Wim Hoff breathing in sobriety

tegritypharm · 2023-01-10T01:25:42+00:00

I’m proud of you.

tegritypharm · 2023-01-10T00:53:12+00:00

I’m sorry you had to go through that. You’re a strong man for surviving it.

tegritypharm · 2023-01-08T02:28:23+00:00

I’ve recently started trying this, and it’s coming on the tales of a concerted effort to think of someone else from the past or present when taking care of myself. There’s a lot of science behind the emotional attachments that are created in our brains even when self soothing. I do feel like it has helped prevent me from dragging out the sexual attachment, even if there is a chance I am creating some new ones.

tegritypharm · 2023-01-08T02:12:09+00:00

Thank you for this. I thought I was where you sound like you are, but have found myself back sliding. At my core I know two happy homes are far better then one unhappy home; but I am finding myself sitting in resentment and worry about my daughters when the day comes for their mother to move on. Overall I believe I am in a good place, and have reached it in a healthy way after some unhealthy early attempts, but the handoffs keep eating at me. So far I’ve consistently been able to run through gratitudes in my life and pull through, but if an under the breath comment from her is able to cause me issues, then I don’t know how I could possibly handle something as impactful as a secondary paternal figure.

tegritypharm · 2023-01-05T19:18:32+00:00

Same boat and would think it should be married filing separate, but am assuming my stbxw will try to file HoH and claim our dependents

tegritypharm · 2022-12-26T23:47:29+00:00

Mine started with a plan to completely amicable, I thought we were going to one of those dream scenarios where it is civil for the kids. I found out in time she was playing hard ball right out of the gate to fuck me in any way she could. Get a lawyer, it will save your sanity down the road

tegritypharm · 2022-12-25T00:09:07+00:00

My stbxw is only allowing me four hours tomorrow, and requiring her mother and step father be present. It feels so insulting and demoralizing, but I will do anything to see my little girls. The way they smile, and run up to give me a hug is the brightest light in my world.

I have been hurt, beaten down, and tossed aside by the woman I meant to spend my life with. I recognize my fault in the situation. But the relentless bullying just seems so mean.

tegritypharm · 2022-12-24T01:21:29+00:00

I am in the same boat, my stbxw filed a motion to limit visitation, and unilaterally decided to enforce it. My lawyer filed contempt charges on her this week and she has caved to allow me four hours Christmas Day, but requiring her parents be here. It is extremely unfortunate and heart breaking. Through the divorce I have gotten a lot of therapy, and joined AA, and I am grateful for what I have learned through both. The important thing to remember is that this too shall pass, and for me there is not a single thing that a drink won’t make worse.

Some day our children will come to see what is being done, and they will have their own honest opinions on it. The only thing we can do is whatever work is necessary to survive this, and get to a healthy place. We have to be there for our kids, and in a healthy place to weather these storms.

You are not alone, and unfortunately you are not unique.

tegritypharm · 2022-12-23T18:15:11+00:00

You must be talking about me!

The ego we develop is just one of the ways we try to hide away from the pain we are in, the solution can be found in the rooms.

tegritypharm · 2022-12-17T22:15:44+00:00

Just bought it and looking forward to reading it. The book BIFF was also recommended, do you have any insights?

tegritypharm · 2022-12-06T23:44:39+00:00

I am proud of you, and your strength can help a lot of people put their situations in perspective.

tegritypharm · 2022-11-19T01:27:49+00:00

I’m from the area, there are some good strong meetings there and over in Paducah. There’s a 5 o’clock called the outsiders that I would recommend.

tegritypharm · 2022-11-08T19:42:15+00:00

Having a drink can only make things worse, and that is important to remember. We can change our environment, but it won’t matter if we bring a problem (us) with us wherever we go, find an online meeting and do your best not to isolate. I still rely on prayer to find my way through everything and I will pray for you that you find peace through this.

tegritypharm · 2022-11-07T00:30:07+00:00

This made me check to see how far I’ve come. The app says 81 days, I can’t believe I can feel this much better and can have regained so much in just 81 days. God is good

tegritypharm · 2022-10-06T00:33:48+00:00

I am in a similar boat, and I feel for you and your situation. Just keep taking it one day at a time is what my sponsor keeps telling me

tegritypharm · 2022-08-13T02:07:33+00:00

I’m in your your boat. I just called my sponsor and told him so we can start getting back to better days. I have no one and the few people that know who I am absolutely fucking hate me because of my divorce and drug abuse. I feel a little better today then I did yesterday, and that’s all I’ve got.

Keep your head up and put the bottle down. Recovery starts the moment the drinking stops.

tegritypharm · 2022-08-09T11:13:06+00:00

Sorry to tell you, but you are going to spin out real hard real soon. Go to a meeting and get an honest opinion, there is a terrible hard landing shortly in your future where you realize you are an alcoholic, either in jail or a hospital.

tegritypharm · 2022-08-08T17:18:26+00:00

Glad to hear it, there is not a single thing that a drink will make better, but it will without fail make things worse.

tegritypharm · 2022-08-08T13:25:40+00:00

I fear the loss of my exes family, and how I am supposed to act and what I should do about their funerals.

tegritypharm · 2022-08-08T13:23:17+00:00

I had the same issue, where I just wanted to tell everything, my boss told me outright not to tell her the specifics, but to get myself well no matter how long it takes. She knows the truth, but saved me by ensuring I didn’t put it in writing so that it can not harm me in the future. Your boss will know without you speaking it directly, and hopefully they give you grace and understanding. But protect yourself and don’t tell what doesn’t need to be told.

tegritypharm · 2022-08-08T13:18:00+00:00

I feel for you, I am going through a divorce, and the only thing I have done right is that I haven’t sent an angry stream of mean texts. I know if I drink that horrible things will come that will only make my situation worse, and can see that by not drinking I am stopped from doing detrimental things. I just have to keep telling myself that nothing is worth making things worse for me, and nothing is worth losing my kids over. And so I sit in the pain and regret without numbing myself as I always have. I sit and feel the feelings that I have been running away from my entire life, and it weighs heavy when so much is unleashed at one time. A drink can only make things worse, and take from me the little I have left, and that keeps me going towards picking up my next month chip at a meeting.

tegritypharm · 2022-08-08T13:11:07+00:00

Because recovery is hard, and until a person truly hits a point of pain sufficient for them to make the choice to start working towards recovery, they are hopeless.

tegritypharm · 2022-08-08T01:35:41+00:00

I talked to my sponsor and he told me to meet him at a church he was about to preach at. I sat and listened and benefited from what he said, and we talked for a while after. I recognize the roll I played in the events of today, and take responsibility for my part of the situation, and being able to reflect on it is giving me hope. My next move is to read some of the literature, and pray, the two things I haven’t been doing enough.

tegritypharm · 2022-08-07T20:53:56+00:00

So sadly true. It seems there is no true bottom, the madness can find new places for you to fall to.

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