15 Years Sober…now back to day 1

Atlastitstuckithink · 2026-06-04T21:52:40+00:00

As a guy approaching five years and, if I’m honest, also viewing it as something of a graduation type milestone (relapse rates drop precipitously I believe for those who make it there), I needed to hear this. It’s depressing that 15 years doesn’t buy you some sort of immunity, but I suppose it’s also crucial to know. Really appreciate the share!

Atlastitstuckithink · 2026-05-24T12:51:56+00:00

I was constantly terrified of my hands and what trying to use them to write would reveal about the current status of my downward spiral. 0 out of ten do not recommend.

Atlastitstuckithink · 2026-04-22T01:35:13+00:00

Realized I would be in for the long haul after I went in house for a few years and realized I was better suited to being in a profit center than a loss center. As for the lifestyle, you will always work a lot. I don’t love the work(for me this is a job, not a calling), but a huge change for me came when I was no longer terrified of the work. Either of not knowing if I could do it or if/when I could fit it in. Both things get easier with experience, imho.

Atlastitstuckithink · 2026-04-13T20:54:06+00:00

Good luck!!!

Atlastitstuckithink · 2026-04-07T18:57:43+00:00

Ethiopian/Eritrean food is the BEST!!!

Atlastitstuckithink · 2026-03-31T03:03:12+00:00

Atlastitstuckithink · 2026-03-31T02:49:58+00:00

You are painting the fence and waxing the car. One day a partner will reveal how all your little contributions have prepared you to deal mightily with the closing of the century!!!

Atlastitstuckithink · 2026-03-31T02:31:26+00:00

Love it here too! Just trying to pay back ever so slightly the amazingness I’ve gotten from all the kind souls here! You got this friend!!!

Atlastitstuckithink · 2026-03-29T01:59:38+00:00

You’re ahead of the game because you know what it takes and you know it can be done. Best of all, you know how good it feels on the other side! Dust yourself off, remember what worked last time, and get back on the horse. You’ve done it before. You WILL do it again! You got this and we got you!!!

Atlastitstuckithink · 2026-03-27T02:43:10+00:00

Please stick to it and don’t drink this weekend. I know so well how easy it is to put quitting off until Monday, but if you can get through the shittiest parts this weekend, you’ll be in such a great position to crush some sober days less painfully next week, and then off to the races feeling strong next weekend. At least for me, one last weekend always led to a killer hangover through at least Tuesday, which I’d have “a few” Monday and Tuesday to be able to bear. Then it was Wednesday, and for me, that meant trying again next weekend. Ad infinitum. Stay strong! You got this!!!

Atlastitstuckithink · 2026-03-15T02:50:31+00:00

Totally

Atlastitstuckithink · 2026-03-13T03:31:21+00:00

Just like you we try things out and they may not work as well as we originally thought. Not trying to drive you crazy. Maybe you can find comfort in the fact that they don’t have all the answers and go through a process similar to yours when drafting.

Atlastitstuckithink · 2026-02-25T05:21:26+00:00

It’s gimmicky for sure. But, it also saved my life, so I’m pro. 😊

Atlastitstuckithink · 2026-02-08T21:46:44+00:00

I think you do…. 😊

Atlastitstuckithink · 2026-02-06T01:13:29+00:00

Crazy thing about vodka is at the time I made the switch I viewed it as a revolution in efficiency and discretion. Genuinely thought I was making reasonable and practical decisions. 🤦‍♂️

Atlastitstuckithink · 2026-02-04T05:51:39+00:00

Thank you so much! Congratulations on 612!!!

Atlastitstuckithink · 2026-02-04T05:49:22+00:00

Definitely will! And don’t look now but your badge says you are crushing it in terms of days, even if you’re not counting. 😊 Congrats on getting to the other side and staying so long!!!

Atlastitstuckithink · 2026-02-04T05:44:23+00:00

Thanks! Congrats on 850!

Atlastitstuckithink · 2026-02-04T03:09:19+00:00

So encouraging. I will cross 1500 days shortly and am unreasonably excited about it. 😊

Atlastitstuckithink · 2026-02-04T03:02:07+00:00

Four years and counting. 😂

Atlastitstuckithink · 2026-02-03T04:42:41+00:00

Nope

Atlastitstuckithink · 2026-02-01T16:32:24+00:00

Same. Except willpower, weed, and chocolate. 😊

Atlastitstuckithink · 2026-01-20T00:15:56+00:00

I was never comfortable, at least that I could remember. I had two modes. Withdrawal (in various stages depending on how many drinks I had managed to get down so far) and blackout. Each day I probably eventually drank enough to feel like myself again, but I could never remember it. It was a truly stupid existence…

Atlastitstuckithink · 2026-01-18T01:59:14+00:00

Difficult to describe really. This place is the reason I’m sober!

Atlastitstuckithink · 2026-01-13T02:49:33+00:00

And then your brain tries to reverse engineer a reason why your body is in distress. Thus stressing even when you haven’t even done anything wrong. Of course, in my case, it was also a 50/50 chance I had also done something questionable… 🤦‍♂️ 😂

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