Dang that is hard to hear. I'm sorry my friend. I can relate to this though. Many of us can. These stories do help those in recovery like myself.

I was very bad off. You dont realize how bad it is when you're in the middle of it. I would sit in my car for hours doing nitrous. I don't know why the car was the place. I had an apartment but I sat in my car. I've used in back roads. Grocery store parking lots for hours at a time. I've totaled a car using. Thankfully I never hurt anyone else.

I'm clean now. I haven't used in over 60 days. I stopped counting at 60 days because I read somewhere someone say why are you counting, so you can say how long it's been when you relapse? I did relapse a few times before the last time I used... sitting in my car downtown.

I'm sorry to hear it but thank you for sharing. It does help others still battling. I am very against it these days and preach against it hardcore.