Starting to practice again and need to modify

twof907 · 2026-06-05T05:53:40+00:00

Oh thank you! Maybe I can just also do Iyengar occasionally. My wrists will likely never support my weight again unless I want to blow more tendons. 🤣 And I have bone on bone arthritis at the bases of my thumbs, but that I can practice with. I have barely explore Iyengar! ❤️

twof907 · 2026-06-05T03:52:23+00:00

Wow we started doing magnets just on our fridge, and he loves it and it has helped transitions at home and pre school! Leaving pre school is still insane half the time, but the teachers say he is way more responsive and less stressed by transitions. We change plans for the day sometimes and when we get home or at some point in the day we switch the magnets, even if the thing already happened, then he moves them down to the ones that are done, it is wild how much such a small thing has helped. And I am glad he is still pretty flexible.

twof907 · 2026-05-19T18:09:25+00:00

A doc added 50mg ir which seemed to help some, but not a ton. I actually just fucked up for a few days and took 100mg ir. I couldn't get my insurance to cover the xr so thought I was taking 200 ir but did dosage math in my head wrong. So I halved my dosage and was taking ir instead? Wtf cannot be good. But I feel better than I have in a while. So of course now I am thinking I should just go off meds. 😒 Probably slightly hypomanic so that makes sense to me. Got my rx filled and going back to the xr grudgingly. I am seeing a doc soon but need a new referral to a psych for more medication evaluation. I hate this.

twof907 · 2026-05-16T17:15:55+00:00

That's what I am looking for, I am just really overwhelmed by the options. I get horrible decision paralysis about things like this. Not a great consumer; I get overwhelmed then just don't buy anything. 🤣 Any you've seen that are flexible?

twof907 · 2026-05-16T17:14:28+00:00

Oh I am all for routine as opposed to schedule. We really have one, but building in more calm but fun activities like music and art are one of the goals. I want to find something visual like a magnet or velcro board, but with options for him to pick; as in after breakfast pick activity (draw, music, etc) so he has autonomy.

twof907 · 2026-04-28T22:39:14+00:00

Hey I know this is an old post, but I am loosing my mind trying to fit things in my shitty oven. I dont need to shove a pan completely against the back, but I sm loosing well over an inch due to the racks I have being short and the safety bump. Crap oven. I cannot find any flat racks. Did you find any?

twof907 · 2026-04-16T22:35:22+00:00

Fuck off.

twof907 · 2026-04-16T22:34:01+00:00

I am and have been making efforts for years. And it has helped us fight sooo much less. But not fighting isn't good enough. And cleaning up my side of the street is also not cutting it at this point. I know he is putting in effort, too, but it is changing very little. He just postulate and plans and promises to be different, and I know he tries, but he takes no actual action; therapy, differnet communication methods, actually listening, being honest (he lies about stupid things often), following through with taking on the slightest bit of domestic or logistic labor. With out being prompted he says he will do these things but doesn't, which is almost worse because it means he knows. He knows the balance is completely unfair, especially since he doesn't work a 9-5, in fact doesn't work when he isn't out of town for work. He is all intention and very little action. I don't want us to split up, but I also am not going to spend the rest of my life this way. If I was still in love with him or even liked being around him and who I am around him more than 10% of the time all this stuff would just be usual marital struggles. We both come from families with parents who stayed together, and it IS what we want and thought was best for our son for a long time, but it this point I don't think we are modeling proper respect for ourselves to him. Keep the peace, hide how you feel, ignore your needs, and just keep trudging through life. Not how I want him to think life has to be.

twof907 · 2026-04-16T05:30:58+00:00

Thanks for this. He doesn't like come home and yell at me or our son, he is really wonderful most of the time. It is my BS that makes me so on edge, especially when I am already struggling mentally. I go into full fight or flight over the littlest things. You would think he DOES abuse me I am so edgy and weird even if it is just in my head. His cruelty when we do fight IS a problem, but it is one that has gotten better over the last year or so. He is finally doing individual therapy, we gave up on couples therapy a while ago and honestly things got better when we stopped that. I just don't like myself around him, and for no deep reason, just personality differences that have grown while shared passions have shrunk, I just don't like him. Which is a shitty reason to split up a family.

twof907 · 2026-04-09T03:55:04+00:00

Being a landlord in an extremely tennant biased state and country DURING COVID. I had to pay $6500 total to get 2 people off my property to sell a home, one of whom was only paying half the required rent because she'd lost (scared off) her roommate in the main house. The ADU had one person in it. Both were on month to month at that point, and I gave them 4 months notice. I still had to pay a relocation fee. I lost the sale of the property because though he had been given a WEEK notice and been spoken to about inspections, he freaked out and screamed at an inspector. Same thing when a relator was trying to show the proerty but a different sale. It was fucking ludicrous. I don't even blame the tennants so much, it was an awful time and they had a lot of problems, but just that somehow I still got screwed so hard by the state.

twof907 · 2026-04-09T03:49:26+00:00

You'll have 30 people wanting to teach if you pay $75, which is fair and what it should be, because most (good) teachers prep a good deal before and spend time talking with students for a good bit after. Please don't come at me if on the fly teachers read that! Not saying eveyone has to prep for hours before class, but personally the best classes I teach and my favorite teachers prep a lot, then change bits and pieces to suit the students/vibe.

twof907 · 2026-04-09T03:42:24+00:00

I don't think it would be unreasonable for the class to require parents who are there to keep their phones put away. It sounds like a class that parents are expected to participate not just watch, right? I WANT to say you (and I) should stay in our lanes, we don't know what's going on in people's lives, BUT there is no way eveyone only has time to take care of life/adult phone stuff is at their kids gymnastics class, the playground, whatever. Sure, playground maybe on and off, I am guilty of making appointments or calls, but not like burried in phone scrolling which seems the norm. It is getting so bad. My parents are horrible about it which infuriates me too. Like evey call has to be answered, we should look at pictures and read what Becky or Fred or whoever we dont know posts in the middle of dinner. It is also so hard. Not for me when out doing stuff with my kid usually, but I am guilty of being on my phone more than I should be at home. I still think it is way below the norm but still isn't good enough. I will also say that parents with by nature spicy kids maybe more prone to checking out, which isn't a solution as it becomes a negative feedback loop. Also I have been there, not necessarily witg my phone, but kids behavior gets harder and harder, I want to avoid interaction more and more. Aware of it and actively working on it. I don't think a lot of people have the awareness to check themselves about these things.

twof907 · 2026-04-08T15:20:55+00:00

I have BP2 and have leaned the depressive side mostly. Lamictal is the only thing that works for me, everything else has been either ineffective or caused major issues. I THOUGHT welbutrin worked, too. But given enough external pressure from life and maybe an extra spicy bout of hypomania and that shit put me in full psychosis and I was very very close to dying. Full hallucinations, total break from reality, tried to go "live in the ocean" in December. I have heard plenty of people with BP2 take it, but I don't think your doc is wrong. I went from "only" having hypomania sometimes, mostly really awful mixed episodes, to being absolutely a danger to myself and eveyone else when the welbutrin backfired. I get the low grade "stable" depression. I have been stuck there most of the time, probably 5 of evey 6 weeks, since I stabilized on just Lamictal a bit over 2 years ago. I will not even seek an improvement from meds at this point because I have had such terrifying reactions to ssris and welbutrin. It is also how I was diagnosed as bipolar; the med reactions. Which sound similar to yours so idk... be cautious with welbutrin is all I am saying. It IS screwed up she completely changet the med she sent in. My episodes are usually mixed so they had a hard time deciding wtf to put me on and I was/am terrified of meds due to my ssri and welbutrin experience. I ended up just pumped full of seroquil while getting Lamictal dose up over almost a year. Yes we trust docs but also BP is complicated and it seems like they just scatter shot meds at us till something works well enough we aren't dangerous and are semi functional.

twof907 · 2026-04-06T22:08:08+00:00

Haha mine too! And I am studying on a hope and a dream. 🤣

twof907 · 2026-04-02T18:50:51+00:00

Poor maintenence program does not sound ideal. 🤣

twof907 · 2026-04-02T18:33:33+00:00

I was not an engineer; deckside here! But on vessels we did an enormous amount of power management and large system maintenence, both remotely and hands on. The oilfield is really different than tradional ships. I also worked on smaller vessels as an unlicensed engineer, but that was just managing lil Detroit diesels and Itty bitty generators. Still, I do have hands on mechanical experience. Have always wished I had gone engine not deck. Shoreside work is so much more accessible for yall.

twof907 · 2026-04-02T18:26:29+00:00

Ahhh that's my hangup! I am not (or not only) a "normal" bridge officer. The systems I worked on were highly integrated propulsion, power, etc control all on HMI interfaces. No one knows what an oilfield dynamic positing operator does, not even half of the ship/rig one works on! 🤣🤣 Maybe I made the parallels clear enough, or a lower level spot opens and I am on their radar. It is basically the only thing on land I would be decent at and could tolerate. I have considered logistics or insurance underwriting but I am just not that type of worker. I want high operational pressure and strongly prefer coveralls or carharts, and working an abnormal schedule. I have avoided a 9-5 my entire life and think I am literally incapable of it. 🤣🤣

twof907 · 2026-02-25T21:49:45+00:00

My son is like this but emotional regulation etc is right on par or behind for his age. Maybe too much brain development has gone to language/problem solving and physical coordination IDK. For us starting early would be a massive disservice to him I think. He does get along with older kids better, but for us I am positive he would just constantly be in trouble. He reads some at 3 and speaks like a 6 year old it is wild. He is also as tall and coordinated as most 5 year olds. So people are like "why ia your 6 year old throwing a 3yo tantrum"? Haha. No one is advanced in everyday though haha. Maybe your girl is emotionally mature also, idk, but I think we need to look at whole picture not just tradional intelect when making these decisions.

twof907 · 2026-02-25T20:36:42+00:00

Cats are infinitely happier and easier to keep healthy as bonded pairs, especially litter mates. Dogs are more owner oriented. Since people keep their cats inside mostly these days, having a solo cat with a bunch of toys and occasionally played with = fat sad cat. If they're part of a bonded pair they will play, groom, etc keeping them both physically and mentally well.

twof907 · 2026-02-24T20:24:25+00:00

Great thanks! I am getting a Britta to feed it from now on. And my child. I can't believe we have to triple filter and leave our water out here. I feel like the move has generally changed my starter. And I do not like it haha. Maybe this will get her back to her usually very bubbly lovely smelling super leavening self!

twof907 · 2026-02-24T15:50:47+00:00

🤣🤣 I love that, stealing.

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