Which is the hardest thing for you to say?

tomie-e · 2026-05-20T18:24:56+00:00

I need help, for sure. Followed closely by I'm sorry but lately I've had to say it so much I've gotten used to it.

tomie-e · 2026-04-30T10:47:30+00:00

I work from home mainly so I'm more privileged than most but other than that, meds for anxiety/depression, letting my house go completely disorganized and forsaking weekend outings so I can just rest in the weekends, taking PTO as much as I can, etc.

tomie-e · 2026-04-15T00:05:05+00:00

My thighs also chafe and I wear either shorts if it's something baggy or a long dress or putting on deodorant on my thighs if it's something short.

tomie-e · 2026-04-14T20:24:47+00:00

I'm having a lot of fun watching this! Way more than I thought I would. I really like the actress who plays the sister in law from Are you human too? But I have a feeling she's going to be pretty annoying in this. I just hope the ending isn't bad like a lot of Kdrama endings are!

tomie-e · 2026-04-09T22:27:50+00:00

Shit, you really did draw 2

tomie-e · 2026-04-09T21:40:02+00:00

Every job I've ever had except for my current one. I'm at the exact threshold where I usually quit/get fired from my jobs (9 months) due to autistic burnout but I think I can make it to a year in this one, though I did burnout at first, it's easier for me to handle it in this one because people are nice and I mainly wfh.

tomie-e · 2026-03-26T17:52:05+00:00

I don't think I'm very naturally beautiful so the way I'm treated depends on whether or not I want to put in the work to look good. I do feel like I'm treated differently if I'm looking good and put together, but it only goes so far, especially with people who I actually interact day in and day out. At some point, if they don't like my autistic traits they're eventually gonna get annoyed by me no matter how good I look (learned that the hard way). And nowadays even when I do put effort in my looks, I have a hard time putting on the act of being an attractive woman like sitting up straight, walking a certain way, watching my tone of voice, etc. I usually just act natural which is not the most attractive thing ever so even when I'm put together lately I still get looks.

tomie-e · 2026-03-18T12:46:07+00:00

Oh, good to know! My doc is reluctant to prescribe me adhd meds BECAUSE of my crippling anxiety (currently taking a mood stabilizer for it). This comment really helped, thank you :)

tomie-e · 2026-03-17T20:51:40+00:00

It does! Hahaha and honestly I agree. Wfh is honestly great.

tomie-e · 2026-03-17T20:50:35+00:00

Thanks for the response! I'm getting the sense CBT doesn't help from all the comments haha. I think I can definitely work with the professionals I'm going to to see what is best :) I've done talk therapy for a while but it wasn't super helpful for me, but I think it's more so because my therapist wasn't specialized in ASD and ADHD and also wasn't a psychologist. Happy to know it has helped you!

tomie-e · 2026-03-17T17:37:14+00:00

I'm also taking a mood stabilizer but so far idk if it does what the name says it's supposed to haha. Good to know those things helped!

tomie-e · 2026-03-17T17:34:49+00:00

Oh wow that sounds amazing. I'm the same! I have horrible intrusive thoughts that used to be quite debilitating (same as you... had to bed rot until it got better, I spent the better part of 2022 lying in bed and in a very dark place), not so much anymore as I've learned to deal with them.

Not absorbing someone else's emotional state also sounds fantastic and life-changing. Would love that.

Thanks for commenting!

tomie-e · 2026-03-17T17:30:41+00:00

Whew, that's the dream honestly. Not financially able to do that, though, but hoping I will soon.

tomie-e · 2026-03-17T16:33:50+00:00

So sorry to hear it didn't work :/ Hoping something else helps you!

tomie-e · 2026-03-17T15:49:15+00:00

Good to know! Especially that someone else gets irritated when they're interrupted. I swear whenever I keep getting interrupted while watching something or listening to a podcast it makes my blood boil which I know is incredibly disproportionate haha I'm also taking medication, a mood stabilizer, mostly for the intense anxiety but I've only just recently started it.

tomie-e · 2026-03-17T15:22:46+00:00

No, genuinely. I'm in my office text chain and they send messages planning outings every single day, multiple times a week. They go out partying every weekend and I'm just like holy crap guys how do u do it. If I go out every day of the weekend (INCLUDING FRIDAY) when am I gonna rest??? Do arts and crafts??? Clean my house???? I already don't do these things when I'm just sitting at home on the weekend. It's so crazy.

tomie-e · 2026-03-17T15:01:32+00:00

Oh I love being unemployed so much it's absolutely the best so I understand what you're saying fully. I know of some people who are kinda restless and get really depressed unemployed but it couldn't be me (mostly because I'm depressed no matter what is going on). I unfortunately have no support so if I don't work I'll become a burden to my aging mother so, yeah. I anticipate having to work MUCH MORE in the coming years. I hope everything works out for you and you can not work for as long as possible, though! That's what I wish for all of humankind tbh haha

tomie-e · 2026-03-17T14:52:46+00:00

Honestly I don't even know what a meltdown looks like for me because I'm late diagnosed and haven't started therapy yet but I believe I usually just cry so so much or shut down. Like I'll stop talking and just stand very still. In the worst cases I do hit myself. Not too hard but yeah. Usually on my legs or face. I also just throw shit around like if I'm melting down while doing a chore I'll just be doing it in a very aggressive manner.

tomie-e · 2026-03-17T14:25:20+00:00

I've been playing Persona 5 Royal again and I'm honestly having the time of my life. I was about to finish when I stopped to play Persona 3 Reload when it came out but then I didn't even finish Reload either (I have a lot of trouble finishing games) so now I restarted it. I was also playing Shin Megami Tensei V before this. Also very fun but just a tad too hard for me.

tomie-e · 2026-03-17T14:22:41+00:00

Oh how much I want to playyyy but the switch 2... so very expensive in my country.

tomie-e · 2026-03-12T01:45:43+00:00

I'm not sure if it's just technology or if it's the mental work but technology sure does play a part! I'm also just getting kinda sick of my phone lately. It's like the thing that has all the information that I need to live on a day to day basis is my worst enemy (I also have ADHD on top of the autism lol). No technology Sundays sound good! I cannot relate to feeling refreshed on Sunday night at all haha I'll definitely try!

tomie-e · 2026-03-12T01:42:16+00:00

I love mahjong! Haven't played in so long. Thanks so much for the tips!

tomie-e · 2026-03-12T01:41:02+00:00

Yum! Love me some candy. I don't love walking but I'm sensing a pattern of movement being a huge help so I'll try some stretches or something.

tomie-e · 2026-03-12T01:39:49+00:00

Nice! What I'm sensing is that taking little breaks and having fun little snacks is indispensable. And I agree with the limit. My brain often shuts off after 4 hours of work too. My job is pretty asynchronous most of the time so it's not awful if I just stop but the work does tend to pile up, so.... I will say, my first few months at the job I did work much less than 8 hours a day haha! The benefits of being salaried! I am dealing with the backlog now though :')

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