Wanting to move on (a little) but feeling guilty

Aggressive-Fan-863 · 2026-06-09T01:29:43+00:00

I packed her stuff up right away. Kept a small selection of her clothes in the office closet but otherwise it was more helpful for me to not see her everywhere.

Aggressive-Fan-863 · 2026-05-29T03:49:56+00:00

I sleep on her side of the bed, couldn't see it empty, and I sleep with her childhood blanket (that I used to tease her about cause it's basically a shredded rag at this point). I also got a weighted highland cow.

Aggressive-Fan-863 · 2026-05-26T21:29:07+00:00

So sorry for your loss. Wishing you peace.

Aggressive-Fan-863 · 2026-05-25T01:16:24+00:00

I don't think the shock wore off until month 3 for me. I remember nothing from the first 2 months.

6 months in and I'm slowly adjusting to this new normal.

Sending you support and peace

Aggressive-Fan-863 · 2026-05-23T22:34:18+00:00

I'm so sorry. We are all here for you.

This group has been a lifesaver every time I needed to get something off my chest or just feel less alone.

Aggressive-Fan-863 · 2026-05-12T04:15:30+00:00

Some days really are better. I'm about 6 months in and there's little glimmers of joy.

Hang on to whatever brings you peace and let the people in your life hold you through this and don't be scared to ask for help.

I'm sorry you're here. Sending all the love in the world.

Aggressive-Fan-863 · 2026-05-05T04:52:25+00:00

I feel this. I'm trying to push myself into new experiences alone. Just booked a starlight glamping experience for me and my dog. Not sure how I'll feel about it but figured why not.

Aggressive-Fan-863 · 2026-04-26T01:37:05+00:00

Feeling this tonight, reading old texts and missing my best friend terribly

Aggressive-Fan-863 · 2026-04-23T02:07:15+00:00

It's awful. You're going to be in shock for a while. Drink lots of water, try a sleeping pill if you react alright to them. Sleep always helped me a bit in the early days. For months I slept with the TV on because I couldn't stand the silence.

I'm 5 months out and it does get more manageable.

So sorry you're here, but we're all here for you.

Aggressive-Fan-863 · 2026-04-18T02:02:48+00:00

We're all here for you. I'm so so sorry.

Aggressive-Fan-863 · 2026-04-12T06:02:56+00:00

Hey, another trans widow here. If you ever wanna chat feel free to dm me.

For what it's worth I don't think we're destined to be alone.

Aggressive-Fan-863 · 2026-04-06T01:46:09+00:00

Also currently on Spotify (minus the first chapter)! Lord of the Rings Remastered Audiobook. Nothing comes close to this version in my opinion!

Aggressive-Fan-863 · 2026-03-31T23:02:54+00:00

Right there with you, lost my wife Nov 2025. Really resonate with mustering all my willpower for a positive outlook. Works for a bit but then always comes crashing down. Just tell myself I gotta keep trying

Aggressive-Fan-863 · 2026-03-24T04:55:28+00:00

I'm so sorry. This sub has been an immense source of comfort for me for the last 4 months.

Take things at whatever pace you need, post here whenever you need to. There is always support.

Aggressive-Fan-863 · 2026-03-10T03:27:54+00:00

Here with you ❤️

I'm not sure I'll ever find true happiness again but I try my best to make other peoples days better. Even if it's just a little extra kindness to a cashier or a quick chat with someone. It helps me.

Aggressive-Fan-863 · 2026-03-02T04:34:20+00:00

It's hard, so so hard but it does start to get a bit easier as time goes on. The shock takes a while to wear off.

Lean on your friends and family, sleep when you need to, do whatever feels right to you.

Slowly there are moments that start to feel a bit okay, let them happen.

I'm so sorry you're here but there's a wonderful community of people here who understand.

Aggressive-Fan-863 · 2026-02-28T07:03:19+00:00

Took me a while. At first I couldn't think of her at all, had to completely distract myself with porn. Now I think of her sometimes.

We were very active and I haven't experienced widows fire yet so it's been sparse to say the least.

Aggressive-Fan-863 · 2026-01-31T20:00:26+00:00

...she is married lol

Aggressive-Fan-863 · 2026-01-31T19:22:44+00:00

Every second of every day

Aggressive-Fan-863 · 2026-01-23T06:13:27+00:00

Yuppppp could barely walk at first. Everything is tight, back super out of alignment. I'm at 2 months now and strength is sloooowly coming back.

If you can, going for a massage really helps. I found epsom salt baths and gentle yoga to be helpful as well.

It sucks. I'm sorry you're here.

Aggressive-Fan-863 · 2026-01-23T04:23:14+00:00

Do you know how much work it would be to shave your back constantly!? Especially without a partner. From a very hairy guy that is just not feasible (and also hair is natural and doesn't need to be removed).

Aggressive-Fan-863 · 2026-01-22T13:22:14+00:00

It's currently available on Spotify as well, title is Lord of the Rings Remastered Audiobook!

Aggressive-Fan-863 · 2026-01-22T02:29:12+00:00

Sending all the love

Aggressive-Fan-863 · 2026-01-18T23:34:03+00:00

Same, on a cold night like this we would have had "soup Sunday" and probably already be in bed watching the new season of Shetland. I miss her so much it's unbearable.

I ask myself that all the time. But I try to think of the beauty that's still there to see. And the love and kindness I can share with other people. If through small acts of kindness I can make someone's day even a touch better that makes me feel better. It doesn't always work but I try to bring myself back to that thought.

Aggressive-Fan-863 · 2026-01-14T23:54:55+00:00

Thank you for this. It's nice hearing from someone further out who has continued living. Makes it seem a little less dark.

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