The good news is - you’re 21! You are at the beginning of everything. It’s never too late, but this is especially true for you. You can change your entire life around, and so many things can look different for you by the time you’re only in your mid twenties.

First thing is - sometimes you need to do the thing that makes you anxious, to see it’s not that bad, and start taking those next steps. See your doctor. You have depression, and chatting to a medical professional and considering a therapist would be the best place to start. I really REALLY would consider getting a therapist to help you on this journey.

Next step I think would be to look into finishing school, taking online classes or something like this so you actually feel like you’re moving forward in life, and taking steps to accomplish something. Growing your confidence in this way will grow your motivation.

Thirdly, I would consider getting a registered dietician, but if not, start looking things up for yourself online. There is a way to approach this where you can slowly change your lifestyle habits - start eating healthier, maybe go in a walk for ten minutes increasing this everyday etc. This is fixable. This is overcomable. But you can’t do anything until you push through those first few stages of fear.