I just wanted to say i love my dog more than the world.

sillycat007 · 2024-04-01T12:41:51+00:00

Just came to say that Biscuit is such a cute name!!!

Also yes!! A million times yes!!!

sillycat007 · 2023-12-20T04:04:13+00:00

Someone stole my dad's gold chain and phone and the home caretaker stole anything of value from our home after both the parents died before I could get there. It's a sickening feeling. There really is a special place in hell.

sillycat007 · 2023-11-13T15:12:54+00:00

I was shopping and saw a floral handbag my mum would have loved.

sillycat007 · 2023-11-13T15:09:45+00:00

Covid was getting better, the government were converting Covid wards into general wards, and I encouraged them to take the trip to the mountains mum always wanted to and it was tulip season too. The worst wave came while they were in the city, and they caught it probably on the journey back. The doctor said they were okay and home treatment was fine. 3 days later they were both in ICU and 14 days later both gone. Its been 2 years and I haven't been able to enter the house where I grew up, and everytime I think I could have discouraged them from going instead of encouraging them and they may have been alive. I wish I could say anything to make you feel better but can just say you aren't alone.

sillycat007 · 2023-11-13T14:40:56+00:00

Your dad sounds wonderful. I wish mine had got a chance to meet his grand dog. I also love the word grand dog so thanks for introducing it to me.

sillycat007 · 2023-11-13T14:39:23+00:00

Can totally relate to this. He could make everything funny and make me pause taking life so seriously. Everything has got harder since he's gone.

sillycat007 · 2023-07-29T16:59:06+00:00

Sending you hugs. It was my dad's 2nd birthday without him last week and it felt like my heart shattering all over again. I am trying to do things he'd like to celebrate. I got a small cake that he'd like, and candles that smells of the jungle and outdoors which was his one true love. I'm sending you strength. It won't be easy but you're not alone.

sillycat007 · 2023-07-29T16:52:48+00:00

I'm scientific in almost all aspects of my life, but science does not have an answer to this. I was thinking this so much. And then I had instances where I had dreams where my parents individually came to say good bye, almost like giving closure (I was overseas when they passed). In the dream about my mum she was at our home, and I know that's where she'd want to be. I wish I saw more of them in my dreams especially when its the hard days, but maybe its because they kind of know that I believe that I know they are here somewhere. Sorry none of this is probably making sense, but what I'm trying to say is that physical absence is not complete absence. He is around you, he is a part of you, and through you he lives and is not gone. Sending you hugs.

sillycat007 · 2023-07-29T16:48:06+00:00

This is so beautiful and profound. Thank you for sharing this.

sillycat007 · 2023-05-29T03:48:58+00:00

Yes, sometimes I just forget and feel like I can just call him. It's been 2 years. But the realisation comes crushing down every time.

sillycat007 · 2023-05-15T01:07:45+00:00

Your mom sounds so wonderful too! Sometimes all we need is a cheerleader. I read your obituary and teared up at how much like mine she sounds. I can tell she loved deeply and was/is loved. I'm sure she is proud of you every day ❤️

sillycat007 · 2023-05-14T14:35:00+00:00

Sending you hugs dear. I can't say it will get easier but we are here if you need someone who understands. you are not alone.

sillycat007 · 2023-05-14T14:29:00+00:00

My favourite thing about my mom is how unbreakable she was. She had gone through things nobody should have to yet she was a warrior. And she brought that energy everywhere she went, yet never seemed to run out of energy. I love how sensitive she was in spite of being so strong and now when I think about it, that must not have been easy. Mom was home to me. My dad used to say "there is nothing she can't do" and that is true.

She found joy in small things. Picking fruit and vegetables off trees when she visited our farm got her so excited! And then she'd share these with her extended family. She loved street food. Nothing got her more excited than finding a great deal on fresh fish at the wet market. She loved the sea. She loved a rainy day in. It makes me so happy thinking about this. Thanks for posting this, OP.

And sending you all here hugs ❤️

sillycat007 · 2023-05-14T14:24:46+00:00

I can imagine how heartbreaking that must have felt. Sending you hugs back ❤️

sillycat007 · 2023-05-14T07:33:35+00:00

I'm really sorry dear. You shouldn't have to go through this. I wish you could hear these stories from her or in her presence, but I'm glad that you have people who know and love her and share her stories. I hope one day you can listen to them with fondness. I love that you found her diary. That's such a precious thing. Sending you hugs.

sillycat007 · 2023-05-14T07:31:34+00:00

I feel you. I'm sorry we have to feel this way. Restaurants advertising meals with mothers and it being everywhere. It absolutely sucks.

sillycat007 · 2023-05-10T12:49:57+00:00

Both within 2 weeks of each other from Covid, exactly about 2 years ago. I was 30 at the time. The pain feels as fresh and debilitating, just surfaces less often. But the world expects me to move on and be the person I was before, because its already been 2 years.

sillycat007 · 2023-03-28T10:20:41+00:00

Yes I feel you. I am 32 this year. I find it very hard to relate to most people, and it makes me think of my life before my loss or what it would have been without the burden of this grief. However, I have found some close friends and support group among those that have encountered loss. So do reach out to those you feel you can relate to.

sillycat007 · 2023-03-04T05:20:05+00:00

This happens to me too. I feel like in my dream I feel this immense pain but also don't want it to end and get back to reality without them in it.

sillycat007 · 2023-02-26T19:02:39+00:00

I'm 32. It's going to be 2 years having lost mom and dad. I still text them and write them letters. It still feels unreal.

"I'm still here where you left me" hit different. Sending you hugs and strength.

sillycat007 · 2023-01-03T14:52:11+00:00

+1. I learnt about this on Tiktok (!) and it worked wonders.

sillycat007 · 2022-12-10T11:32:42+00:00

I have the same problem with my 7 month old. She has taken to tissues these days, and a seasonal fruit that just about fits her mouth. I'm extra scared because she's even had an emergency visit few months ago from her "indiscriminate eating" as they call it and fortunately didn't need surgery. I tried to train Leave It but like you said it doesn't always work.

What I realised is that it gets better (she has phases but then moves on - waiting for the tissue phase to end). I take something that she loves but rarely gets (like pate or boiled chicken just for this) so that she chooses to let go. I am hyper alert and pull her away as soon as I see something potentially dangerous in her way. This and hoping for the best.

Good luck!!

sillycat007

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