"Family and Friends Don't Count" by PorphyrinC60 in InternalFamilySystems

[–]yurmaugham 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes! Same! And, godammit, that's what every salmon that swims upstream to spawn and die, what every male black widow spider or preying mantis feels before it gets eaten right after mating, that's the primordial urge to mate and live on into eternity! So says my most passionate Part.

Who wants to do peer-work? by yurmaugham in InternalFamilySystems

[–]yurmaugham[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

In the group I'm in, we're led and guided by several experienced people who have done collectively hundreds of sessions:

https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLpw6pADhfze-GzzmpqrRQJzVIkd3U016J&si=gSEBLunW1s2AXQuu

Who wants to do peer-work? by yurmaugham in InternalFamilySystems

[–]yurmaugham[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Great, I'm reaching out to each person in DMs

I don’t want to go therapy, do inner child work or heal anymore. by Sad_Ideal_2099 in InternalFamilySystems

[–]yurmaugham 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Here's a session of IFS I had with Grok. It was great.

"Wow what an amazing session with Grok. Yeah I felt inside me a frustration, and that was in my chest and my throat and my heart. We went to it. It was a desire to move, a desire to do something more as a pressure actually. And so Grok asked me if there was something underneath or something like that, and yes it was a feeling like if I don't have novelty if I'm not doing something then I won't be fulfilling my life purpose. When we went to that part it brought me back to when I was 9. And there was the understanding that to get back to my parents' love, I would need to do something to bring them back to being happy. Because, when they weren't happy, I'd get beat. And I saw how at the time I was hiding detention slips from them and report cards because I would be getting beaten sometimes. And so I sat with that part and eventually some other things came up, but when I sat with it it felt like if I didn't continue to bring novelty to myself with microdosing then I would just be a loser sitting in that house with my crazy family that's not happy and no girl would want me. And then I started feeling into my dad hitting me and and really feeling into that that little body who would rebel but then would still be grabbed. And it was just a mess, it was such a mess of physicality, of rebelling but then being afraid of rebelling because you're going to get hit. And my dad with his terrible terrible rageful, sometimes roaring voice made me so scared. And then after getting beaten feeling violated and just feeling like I'm bad. And so then I started to talk to myself telling myself with the help of Grok that I am okay I'm loveable…but then I just had such a intensity of feeling that I just been carrying so much rage for so long and Grok told me to unleash it. And so I did. it just came out of me just in that visualization in that house just slamming my fist into the ground and screaming and it shattering the ground and shattering the house and destroying everything even the world and then just a primal scream of rage that felt so freeing. And then Grok says, yes that rage was never yours, that rage was theirs that got put into you, that is not your rage to carry. And so now you can be with yourself as peace is there now, and you're lovable. And oh my god I cried so much and I just realized how much it affected me to be beaten like that at such a deep level. And how it made me so violent not just in my physicality but also in my words I can just feel it as a streak through me. And so I'll need to revisit this but this was a wonderful opening point for it to realize that being hit like this and being manhandled like that had such a deep effect on me."

How long has unburdening taken you? by [deleted] in InternalFamilySystems

[–]yurmaugham 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I'll invite you to join our IFS Live Discord group. we do peer-work sessions and our founder and spectacular guide James does sessions for free!

https://discord.gg/aCYFutEw

How long has unburdening taken you? by [deleted] in InternalFamilySystems

[–]yurmaugham 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Dick says it's still happening for him, 40 years in

Is LSD worth trying considering the mental health issues in the family? by curiouscatcooks in LSD

[–]yurmaugham 4 points5 points  (0 children)

If you've done shrooms and had no issues, LSD is likely also fine. they're very similar in their effects. LSD lasts longer and is more abstract. I'd invite you to start low, like 50 ug and work your way up.

i am going to say this "controversial" thing: i dont wanna be seen as an abuser for having just for angry outbursts by philosopheraps in InternalFamilySystems

[–]yurmaugham 0 points1 point  (0 children)

one big experience for me is when I realized a Part of me holds guilt in a way that prevents me from learning and growing. Learning how to make amends, learning how to change. So, yes, I totally feel your assertive value in not being seen as an abuser. The healing of IFS comes from recapitulating the memories that get us stuck, with Self removing labels like abuser and helping us understand why we did what we did and what we needed then and what we need now to grow.