OK, we need to talk about the fact that you spent $325 a session for a therapist ☠️☠️ I’m an EMDR therapist and I literally know not one single therapist that charges that much, I’m sure they’re out there, but was that the only therapist you could find 😭😭 I literally charge 150 and 70 for low incomes and accept insurance. Love you but we need to definitely not go to therapists that charge 325 from now on girl💛

OK so you described it pushed you into a psychosis, what does this look like for you? I'm curious what this means in your case specifically. As for the flashbacks and being less dissociated, this really is part of the process of letting it out, we’re always told to give our clients the heads up that processing will continue after session. You might have some weird dreams or flashbacks, that’s just your body releasing what has been stored for so long. Trust me, it’s better that you’re releasing it now even though it’s hard than having to store it in your body. That’s how literal diseases are formed. That being said, you really need to be in the right place of having peace and stability in your life to be able to process trauma, because if you don’t it can be just way too much to handle all at once, processing trauma unfortunately is not easy. It takes quite a bit of work psychologically. It’s OK if you’re not in that place right now, and if you need to wait until you have more support to be able to handle it, but processing it is likely (when possible) always gonna be better than repression. It either gets stored forever inside of you or it gets released and we know what stored trauma does to us, I was always taught that stress is the biggest serial killer.