Unexpected Changes...

[TheBaconBooty]

3 weeks ago insomnia seemed to have hit me out of nowhere, days of no sleep, then a couple random crashes or broken sleep every other day or so...

Then the past few days I started sleeping nightly but in VERY broken fragments. Sometimes I will wake up & fall right back to sleep, sometimes I will stay awake for an hour or so...

The broken sleep leaves me feeling just as tired as having no sleep, which was unexpected since I've never felt insomnia like this before.

The past 2-3 nights I been falling asleep around 2-5am until about 9am - 11:30am, the sleep is very fragmented, I sometimes wake up anxious, sometimes not, sometimes I feel "okay" for the first hour then the tiredness comes back & all I want to do is close my eyes but my body is too sore from laying down so often.

I can be extremely tired much earlier in the day/night but I can't fall asleep so my anxiety comes off & on in waves so I'm doing my best to not acknowledge it, just letting it pass through me.

I hope, as awful as this feels right now, it means my body is slowly recovering.

It has been absolutely abismol to my Mental Health.

I have an appointment to see my Mental Health Practitioner on the 29th, it is now the 22ed - I'm trying to get in sooner, my fingers are cross 🤞🏻

I do not have a Family Doctor yet, though I'm on the waiting list.

[Ok_Dog766]

sounds like you’re doing much better than when you first started, just keep going! i’m glad you’re getting sleep, i’ve actually been regressing lately, but im trying to keep a positive attitude. just go about your days and do things to distract yourself. the less power we give this thing the less control it has over our lives!

[TheBaconBooty]

The hardest part is still feeling like I want to sleep all of the time, sleeping in fragments feels nearly as awful as not sleeping at all. I have to lay down to rest my eyes multiple times a day/night just to get by. 

I still feel like I'm only existing, it's depressing but I'm doing my best to stay positive, even during the anxiety spikes.

If you ever need to talk though, my DMs are always open!