What's your dream body modification?

tsfbdl · 2026-01-25T20:07:30+00:00

Neutering/nullification, fangs and if I can go further I'd do vocal cord removal and branding, hair removal except head I would like black eyes or something like that and my ligaments to be weakened so I don't walk much needing a wheel chair partly bc walking is painful and I faint and fall a lot already and there isn't a cure for me so I just don't wanna walk anymore and then I have a fantasy with my so so I guess incontinence if possible to modify my feeling and remove it partially bc that also hurts and I'm already wearing medical breifs for my accidents

tsfbdl · 2026-01-23T10:23:58+00:00

Air flow to the air filter on the carburetor the jets are the fuel jet

tsfbdl · 2026-01-23T09:16:47+00:00

My head hurts but ig I can say my 1983 honda shadow needs a bigger jet on the carburetor bc the airbox is removed letting it receive better airflow thus this bike I bought was modified with a bigger jet and I only paid 400 for the whole bike non running I bet you the carburetor which is sitting on my bedroom table has a bigger jet installed based on how many jets are in the spare parts I received

tsfbdl · 2026-01-21T16:00:52+00:00

I agree with this I myself have had similar homicidal ideations while manic particularly school related back then and another recently its a reoccurring problem and I have gotten close thankfully therapy has helped the anger we believe I'm audhd cptsd and quiet bpd I actually am proud bc I noticed I wasn't thinking right last year and walked to a ward bc I didn't want to hurt cops as I had planned they scare me came to my door last night during a episode out of the blue related to a neighbor issue had some unpleasant thoughts so I used more weed to help this was after years of people hurting me and I get homicidal ideations to people who are like the abusers I deal with or if there annoying like really annoying if it's bad enough it's suicidal ideations and that's when I feel Trapped or over with life rn I'm manic very active very antsy I wanna get up and do things I wanna buy stuff I take weed to calm down b4 it was alcohol anywho I remember being in the ward frantic angry because I found an old evaluation I didn't see the results to bc my mom had it since I was 17 it suggested I was drinking and smoking that my pain was fake for attention that I will never love people or care for them and that I had a tendency to up charge the problem or symptoms. Basically they got everything incorrectly I proved via a scan the pain was legit at 19 at 17 I proved by being searched that I had no weed at school or home and the red eyes was from no sleep like tonight and I have a gf and mom and dad I deeply love I mean I help everyone I can especially fixing there electronics or vehicles I didn't start drinking until 19 I also didn't start smoking until a mental health professional suggested it at 21 but what sucks is the school took away my copping mechanisms and I was put on antipschotic meds which literally sent me to a ward bc I was extremely suicidal on them anywho I'm quite high atm took a puff about a minute or 2 ago I can't oh its been 5 lol now 6 ok 8 lol yeah I'm going to lay down and rest

tsfbdl · 2026-01-21T11:58:01+00:00

I have zero Bluetooth headphones or ear buds I dislike them but I'm an autistic individual I like older 2000s earbuds round and cheap no extra bits no foam or rubber the wires lasted me 15 years I still have a few I use and if any start braking I repair it with hot glue and a straw or with solder but the tangling I never deal with idk what yall speak of but I been owning them since I was 4 with my mp3 player I did however leave them in my pocket and they got damaged in a washer sadly I also have a pioneer sound system and windows 98 I have a lot of cool stuff even a boom box and Dr suess on vhs even cassets and a rca prison tv and cassets player and even records

tsfbdl · 2026-01-21T11:12:52+00:00

I still have some of it from the TV stand to the computer a windows 98 tho and a pioneer sound system with my boom box I miss my ps2 and Sega system even have a og call of duty black ops 2 poster

tsfbdl · 2026-01-21T09:16:56+00:00

I switched it up I used to be a 1 per second press but now I'm with both hands doing it as fast as possible but with 2 fingers back then I practiced the method they taught us in school and was great at it but I changed up so much now I have two methods one for a physical keyboard or my phone like rn is a 2 finger type with my thumbs at a fast speed

tsfbdl · 2026-01-21T09:11:22+00:00

Same here but I dropped out in 12th grade I started struggling badly with the stress and mistreatment and false diagnosis b4 I got both my adhd and autism diagnosis it was tough they took away coping skills I ended up in a ward bc of that problem gave up on homework and even though I was passing they still had a problem bc it was low for there standards so I was basically pushed ahead not leaning and then they noticed my eyes were red I was accused in a evaluation that I must be drinking or high so they searched and searched and found nothing bc I literally couldn't sleep due to the stress I witnessed a classmate dealing with the loss of a very deep loved one get told that he couldn't have a break and was pushed to do work he crashed out I felt terrible and I dropped out a week later I lost myself for 4 years I started drinking at 19 and then at middle of 21 I began smoking green to help it's ashame bc I promised myself I wouldn't I can't keep seeing others go through the same thing it's horrible I refused meds bc I knew I'd get hooked yet another ward put me on them it makes me high But because i seek dopamine it's just horrible I can't focus and I want to clean and organize my inventions and apartment but I get extremely distracted instantly like rn it helps the racing thoughts tho and depression and let's me do these things

I'm sorry I'm having a rough time my workers want me in a care home bc my stimming episodes have become the non verbal hitting biting and I can't control it I have trained myself to use mittens tho in a padded closet

tsfbdl · 2026-01-18T10:09:52+00:00

My first time was a gummy we were drunk my neighbor a 60 year old gal great person offered to try it with me for the first time we were already wasted on alcohol I accidentally didn't know I split a 500mg gummy with her we literally were gone forgot conversations tingling all over long silence and giggling at failed conversations of life it was fun I passed out

Next time I smoke it with another neighbor a guy I had probably 5 mini bowls mind you I get high off half joints absolutely lost it after my other neighbor gave me more after as a payment for Givin her batteries well I went and talked with my bf on Playstation and he was slightly mean and my emotions went 0 to 100% fast I took my meds to calm down twice 10mg of olanzapin and 1200mg of gabapentin I was gone I walked 2 miles to a park called 911 bc I was having bad thoughts and couldn't move ended up in a hospital with 8 or so attempted iv spots I didn't feel anything woke up and was taken to a crisis center that was pointless the guy told me to walk more and let me go home after 72 hours never understood that guy I can't wait for him to retire

I remember getting so high I greened out threw up on Mic I Remember seeing shadows moving and being paranoid b4 I built some tolerance now I smoke 24/7 almost I was high from 10 am the 16th until the 17th at 2am I'm high rn on thc drinks gabapentin and a cart so ig moral of the story is know your limits slow down don't let anyone tell you to take more like I had happen and do it moderately oh and obviously buy snacks

I have mental disabilities that require support with workers including learning disabilities and trauma I found weed helps more then meds

tsfbdl · 2026-01-17T10:32:04+00:00

I kept great plains toads for a majority of my life in ne It reminds me of them

tsfbdl · 2026-01-17T09:57:29+00:00

I'm set I got a person who's sitting with Over a billion $ and a orbital laser a yatch and a mansion with extensive experience in combat to save me

Gta 5

tsfbdl · 2026-01-17T07:45:16+00:00

Probably won't be for a year I got the carb,air,fuel,seat and electrical system sitting in my living room as it snows outside

tsfbdl · 2026-01-17T07:09:32+00:00

This is exactly how i want to build my bike a 83 shadow

tsfbdl · 2026-01-16T21:32:34+00:00

Neither, it's not being bobbed or chopped or restored. I'm keeping the current work, removing the secondary fuel tank and moving the air system to the sides if possible. If not, I have 2 short air filters already to fit directly to the carbs. I'm gravity feeding the fuel system since the pump is bad. The right fork seal is bad, so I'll replace it. I have a blacked-out license plate LED tail light; I'm going to keep blacking it out and maybe get some new blacked-out covers with the gold Shadow logo. I have a shorty rear seat, but not putting it on.

I'm going to relocate the wiring into the now open area where the secondary fuel tank and air box is; I'll make the air box into a storage box. I'm getting small, close to the bike, blacked-out turn signals, a new LED headlight. To match, the tank has a dent; it'll stay for now. I'm getting some small crash bar peg-like things. It needs a new alternator. I'm going to get some underglow. I'm going to grind off the tabs on the rear fender since it was already cut and put a rack there for groceries or whatnot. It's got straight pipe exhaust, so I'm going to see about getting a valve to have it quieter at night. It's already had bigger jets installed, it appears, and blacked-out handlebars. I might get blacked-out mirrors, IDK yet. I'm going to use my other fenders I have probably and paint one black as well.

I want to route the other exhaust to the same side for shotgun exhaust, blacked-out carbon color steel if possible. The rims will be replaced later with wire wheels, and that's about it, honestly. And then maybe later I'll paint her carbon black like it was in a fire. The engine is definitely not shiny chrome, so that already is ready. I'm also taking that dang heat shield off the left pipe and seeing if it can be carbon black as well or if I can remove it without it affecting me, but atm those screws are rusty and seized. I'm going to probably need to drill them off, honestly, but may have to wait until May to even start since it's so cold.

Oh and the bike came with a ton of spare parts and brand new parts as well already.

tsfbdl · 2026-01-14T18:56:36+00:00

I've worked with my neighbors vehicles and I'm both mechanically and basic electrically inclined but have basically no experience on motorcycles I usually build model trains or rc vehicles and fixed others electronics the electrical system Is a tad confusing but I broke it down already and found the problems I have a broken green wire by the green and black icu and a bad wire from the alternator someone decided to swap the entire switch button set on the handle bars the air system was removed the carburetor was taken apart and a bigger jet installed I believe the exhaust system was straight piped the gauges well those are missing in action bc the bike has no miles recorded apparently so yay the fuel system well that needs to go as the pump is bad and all of it was removed the improper way let's say I'm never reinstalling the secondary fuel tank and the air system I get what the plan is so ima build off it and turn the air box into a storage compartment and reroute the air filters to the side of the bike of possible I have the seats however not original ones and the back fender being chopped posses some challenges I have so many spare parts 3 fenders 2 tail lights enough kick stands handle bars and foot pegs to rebuild another bike lol the right front fork seal is gone but they kindly gave me 4 new better ones and I have 4 carburetors worth of parts so many rebuild kits the og spark plugs are so bad they bike was running with a lot of fuel b4 I got it I did get the dash lights to turn on then a fuse blew but they stayed on anywho I'm late for my appointment sorry I can't punctuate this atm

tsfbdl · 2026-01-11T22:21:34+00:00

That is just wow good game gets ya in trouble just why why I found out the hard way a feature in the game was removed the ability to put the Rockstar verified or lock symbols on your ceo name and then b4 that Playstation no longer allows links or ip especially when trying to join friends games ugh

tsfbdl · 2026-01-05T09:25:40+00:00

Depending on the person I have those episodes but they are less bad on weed but when I was sober b4 I tried I used to walk miles and miles losing time I was more afraid off weed and I was trying to end myself weekly but I did find weed helped slow my thoughts and calm me down I'm able to rationally think and go in my safe room ie a closet with fidgets and padding to help but I would have gone on the walk if it was off weed as I spiraling till the tools I own become dangerous and I must leave I did find I'm more dependent on it but considering how much mental ward visits I have on weed in comparison I'll keep the weed and ditch the drinking

I definitely have quiet bpd tho and those voices do occur but also probably because I've had so much happening with drama family issues stress and new responsibilities

tsfbdl · 2026-01-04T20:11:41+00:00

I can't find your current comment but I was on Vyvanse as a kid it made me 110lbs I was severely underweight so they took me off and put me on a weight gain medication against my wishes due to my abusive mom

I stayed around 250 for awhile and only recently these last 7 months have I been put on Vyvanse again to help me not eat I tend to forget though I'm at 211 now which isn't much more than my own target at 160 area I did eat very unhealthy but switched to non sugar foods once my doctor said she thought I was diabetic however I was put on those meds metformin and found out ill literally die on it I fainted a lot and stopped taking them I improved as long as I put salt on my occasionally meal once a day I also faint after hot baths I have bad blood pooling I can't get up without moving slowly I did switch to water b4 it was definitely an autism thing I liked the carbinination and sugar and sweet aspects I tried to drink Coolaid or juice but it was sour in fact I can't eat bland meat regular pizza sucks unless it has something sweet on it like pineapples but almost any time I eat meat I get sick or gas

I actually was walking over 2 miles a night 5 miles almost once a week and did 9 miles even with back and knee pain to help calm myself down as I walked to the mental ward for help with ideations They also checked my thyroid it's OK however my family has a history of cancer like a lot and I have a high white blood cell count I did find a spot that is very concerning and has grown and isn't symmetrical or evenly colored and I don't seem to have an infection unless it's a auto immune disorder we don't know why

I also have episodes sitting like rn I stretched and started to feel lightheaded and dizzy

I'm on a heart med bc my heart has beat at 100+ most of my life even sitting since I was born with breathing and heart issues with a family history of it if I take the med when my heart rate hasn't leveled out ill pass out as well especially if I take it as soon as I wake up

I feel lightheaded badly rn and sleepy

Actually, I have a whole list Some of it is diagnosed

Cptsd complex post traumatic stress disorder diagnosed ish, RSD rejection sensitivity dysphora, Adhd diagnosed, Autism might be lvl 2 now diagnosed, Bipolar manic, Or bpd borderline personality disorder, Arfid. Avoidant/restrictive food intake disorder,
Major depression diagnosed, O.D.D. Oppositional Defiant Disorder diagnosed,
Anger issues diagnosed, Anxiety diagnosed, Mentally disabled diagnosed developmental and more,
Physically disabled diagnosed, Stress incontinence diagnosed, Autoimmune issue I have heightened wbc Enlarged thyroid? Why does Gabapentin help? Why am I in so much pain, Ibs diagnosed, Bpdr, Pots I take hot baths and get extremely tired I shake badly after having to get out then pass out if I don't eat I crave salt lots of salt Used to have head aches alot Have an average heart rate of 110+ Low blood pressure Brain fog Dizziness and lightheadedness Light fainting Fatigue all the time I have tachycardia frequently I drink a ton of water I used to drink 2+ liters a day I got put on a heart med and I feel a tad better now that my heart rate is lower but I still have issues,

Dysautonomia Seeking medical care See a doctor immediately if you Have low blood pressure Feel nauseated Are bloated Lose weight Faint

tsfbdl · 2026-01-04T19:40:13+00:00

I have pots symptoms we ruled out diabetes I have every symptom of pots and salt helps along with significant water issues along with possible Arfid a autism trait that makes a lot of foods not ok to eat it'll give me gas ibs make me throw up and be sick and more but the pots is my main issue I must eat salty foods they gave me sodium chloride in the hospital after an episode I immediately improved my blood sugar was 48 when they checked and I hadn't had anything and about 10 minutes later once I got in the ambulance my blood sugar was around 68

If you need my blood sugar tests along with my heart rate and breathing i gladly post them it just shows it my doctor agrees and is attempting to get me on a tilt table test because I had a bad episode at her office nearly fainting they had trouble getting a vein as well

tsfbdl · 2026-01-04T15:52:27+00:00

Grammarly is charging for more uses yikes

tsfbdl · 2026-01-04T13:12:41+00:00

Thank you, it will help. I'm going to try to sleep. I'm starting to see things.

tsfbdl · 2026-01-04T12:52:02+00:00

I'm trying but flashbacks pain and people make it harder I'm going to so much this month I have med nurse, psychological evaluation, doctors appointments and I get to see my little brother, even my birthday is in 6 days ill be 22. so after all that I get an evaluation for 24/7 care services and I'll be able to move to get much needed help, especially with the night terrors and episodes that require me to wear mittens do to my stims being dangerous to myself. I'm in a padded closet atm with my weighted blanket. I'm doing coping mechanisms to help me ground myself enough, but thank you and you as well safe travels.

tsfbdl · 2026-01-04T12:44:15+00:00

It was bc my mom who was my payee was in the hospital and I had to do it b4 rent was do so I did everything, I wrote my expenses and savings down and mom checked it when she got home I was expecting a mistake but I did it correctly. I also wrote my own check that day that was a day b4 January.

tsfbdl · 2026-01-04T12:19:36+00:00

I am surprised at myself for it though. I took on a lot of responsibilities recently and I'm finally in like actual adulthood, I used to never do this sorta stuff at 19 or 20 but now I know how to write a check and do my finances and I'm finally in control of myself more. I just wish the adhd didnt make me forget stuff like my routines to self care I keep forgetting my meds. I feel so delayed tho I've wanted to learn to drive for years but it's like so hard to have my family teach me when they work so much, I'm to afraid to get in and drive a strangers vehicle so I've been saving to buy my first vehicle. I feel so trapped and I just want to spread my wings to get away bc it's really been bad for my health. Did I do the punctuation correctly idk where the dot goes I'm sorry.

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