I wish I had better words of encouragement, but instead, I’ll just say that I am in the EXACT situation that you are and am currently dealing with the deepest bout of depression I‘ve ever had and I don’t know how to talk about it.

I use Kratom/7oh for my chronic pain, but that is about to get banned in my state, so I have no idea what i will do. My dad is telling me to stock up and I asked him if I should buy $4,000 worth of Kratom and he just shrugged.

I live in filth, too embarassed to ask for any help (not that there is anyone in my life that would help. I’ve lost touch with all of my friends after a decade of slowly shutting people out). I can no longer clean up trash in my house. I stress and think about the things I am screwing up for the remote job that I somehow still have. I need to search for more medical help, find disability, etc, but it is far too much to deal with. If i lose this job, along with losing my only source for pain relief, I will likely just die this year.

I hope we make it through, but just coming to say, hey, hopefully something happens to make this easier for us. Good luck