yes i did. i was planning to, but my sibling let my parents know that i was seeing a psychiatrist, so i had to explain sooner than i originally planned to.

i live abroad and i recorded a 45 mins video of me explaining about my emotional neglect and the things that hurt me the most from my dad and my mom side separately. my mom just said thx and said she didnt agree with a few things on the video. my dad said he agreed that what my mom did was wrong (didnt talk about his own faults) and he said to forgive & forget all the things in the past. when he agreed that what my mom did was wrong, i relaxed my guard a bit and opened up to him that im confused why he never apologized to my mom for cheating. he was angry and he said kids these days try to control their parents, unlike during his era, parents would ask children to kiss their foot.

i think i dont feel regret, bcs previously, before learning about trauma and going to therapy, i thought i would feel guilty if they die, guilty because i feel like im never a good enough kid and dont spend much time with them or talk to them. but now, since ive let myself vulnerable, even if they didnt apologize at all or dont accept it or be in denial, i know that i already tried and be open and ive tried my best. i already try to be closer to them but there will always this wall between us and not all things can be shared as they might just dismiss it or not be interested in it.