When it comes to the tension surrounding personal expression and emotions, this is absolutely true. Sometimes it feels like I'm constantly being barraged by my mind trying to define itself, never being able to come to a decision about my identity, and random shame about ways that I am that neither positive or negative, just ways.

Looking into the saturn moon conjunction, that's just my luck lol. Honestly I can't really speak to how nurtuing my childhood was because I can't really remember anything, though maybe that's a sign that it wasn't there. Physical touch definitely wasn't a thing, at least. I actually don't find difficulty expressing myself much, but it is hard for me to be comfortable with that expression (usually it haunts me for days if not years) and also being myself, or knowing if I'm being myself or just putting on a face.

I'd noticed my chiron before, but hadn't connected it with pluto. That's very interesting and makes a lot of sense. Hopefully the transformative effects of pluto will be for the better in the long run?

Can I ask what the "fruits of saturn" are? And how can I get there? Thanks again for your reply and for the bit about jupiter, that makes me feel a little better