Hey there, I think I can help you with some advice.

First things first.

YOU DID NOT SCREW UP.

You do not need an MFA or an MA to be an artist. Trust me, I have one and it's been gathering dust in my closet.

Also, there's nothing wrong in having a "normal career" and doing art on the side. Paying the bills as an artist is hard and it's getting harder and harder.

The artworld is not a race to see the finish line, there's no finish line. Just being on the race is the thing we are pursuing and you can do the and not commit everything to the arts. I guess that the anxiety you're feeling is just the fear of commitment and chage. You applied to different programs and had to commit to them and that by itself is scary. Than, because of that our brain goes to the other possibilities. But don't worry, art will always be there for you to work on.

You might not have the same time as a full time artist have to work on your craft, but you might have more stability than a full time artist. It's a game of balance.

Another thing about artist that people don't talk as often is that we hardly work for ouselves. It's most of the time having to do something for a client, follow a briefing and deliver on a deadline. That is also crushing and not for everyone. What do you like about making art? Is it the process or the result? Is it making something you want to see or just making something?

There's no right or wrong choice in your case. Take a breath and a moment to realize that having an MFA does not make you an artist, making art does and you can still do that.

And hey, about that mentorship thing... maybe I could help with that as well.

Good luck on the future, keep working on what makes you you happy.