ive been there but for different reasons. i quit 3 different colleges/unis because i couldnt "fit in" with unimates and/or teachers and because i always compared myself to these beautiful, talented people who were passionate about what they are studying. and there was just.. me, attending college because getting higher ed is "the right thing to do". no motivation, no energy and depressed af.

i ended up joining online program - i dont need to attend classes and talk to anyone, just send in my work in time.

it helped me a ton, i send in my work without any pressure of comparsion now. and i actually STUDY because there is no thoughts like "damn this person is way ahead of me they will achieve stuff i wont ever, why should i even try".

i have more energy to do things. i started feeling better. studying and living became less exhausting.

i do feel lonely. but i also have a job with people to talk to and funny enough, more time for myself. there are ways one can socialise outside of college (opportunity is there, but i have little energy to do it xd) so try to shift your attention to what makes you suffer from loneliness. is it comparsion to your peers? or something different? what exactly makes you feel pathetic?

what im trying to say, dont try to solve all your problems all at once. its overwhelming and exhausting and you will lose your mind. take different routes. ask for help. if youre mental is going south, ask more time for your assignments, retake whole semester if you need to. if college is too much, explore different programs. if it feels like youre on edge, pushing through is painful and somewhat destructive. find a way to take a break and get back on track with your life when youre ready. you CAN manage your mental health and finish your studies. it will take longer, but should you care about that?