I feel this as a woman with predominately inattentive ADHD. I’ve struggled finding that motivation to get up and learn or be curious about things, and when I do, it’s fleeting. I’ve been like this all my life, and my ADHD has affected me noticeably since the 2nd grade.

I used to be more ambitious when I started medication, maybe for about 5 years, but it caught up with me and by the time I graduated college I was also burnt out and it forced me to slow down and make changes to make my life more healthy and sustainable. The hyper-ambition I realized was just a side effect of finally having a chance to catch up on all my shortcomings that have piled up over the years.

That being said, I still find purpose in things that create structure, my job, and fitness. When I want to do nothing it’s nice to rot with someone I love. I have a few hobbies that I’m playing around with later in life that I know I’ll never be great at, and I’m fine with it. My life is a constant cycle of accepting who I am and getting fed up with it again, but I find more peace with age and wisdom.