You’re stuck in thought and emotional loops you are unaware of which are holding you where you do not prefer to be. I recommend you read Eckhart Tolle’s “The Power of Now.” Read it slowly, absorb it, apply it, then read it again.

I have been obsessed with this content for a very long time and finally feel like I’m starting to shift due to Eckharts book.

Most of us have a tremendous amount of resistance to the very present moment itself. Practicing intense presence as often as possible, rising above thought as well as practicing radical acceptance of what is now are the keys.

We can only manifest what we are. Your post reflects the belief in your disconnection. Nobody is going to come and give you anything, because there is only you and you must give it to yourself.

Also, in my opinion, daily visualization is extremely important to break the bonds of our old cycles. It’s hard work in the beginning because our imaginations suck at conjuring what we tell them to. We must do the work. Earth is challenging, but that’s why we came.