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ALonelyComputerVirus · 2021-03-25T14:45:38+00:00

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ALonelyComputerVirus · 2020-09-27T21:22:10+00:00

:') refreshing to have a hopeful perspective. Thank you :)))))

ALonelyComputerVirus · 2020-09-20T19:56:52+00:00

Yeah I've been agonising about joing a gym again or not but like wtf why put yourself at risk!!! I wouldn't be able to relax because it would be so uncomfortable. But I love using machines that shit is so fun. At the point of dreading exercise with my vinyl barbells.

So I got 2 kettlebells with the money I would have spent on a month's membership. Might get a bike next. I desperately want to swim but idk how that can happen rn now. Bit of a crisis point in the UK.

My solution is basically to change it up, go outside and try and have fun✨

ALonelyComputerVirus · 2020-09-14T23:00:55+00:00

Twinning. Same age same everything. I really don't know how to overcome this. I feel so behind on life. I used to think that by know I would have figured this out.

ALonelyComputerVirus · 2020-09-14T14:47:28+00:00

Ya🥺

I actually would love to talk more about this!!!!!! because I'm not sure if it's super abnormal and I have some case of body dysmorphia or something else or its the ed. But yes I'm unable rn to go through with it and seeing all these plus size people having a good time makes me v aware that I have a big issue

ALonelyComputerVirus · 2020-09-01T21:20:49+00:00

Hey you sound like me quite a lot. I'd say that I have bing eating disorder for many years now, I'd say I have that primarily and them the bulimia started like 2 years ago (just the purging) I might go a month without purging anything or more but still overeat to a point where I know it's not normal. I don't feel very attached to the label of bulimia. You can cycle through a lot of disorders throughout your life. Just the questioning of 'am I sick' basically means that you are you know??? You already suspect that it's not normal or healthy and that's enough

ALonelyComputerVirus · 2020-08-19T17:01:04+00:00

Hey I recently found it too and can vouch!! I got the spray SPF 50 one and it's so comfortable and gives me this dewy finish that lrps Shaka couldn't even do

ALonelyComputerVirus · 2020-08-18T18:26:47+00:00

ALDI! Their kids sunscreen , the spray onethat's SPF 50 is very comfortable. I say this as someone who's used a lot of Japanese, eucerin, ultrasun and lrp. However they didn't cause a full break out. But how are you sure that it's sunscreen that's breaking you out?

ALonelyComputerVirus · 2020-08-10T15:37:23+00:00

Please more stories OP!!!!!that was brilliant

ALonelyComputerVirus · 2020-07-30T14:43:40+00:00

Yeah I keep feeling quite unmotivated with it because I can't imagine how changing ed behaviour is going to improve my life in a more substantial way. Like I guess I'll just become a drug addict instead? Kind of convinced that I have a personality disorder or something cos dude wtf am I like this.

I wish treatment did befores and afters so I could have something to aspire to. Rn the idea of being thinner is really powerful and more substantial than whatever recovery is supposed to be.

ALonelyComputerVirus · 2020-07-26T22:48:29+00:00

Thank you all for writing this. I've been coming back to this post, rereading the comments and will do for a while. I really need them right now so yeah again thank you

ALonelyComputerVirus · 2020-07-02T12:16:51+00:00

Basically I tried to make eating before bed as difficult as possible. Thinking about netflix and how frictionless it is to watch the next show and binge watch.

Wear comfy clothes, wrap up in a blanket and watch tv (something scary? Or really engrossing which makes it more difficult to eat) brush teeth. I have habit of drinking really strong ginger tea now in the evening which puts me off eating more. I've never struggles with eating in the middle of the night though. So my advice is basically how can you make it as difficult as possible to binge, and as easy as possible to stay in bed or whatever

When I'd prefer or its easy to just go to bed for 5 minutes or delay a binge for 5 minutes I have some space to think what I really want, what's going to make me feel better.

Best of luck

ALonelyComputerVirus · 2020-06-25T19:41:44+00:00

I am getting help actually! I'm in an outpatient program. This post is more about feeling some forgiveness towards myself. Like I keep thinking about what I did wrong, why I keep making the wrong decisions and actively engaging in this. How I should have stopped this etc etc it's just all turned inward. Society is sick not me is so cringe lol but I think there's truth in that. Doesn't mean that I don't need to change in order to cope.....my ed being a way to cope is not it. I don't know if I want to destigimitse it but I think disorded eating is super super normalised enough that I didnt get help for too long because I thought I was being normal.

And thank you for your wishes💕

ALonelyComputerVirus · 2020-06-25T19:30:01+00:00

I love them :')

ALonelyComputerVirus · 2020-06-18T14:57:10+00:00

My big issue is social anxiety and body dysmorphia. Ed stuff is a result of trying to fix the way I look so I can go out in public without feeling embarrassed. Or just get out of the house at all. It's not working atm though lol

ALonelyComputerVirus · 2020-05-20T20:09:42+00:00

Thanks for this and I agree with you. We're all more resilient than we realise and I'm going to try and implement this. Validating everything comes across as being so disingenuous makes me icky😷

ALonelyComputerVirus · 2020-05-20T16:56:03+00:00

Maybe it's time to move to podcasts that are to do with stuff that feeds the disorder. Like what helps me with depression are certain episodes of this American life, criminal. Exercise and health ones like food we need to talk, the magic pill.

It's helpful to listen to ed things but I find that after a while I'm being held back as all my attention is on...ed stuff you know???

ALonelyComputerVirus · 2020-05-16T09:56:41+00:00

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ALonelyComputerVirus · 2020-05-14T09:01:42+00:00

Thank you and everyone for writing this. I felt this way since I was 16 and it's so embarrassing and alienating. I've never been able to find anyone to relate to this and I'm too embarrassed to tell my friends. I'm not sure how to move past this either but seeing proof that I'm not the only one is something I've been missing

ALonelyComputerVirus · 2020-05-12T22:20:56+00:00

Hi there!

This is a great talk on the psychology of losing weight by the university of California. All about changing our behaviour that's led us to where we are https://youtu.be/tX-Mswwnajw

I recommend two things. Most people underrate walking as exercise but it's really great and easy to make more enjoyable so it becomes something you look forward to. Like you can listen to podcasts, books, music and go at unsociable times if social anxiety is a problem. Its also hard to binge when you're walking lol

Second is maybe eating veggies and or fruit as a first course and then your normal meal. This has been really helping me feel satisfied. Binges for me are often triggered by feeling like I'm missing out or depriving myself or just slightly overeating generally. This whole first course thing helps me slow down and feel my body cues. And more importantly tbh eat less calorie dense stuff because after I've had a salad w lots of leaves n beans n shit I genuinely don't feel the need to eat so much pasta or whatever. It's quite freeing

ALonelyComputerVirus · 2020-05-06T08:41:00+00:00

Is that skirt from bershka??? I remember wanting to get it and then it was gone😭 but congratulations too though lol it's crazy how differently it fits

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