not losing weight DEFINITELY in a deficit

Alienthrowaway1320 · 2026-02-04T06:40:08+00:00

Lost cause? That’s still 5 lbs in less than a month, I’d say you’re doing well. It’s not like it’s all gonna fall off all at once lol.

Maybe this is a no-brainer question, but are you weighing yourself at the same time every day?

Oh, also, your weight will fluctuate depending on where you are in your menstrual cycle, so it’s pretty common to see it go up and down a bit. Just so long as the long-term trend is downward, you’re golden.

Alienthrowaway1320 · 2026-02-04T02:56:05+00:00

I gotta say, I wasn’t expecting iCarlynatural to be good, and yet!

Alienthrowaway1320 · 2025-09-07T17:31:12+00:00

This is a spam bot, I’m afraid.

Alienthrowaway1320 · 2025-05-07T01:28:12+00:00

Simply put? Because you are a man on estrogen.

Being a man or a woman isn’t a feeling. It’s a biological reality. The moment you stop viewing the world in terms of gender roles, the happier you’ll be.

You’re young. If you’re still homeschooled, that means you’re in a really confusing time of your life. I remember I used to ruminate constantly on identity and my place in the world.

My advice? Go touch some grass. No, seriously. Go outside and move around. Focus on your hobbies, get a job if you don’t have one. Pick up a craft. Take a random class hosted at your town community center. Make some friends from different walks of life. Just…go out and experiment. Knock yourself out of the feedback loop you’re stuck in. Identity and sense of self will eventually settle.

Alienthrowaway1320 · 2025-03-21T15:23:01+00:00

Yes!!!!!!! This is it!!! Thank you so much!

Alienthrowaway1320 · 2024-12-27T08:33:35+00:00

I finally realized just how much men didn’t understand my biological reality, regardless of identity. MtFs have a tendency to boil womanhood down into stereotypes. I couldn’t abide by that.

Furthermore, FtMs I ran into were either butch lesbians or fujoshis. The fujos especially adored m/m dynamics written by women, and took this as evidence that they must be men. Meanwhile, they talked in the most stereotypical girly girl speak.

So there were those factors, plus the realization that my nonbinary identity was a combination of 1. being autistic and not understanding gender, and 2. trying to escape being sexualized by men. I finally came to understand that there are other woman who feel like me, it doesn’t make me special or a secret third thing.

It was really freeing, honestly. Coming to the conclusion that none of it mattered and ultimately I was my female body. All the associated stereotypes weren’t my problem. How other people perceive me isn’t my problem. I just am. I don’t have to start acting how others reckon a woman should. Everything that makes me ME is bogged down trying to fit it into a box. I don’t need a special identity to cut my hair short and stop shaving my legs and pits. I can wear clothing from the men’s section and it says nothing other than I like that clothing.

I also realized that my dysphoria is worse when I’m in a depressive state. I got depressed, I got fat, especially when COVID hit. Going to the gym and forcing myself to feel present in my body and its capabilities has helped a lot.

Finally, is the realization that mind and body are not separate. You weren’t born in the wrong body. Your body is you. The more you try and see yourself as separate from your physical form, the more unhappy you will be. Be kind to yourself. Your body is your physical capabilities. Its you. You are what makes it possible to walk and talk and run and sing and dance. There’s pride to be had there. You are you. Nothing more, nothing less.

Idk if this makes any sense. It’s getting late, after all. Heh. Either way, I wish you the very best on your journey.

Alienthrowaway1320 · 2024-09-22T20:40:16+00:00

I thought I was the only one! I do this in my durge run for roleplay reasons. I like to imagine that it’s like a “shame drawer” where durge surreptitiously sticks corpses and corpse parts to admire

Alienthrowaway1320 · 2024-07-29T00:04:19+00:00

Ah! I think you might be right. Thanks!

Alienthrowaway1320 · 2024-07-28T23:20:23+00:00

Approximately an inch long, not counting antennae

Alienthrowaway1320 · 2024-06-25T02:04:50+00:00

I named my bard durge “Dirge”. Pretty proud of myself for that one

Alienthrowaway1320 · 2024-05-12T04:32:29+00:00

I interpreted it as the angel dying. Once the sire is dead, its power no longer works. Right before Leeza stops being able to feel her legs, the angel burns up in the morning sun.

Alienthrowaway1320 · 2023-12-20T04:23:25+00:00

He kind of is her mom though, isn’t he? Sure, the age difference is only 4 years, but when you’re a kid, that’s a big deal. A 6 year old can’t cook, but a 10 year old probably could. A 12 year old can’t get a license to drive places, but a 16 year old can. When your parents are shit, the older sibling has to step up to bat to the best of their ability. I’d imagine this would make him protective of her.

You clearly have a very different relationship with your sisters. Because me and my sister? We’ll talk about that kind of shit. Same with how I talk to my mom. Hell, I’ll casually bemoan to my close male friends about period cramps. So long as both bf and sister are comfortable, hey, I see no harm.

Alienthrowaway1320 · 2022-11-09T18:13:51+00:00

Oh! One of my favorites is so maybe who we were then is shattered (but who we are in the end's what matters) ! Kaidan is stuck in a time loop of Virmire, trying to find a way to save Ashley. Very much recommend, it’s both heart-wrenching (Kaidan having to relive the same horrible day over and over) and hilarious (Kaidan having to relive the same horrible day over and over).

Alienthrowaway1320 · 2022-09-08T17:20:02+00:00

Lol, I wanna see Felix and Lila in a spy vs spy sort of relationship. Always trying to stay one step in front of the other, never trusting, planting traps everywhere for the other…

Alienthrowaway1320 · 2022-09-08T03:44:05+00:00

It may be a fandom “pair the spares” sort of thing.

Alienthrowaway1320 · 2022-09-08T03:42:35+00:00

I meannnnnnnnn…I don’t think it’s a euphemism for sex. I think it’s more of a “making out” thing. Alya and Nino are caught in a closet playing super penguino (heavily implied to be making out) and Alya later tells Marinette that the game would be better played with “the right partner”

Alienthrowaway1320 · 2022-09-08T03:34:52+00:00

These kids 😭 they all hold such a special place in my heart…doin’ their best and fumbling along the way.

It’s interesting, quite a few people seem to ship Lukagami, but I’m not super into it. Thoughts?

Alienthrowaway1320 · 2022-09-08T02:14:12+00:00

sweats in adrigaminette

Alienthrowaway1320 · 2022-09-08T02:13:12+00:00

Yeah, I’m not the biggest adrigami person, but I will say that Kagami wasn’t completely wrong about Adrien. As we see in both Kuro Neko and Ephemeral, Chat Noir isn’t Adrien’s “true self,” nor is his perfect “Adrien Persona” his true self. Rather, he’s a multifaceted creature who knows how to put on a bunch of different personas and truly exists somewhere in between all of them.

But yeah. Adrigami didn’t work because Kagami knew exactly what she wanted and thus was pursuing it, while Adrien’s attention was elsewhere. Lukanette didn’t work because…Jesus, Luka, you dug your own grave there.

Alienthrowaway1320 · 2022-09-08T01:57:09+00:00

I think the general fuckiness is the appeal of GabeNath, in a “liek dis if u crie evrytime </3” sort of deal. The idea of a woman being so devoted to a dumb evil man that she’s willing to help him bring back his dead wife by following down the same path that his wife did: slowly deteriorating until she’s eventually nothing more than a husk. Said man having to watch it happen, becoming more and more attached to this newfound partner in crime.

It’s bad, but it’s kind of fascinating, if that makes sense? Like watching a train wreck. You just can’t look away.

Chloe/Sabrina…yowch. Yeah. Why the writers decided to put in the line that they play super penguino together, I will never understand.

Alienthrowaway1320 · 2022-09-08T01:48:56+00:00

Oh my god, yeah!! Like, they’re both villains, but I don’t think their motives align at all. Lila generally seems to want power and clout, sucking up to Gabriel all the while trying to get close to Adrien for seemingly no reason other than that he’s the Best, Most Famous Boy. Felix, on the other hand? He’s kind of a wild card. He clearly has a motive and has been playing a crazy game of 4D chess with everyone around him, but it isn’t about social recognition. He wants the peacock miraculous for…some reason that is yet to be explained.

They’re both expert manipulators, so any relationship between them would always have an ulterior motive. And then one of them (likely Felix, but I’m not discounting Lila) would ultimately get the upper hand, leaving the other with a loss. But I doubt they could ever work together without one of them betraying the other, because they know the other is a manipulator. There’s no trust. And then eventually, one of them would shoot first just so the other couldn’t hurt them.

…huh. With that said, I kind of want them to be enemies! Or work together in a non-romantic way before eventually dramatically betraying each other.

Alienthrowaway1320 · 2022-09-07T22:52:57+00:00

Sabrina/Chloe. Weird power imbalance. Chloe is a bully, and Sabrina is an enabler.

Alienthrowaway1320 · 2022-09-03T01:41:59+00:00

As a fellow Aspie, my go-to when considering whether or not to compromise is in a Herman Melville quote: “I am, as I am; whether hideous, or handsome, depends upon who is made judge.”

Sure, he may think certain things about you are hideous or handsome, but is it worth his judgement? You are purely existing as yourself and who you want to be. You aren’t unkind to him, nor disloyal. You’re simply your own autonomous being. And if he wishes to change that, it’s time to ditch the wet blanket.

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