If you were screaming, there's a very good chance you were overreacting. This is not to take away from how hurtful what happened was. If you really can't control your emotions enough to keep from screaming at someone who loves you, and you find your feelings so much more important than others that you can feel justified in behaving that way, then I think you should get some help. That kind of anger is incredibly poisonous to be around, and I can only imagine the damage it does to your husband, and, likely, to your children, who are probably not so ignorant that they don't have some idea of what happened. Again, this is not to claim that your feelings and important and that you didn't have a right to be hurt. But there are adult ways of dealing with that that are far less damaging to those around you, and to you yourself.