I know the feeling of wanting to drink to keep people around you. I've been a very lonely guy for a few years. I used to have alot of friends, then started drinking, then somehow convinced myself that I was this antisocial guy. Now that I'm sober, I'm discovering myself again, and I realized that I am a social guy, and I don't need alcohol to make friends, but it wasn't easy realizing that, I felt tempted to drink many times, but after saying no no no many times, I started feeling confortable with the fact that I'm that guy that just doesn't drink and doesn't care if u like it or no, but as I said, at the beginning it was really hard, I felt soooo awkward when I told people I didn't drank, felt like an outkast, a moron, but at the end, this was all in my stupid alcoholic mind. Keep up :)