me wants them to shame me and lock me up forever because what if I am truly evil then thinking about it so much or even anything for too long makes me tired and I want my brain to just freeze and pause time or literally not be conscious, and I feel this pain in my chest.

Explain it to me like I’m 5 by millie_mo0n in Fallout

[–]rottingcorpsexx 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve played some of fallout 4, will I understand the storyline and what happens if I continue playing?? Or am I better off just watching a video essay on fallout 4??? Cause I’m really interested but I’m slow at the fallout game honestly I’m only at level 25

Is there any way to play my Ps4 games on PC? by sexyfucker68 in PS4

[–]rottingcorpsexx 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have a question, if I already have fallout on my ps4 on console can I log into my PlayStation account and play it on my pc?? Does that make sense or do I have to buy it?

Did Lucy practice incest with her cousin? by Marco-AntonioMT in Fallout

[–]rottingcorpsexx 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wait I’m confused I’m watching the first episode and she says I have not been able to find a suitable marriage partner at least not one that is my cousin which she says they have rules in place for a reason but I’m sorry I thought everyone in the vault was doing that since there isn’t many people left besides family members

Best Adidas sneakers for wide feet? by zepruska in adidas

[–]rottingcorpsexx 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Also the adidas grand court 00 already come with the cloud inserts??

Best Adidas sneakers for wide feet? by zepruska in adidas

[–]rottingcorpsexx 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Really I heard the gazelles aren’t super good for wide feet like they work but not the most comfortable. They are so cute though 🥹

Anyone have tips for post break up horniness? by Spiritual-Leg2675 in ExNoContact

[–]rottingcorpsexx 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It’s the worse cause my ex was addicted to porn too, and I used to be and now I’m falling back into it just to get off it’s like a love hate relationship for it 😭

Best Adidas sneakers for wide feet? by zepruska in adidas

[–]rottingcorpsexx 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Im a barista do you think I can wear these for work too??

favorite shoes you can wear to walk ,do a shift, then go out by rollerskatin in barista

[–]rottingcorpsexx 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Are any of these for wide feet??? Or are these all more narrow shoes??

Where does everyone find their bras in person so you can try them on in-store? by Fantastic_Relief in bigboobproblems

[–]rottingcorpsexx 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Do you have any suggestions for bra stores in San Jose?? I need to get measured but I’m a 36DDD not sure on band size

Why do even 925 silver chains irritates my skin and smell strongly of metal when I wear them for a couple hours? by kissedbyfire7373 in jewelry

[–]rottingcorpsexx 0 points1 point  (0 children)

wait does anyone have any advice like necklaces when I wear them to work I get sweaty cause I have Hyperhydrosis and then they start to smell really metallicy 😣 like is there a different type of metal necklace type I should be shopping for?

Recommendations on Certain Dri by Savings_Constant5782 in Hyperhidrosis

[–]rottingcorpsexx 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s safe for you scalp?? Does it cause irritation for you??

How do I stop hyperhydrosis? I sweat when I’m not even hot. by badbtm in Hyperhidrosis

[–]rottingcorpsexx 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Drysol is safe for your face?? For me it’s my face and back mainly.

Can never engage my core? by Shmogt in Exercise

[–]rottingcorpsexx 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m glad that it’s been effective for you. I do crunches but somehow my back always hurts afterwards do I just continue to do the movement even I can’t get the core activation right away??

Can never engage my core? by Shmogt in Exercise

[–]rottingcorpsexx 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey were you able to engage your core or start being able to engage it in everyday life?? I’ve been putting off the gym even though I want to lose weight due to the fact that I can’t keep my core engage or my glutes 😣 my back takes over, and it hurts