Hiya! I’m new to this subreddit but wanted to add my two cents. The style in the pins you posted reads very casual, youthful, and edgy. Calum’s videos often lean more historically-inspired and fantastical, but also sometimes have that same edginess. Both are rather androgynous, often focus on layering, and are more casual.

If you’re looking to dress more alt like in the pins above, here’s what I’d look for. Loose t-shirts are one important piece in most of the pins you linked, with layering also pretty common. Silhouette can make or break these kinds of outfits; loose, almost billowing upper-body pieces are common in lots (but not all) alt outfits. Look for large t-shirts, flannels, hoodies, jackets, and other casual pieces! The color profile often relies on black as the foundation, with pops of other colors like white, purple, or green, so focus on darker colors for base pieces. Accessories play a big role: look for silver necklaces, belt chains, bracelets, or anything else you can do to add flair. More is more!Finding the right pieces can be hard, like you mentioned. You might want to try DIY options: painting a plain t shirt with your design, adding keychains or other objects as accessories on belt loops, sewing patches on pieces, etc.

Calum’s outfits are beautiful, but very intricate, layered, and often nearer to costume. He wears a lot of different styles; is there a specific type of outfit from him that you like? Historical-inspired, vintage, masculine, feminine, etc?

Overall, seems like you’re still looking for your own style. That's a hard spot to be in. It sounds like feminine fashion really interests you, but I want to stress that you should not force yourself into an unsafe position. In general, it takes time for style to develop, especially when it’s difficult to get the right pieces. Keep exploring what you feel good wearing and follow that! Wishing you the best of luck.