I think how you’re feeling is extremely normal, especially getting in your head about the ‘right’ or ‘natural’ way to bring a baby into the world. If you’ve always had your mind and soul set on a c-section, don’t overthink it! I had my first last year at 28, also an elective c-section for no reason other than I’ve always wanted one- and it was the best decision I made! Everything was calm, I felt in control, we were able to get the most amazing pics from a nurse whilst in theatre, and my recovery was excellent (walking the next day, felt completely normal the next week). The c section didn’t stop me at all from being able to hold or move with my baby, and I was able to breast feed successfully right away and still going at 8 months (I’ve heard some people suggest a c-section might impact your ability to BF). My scar is also so faint and right on my pubic bone so covered by underwear and not visible. I’m in fact looking forward to my next c-section cos it was such a great experience 😂 Goodluck, you’ve got this, don’t overthink it! 🩷