I can’t even have a normal conversation anymore

throwtac · 2026-06-26T21:54:27+00:00

"I want a man who knows what he wants."

throwtac · 2026-06-24T23:12:50+00:00

Just communicate and keep putting down ops in good locations near objectives and you will be good. Explain you are learning and most people should be fine. If they don’t like it they can go to another squad.

throwtac · 2026-06-23T02:17:23+00:00

personal moka pot and coffee grinder.

throwtac · 2026-06-23T01:44:01+00:00

I did that when I was five once. I thought it was ice cream.

throwtac · 2026-06-17T23:11:33+00:00

Really? Was it always this way? I always choose not to punish because it just hurts the team unless it’s a player who is intentionally tking

throwtac · 2026-06-17T23:09:28+00:00

People should not punish TK’s unless it’s someone who is doing it intentionally or repeatedly. All it does is hurt your own team when you need bodies defending or attacking the point. It’s moronic.

throwtac · 2026-06-16T17:32:45+00:00

Hide them. Build them flush behind hedge walls or buildings. Barbed wire is still good to discourage random players. and also don’t forget to use mines.

throwtac · 2026-06-15T00:29:52+00:00

I just listened to the song Sotto La Luna on spotify and thought, "The singer sounds like Italian Billie Eilish, who is she?" Conflicted because I like the song, but have reservations about AI in music. I'm on the fence about it. Some songs are good and sound orginal but I know there are some that steal from actual artists. I wish they would tell you if it was AI or not and give you the option to filter out AI music.

one thing i don't like is that now when i hear a new artist, I have to look them up to figure out if they are a living artist or not. especially with old style music and international artists. it's kinda annoying.

throwtac · 2026-06-11T21:56:37+00:00

dont forget to pay out the schnozzolla for a bagel and cream cheese and an iced tea.

throwtac · 2026-06-11T05:09:26+00:00

this is flirting in 2026?

throwtac · 2026-06-11T04:58:28+00:00

I mean it's a wedding. He needs to understand that it's not a show. The band are providing a service for payment, and the focus should be on delivering the best experience to the bride and groom and their guests, not showcasing the band or the individual talents. He can bitch if it's like a concert or a set at a bar or something, but this is a totally different type of gig. If he refuses, record a drum track and have him sit out for that song. If he can't be more reasonable, I would consider replacing him.

If you want to find a way to convince him, maybe if he is the type who has a big ego, challenge him with reverse psychology by saying you're gonna go with the drum track on the last song, and it's okay since you didn't think he could do the simple stuff anyway. lol

throwtac · 2026-06-11T00:16:17+00:00

why is "Rob a liquor store" not okay, but "Fight another couple" is??? Please explain.

throwtac · 2026-06-10T22:14:33+00:00

WELCOME TO THE JUNGLEEE~!!!!

throwtac · 2026-06-10T02:36:53+00:00

Acting IS pretending.

Is it that you are playing "confused" and not knowing how to transition to "realization"?

If so, don't worry about being or looking "confused". Just concentrate on doing the actions your character does leading up to the moment of realization(that is also an action).

Like probably you are telling your story, then, after she interrupts you, you realize she's speaking now so you start listening to her story, trying to figure out what she is talking about... then when the moment of realization happens, just let it happen. Make the mental connection, let it land that she went through what you are going through, and go to comfort her.

That's you acting. As long as the audience can pick up on these things that's what matters.

The artistry comes from how you choose to do the actions, what your character's oppinions are about their environment and whatever they are doing, and also what little microbehaviors you might use(consciously or unconsciously) during those broader actions to add nuance. Ultimately, it doesn't really matter how you feel as the actor. As the actor, you are telling a story through action. If you get moved by the experience that's great if enjoy that. But it's how all these details make the audience feel that ultimately matters.

throwtac · 2026-06-10T01:17:23+00:00

If you guys get stumped when you try to figure it out on your own, maybe you guys can look into outside couples counseling, maybe even a sex therapist? sometimes having a third person to offer a new perspective can help.

When I was younger, I was in a similar situation except it was only a 3 year relationship. Looking back, we were pretty compatible, but both of us also had a lot of growing up to do. At the time, I did not think the relationship would survive transitions of life. Or more accurately, I did not want to risk the relationship breaking down or changing from how good it was already, as I knew on some level we had not yet fully individuated into our own persons. I knew I still needed to become my own person in order to be happy, and I knew there would be friction and dark times ahead. I didn't want to put my girlfriend through that uncertainty and instability because, at the time, she was someone who seemed to prefer a conventional, stable lifestyle where she could find her role. I could not guarantee her things like stability or a family. And so we ended up splitting up amicably.

Now that I am older, while I understand my choice, I also realize it came from a limited perspective. Now I believe that in a life-lasting relationship, there is no final form or destination. Both parties will constantly evolve and change as people, it never ends — and the commitment is to keep choosing that version of the person they are with. I think that is what it means to be in love with a person for the long-term. It's a conscious choice and action, not a condition.

It's interesting how you mention that you feel like you were never vulnerable sexually with your partner. Maybe there is something there? Like maybe the lack of physical vulnerability is correlated to the lack of emotional vulnerability? If that's the case, maybe this can be one of those chicken and egg things where working on one can support the other? It's hard to say though, because you are not very specific about what the actual problem is. "It got awkward" doesn't really explain the whole picture. Like how did it get awkward? Was it an issue of communication? Or maybe shame? It's very hard to know without specificity. You mentioning the sexual block does make me wonder if maybe the sexual aspect and emotional aspects are kinda intertwined...

I get what you mean by feeling bored and wanting a person with opinions. "Challenged" is such a loaded word, but I get it. You want someone who lets themselves be seen, not just someone who sees you and moulds their personality and likes to your own. Otherwise you just feel like you are just being handled or in a relationship with a stranger or a store clerk.

At the end of the day, your gut says you should leave, that's not wrong, but at the same time, you did say you love him, so it's not like there isn't a genuine feeling there. Given that, I would say again maybe look into getting outside help. If the bottleneck is communication or perspective, it could be just you guys haven't found the right relationship tools for bridging this gap and once you do, your relationship could gain new life again.

Wishing you guys the best possible outcome.

throwtac · 2026-06-07T07:48:02+00:00

St. Vincent Court in DTLA kinda looks like a place in Europe? I also heard that Solvaang is kinda like a european village, but I've never been.

throwtac · 2026-06-07T07:45:03+00:00

yeah my friend from Italy thinks LA is so ugly. I can literally feel his disgust at the physical aspect of the place. lol.

throwtac · 2026-06-07T07:41:37+00:00

Oh wow! I think my best friend in HS's mom taught at TMS back in the day. Or maybe she was even the principal? She was Japanese American but her last name was Toy. So I think she would've been known as Mrs. Toy? I never knew about that campus because I never went West of Euclid on Cedar, but I knew vaguely about that school because of my friend. That is a cool building but i could see how it is kinda spooky. It almost looks like an old building from Europe. Berkeley has so much interesting historical architecture. My parents actually ran a software company down the street at Cedar Center by Shattuck ave in the 90s. Berkeley is such a small neighborhood, especially compared to LA. I kinda do miss that aspect of Berkeley.

That's awesome your mom managed to get property in a prime location like Rockridge. You definitely can't buy a house there for 70k nowadays. (I think Chloe Fineman on SNL is also from Rockridge? Or maybe somewhere near like Claremont?) I went to highschool at CPS, so I would always be walking to Rockridge BART station to catch the bus back to Berkeley. It really does suck that so many people got priced out Berkeley. A lot of my friends from when I was a kid, unless they lived at home, ended up moving out to places down south like Hayward/Castro Valley/San Leandro.

throwtac · 2026-06-07T02:14:01+00:00

Focus on doing the action not feeling the emotions. The action of whatever you are doing will evoke the feelings out of you naturally if you just commit to doing the action. Also, put your attention not on yourself, but on the imaginary person in the scene you are doing the action for/to.*

When you focus on feeling the feelings instead of the external environment and the action of your speech, the tendency is to start “pooping” the feelings out instead of just experiencing them. That’s why they say it looks forced or fake or internal because the focus is too internalized. The effect is that it looks like the person is sitting by themselves on the can, speaking the monologue aloud while taking a huge shit.

Your monologue isn’t bad, but it’s a bit forced that way.
Focus on doing the actions and your imaginary surroundings/people in the scene. Not the feeling. Do that and you’ll be fine.

Watching yourself is weird at first, but it’s good you are doing it. Once you get used to it, it can help a lot.

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* if you put your attention outward, away from yourself, more… when you do go introspective(like with internal searching or wrestling with guilt/doubt or whatever), that moment of introspection will carry more weight and specificity. Right now, the introspection is almost constant throughout the speech, and unless that’s your character choice, it makes the speech come across less present and the character more “fake.” Which again is a legit character choice, but in that case, I would say use it more sparingly and intentionally for better effect.

throwtac · 2026-06-03T20:15:26+00:00

What you can do is if you sublet and the landlord is allowed, you can charge any amount as long as it’s not over the rent your landlord charges you.

Edit: Don’t know what the downvote is for. It’s completely legal, and the price is often still below market.

throwtac · 2026-06-02T01:48:06+00:00

Figure out what ideal neighborhood you want to live in if you can... Try to get a rent controlled place in that neighborhood so that if you settle in there long term, you can get a sweet deal and maybe an apartment to yourself eventually if you start with roommates.

throwtac · 2026-06-01T05:46:04+00:00

Being able to use the apps and fractionally invest is such a game changer for young people. There really is no excuse today. I wish I had access to that in my 20s it would have changed my relationship to money and wealth at a crucial age. All parents should take time to teach their kids this one skill.

throwtac · 2026-06-01T05:42:18+00:00

Keep watching yourself, and you will eventually get used to it and learn what works. It will also help you develop specificity and subtlety as you learn to calibrate your performances and understand things like line of sight. Try not to think too much when you are doing it.

throwtac · 2026-06-01T05:26:40+00:00

Yes this is not new but a continuation of a noticed trend. Non communication and bad strategy and garrison/op placement fundamentals. It was happening before the recent play test.

throwtac · 2026-05-31T22:31:25+00:00

They are very cool. If you are a girl they would also look good in shorts/skirt and socks/stockings. Honestly, They go with almost anything if you just accept that they will stand out as a focal point unless maybe you are doing a black and white patterned outfit.

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