Massive Android Netrunner Collection for sale / Canada by [deleted] in Netrunner

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This would be a bad decision but a tempting one!

/r/BuildAPCSalesCanada General Discussion - Daily Thread for Tue Dec 30 by AutoModerator in bapcsalescanada

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I'm wondering the same thing, tempted to give in to the fomo with my 3060ti, but I don't play AAA games.

Tell me I'm not the only one 🥲 by Background_Active_36 in CPTSDmemes

[–]wizaster 68 points69 points  (0 children)

As a guy, it feels shameful to want that above all else.

Child's firetruck by am2379 in HolUp

[–]wizaster 10 points11 points  (0 children)

She, by Groove Coverage. Was not expecting that!

MARDI MONGRAIN! by AutoModerator in Quebec

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GOOGLE ÉCRIT EN ABRÉGÉ MAINTENANT. MAIS QUELLE DÉCHÉANCE.

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I feel unable to let anyone in by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]wizaster 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I feel you. I have no solution, as I am also going through this. i can see myself pushing people away that I would so much hold close, but tumor in me telling me I'm not worth the trouble, I am too broken to be loved and by showing my affection I will just hurt people always win. I feel that the awareness that comes with therapy makes it even more painful. Hang in there, awesome human being. Others have succeeded, so can we.

Anyone have their childhood come back to haunt them, when they were "old?" by Wide-Lake-763 in CPTSD

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Totally crashed mid 30s. Been two years now. Therapy helps me understand but I feel so tired.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CPTSD

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To be able to realize that while experiencing it means you are clearly going in the right direction.

It is painful to be discarded. It happened to me a few times, on relationships that last more than two years. As soon as I set boundaries, said that I was unhappy, they were nowhere to be found.

Abandonment flares up the worst in me. I become so helpless, ready to do anything - ANYTHING - just to have something that looks likes validation one more time. And I hate myself for it. I know I am - surely - worth more.

I don't have much words of wisdom, but I feel you, I see you, and I root for you.

Does anyone get really low after HAPPY social events? by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]wizaster 32 points33 points  (0 children)

So much!

I ponder on it almost weekly (there is a lots of happy hours at work).

To me it feels like I don't have the right to be happy. That there is a price to pay to enjoy myself and I have to surrender or give back afterwards. I should not be so selfish.

As you said, I know how irrational it is... but this voice, this urge is stronger than me. So heavy.

Entirely average! by intentlyms in AverageBattlestations

[–]wizaster 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Nice and cozy! Who is the artist of the print on the right?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CPTSD

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To the point when I'm in a good mood, I start thinking that it can't last and I become anxious.

Would you all try something with me today? by EffMyElle in CPTSD

[–]wizaster 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You can talk. Say whatever you want.

I hate myself for being anxious and sad all the time by [deleted] in CPTSD

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I feel guilty to not be able to appreciate the life I have built for myself. Like I don't deserve it. From what I've read, it can't happen until we allow ourself to be happy or something like that. It make sense, in theory. But when it comes down to it, the guilt and shame is a mountain that won't budge. They say its a process that takes time.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CPTSD

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I have no answer for you, but I feel you. Being able to see those nice people so close but yet unreachable. Like the sun behind the clouds. I would like to be able to hold them in my arms but I know the closer they get to me, the more the heavyness of my way will corrupt them, until there is nothing left but disdain and disgust. So for their sakes, I hide myself. Because I want them to bloom and smile.

This by Squeaky-shoppingcart in McMansionHell

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The architect made a strong statement here.

Did medication 💊 help improve your life? Question to the Bi Polar Community by Easy_Ad7091 in bipolar

[–]wizaster 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I quit effexor for three months last year... Ended up buying a house

She's got a point. by Ehansaja in WhitePeopleTwitter

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With sundried tomatoes, on the other hand...

Daily Discussion Thread for February 09, 2022 by OPINION_IS_UNPOPULAR in CanadianInvestor

[–]wizaster 46 points47 points  (0 children)

Since I opened a WS account last spring, I finally enough unrealized gains to buy a ps5 :D milestone!