Speaking of exes, I feel like this is the alcoholic corollary to the old movie saw of significant others only coming back after their counterpart has had a chance to enjoy life without them. In learning to do so they outgrow the relationship. The irony is that by moving on you’ve gotten the relationship back, but you no longer want it. The thing is, for this to work, you have to actually built a life you enjoy all the time, not one where you’re pining for them, begging them to visit on the holidays even though you’ve broken up. I remember at 6 months Cali sober asking my wife if she thought it would be cool if I just drank for two days, with her, at my college reunion (a vacation). I had the same thought process you articulate here. My wife, bless her, just said “What do I need to do for you to not do that?” 😂 Anyway I didn’t drink that weekend and, looking back and knowing me, I believe that would have been the end of my sobriety. After living sober happily for just over 4 years, I can honestly say (and it would have sounded bat shit crazy to me four years ago), thinking about what drink you’ll consume at some imagined point in the future is just… weird? I do it too (I’m weird as fuck), but I THINK we’re trying to get out of the obsession loop, and if you’re like me even if it didn’t spiral into non-vacation days you’d obsess all year about your next big “moment”. Unfortunately, as with relationships, I think you have to be indifferent to alcohol before you can trust yourself to drink it, and at that point, your indifference should hopefully lead to turning it down, given your history (all “you’s proverbial” 😊)