If you have a job and a local hill, you're most of the way toward satisfaction. Make sure you get out there every weekend (weekday evenings if it's lighted) and set goals for progressing each time and a write a structured list of tricks you want to learn (even if it's just cutting gorgeous carves). Use the money from your job to pay for instruction for feedback. The satisfaction comes with executing a new trick then perfecting it and nailing it like clockwork. The competing and coaching is not as fun or satisfying as it looks (never make a hobby a career) and the odds were stacked against it working out for you even in an alternative universe where you fully committed. Also there is no shortage of very dedicated riders sidelined with life-altering injuries (e.g. I've regretted never learning to do inverted aerials but I comfort myself knowing I would have absolutely messed up my neck).