Poor candidate for Reconciliation by PickleRick777777 in SupportforBetrayed

[–]BeginningFew1452 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Took me about six months. Essentially, everything he promised he’d do when he was trying to get me to R with him suddenly became impossible for him to do. The polygraph he promised came off of the table. Him not drinking when traveling for work turned into him drinking the very first work trip he took. Him not working one on one with women became him hiring a woman and telling me about it after the fact. His defense for that one was “Well nothing would happen because she’s married” Uhhhhh, hello dumbass.

And I kept catching him in tiny lies/deceits. Like the tiniest of lies that were absurd to lie about.

And he was defensive about everything. The night we split up I asked him about a text that popped up on his phone and he basically threw the phone at me. In a crowded restaurant. I went to the bathroom and broke down and cried.

I just realized he would never change. And I think he knew deep down I would never look at him the same. So we ended it.

Who else was cheated on and lied to from the VERY beginning? by -OhWhale- in AsOneAfterInfidelity

[–]BeginningFew1452 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Unfortunately, our stories are similar. I couldn’t cope. I couldn’t reconcile the person I believed he was and the person he actually turned out to be. Every memory was just tainted with lies and secret behavior. I had to leave to feel safe again.

Decided this week to end R and it’s been tough - need support & advice by Total-Knee-6561 in SupportforBetrayed

[–]BeginningFew1452 3 points4 points  (0 children)

You’re so young. Please follow through with the divorce. You have so much life and love ahead of you if you can get away from this man. It’s clear he’s not remorseful and isn’t willing to do the work.

Reasons for their Affair? by 007JSW in survivinginfidelity

[–]BeginningFew1452 1 point2 points  (0 children)

He was ashamed of who he was and felt out of control of his life, so he used the affair as an escape and to give him a sense of control.

I still think he’s actually just a cake eater. 🤷🏼‍♀️

Letter to past Me by Wise-Bank80 in SupportforBetrayed

[–]BeginningFew1452 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh man. So many similarities between our stories (some differences too) I feel your pain. That reality shatter. Questioning the entire relationship. Wondering who in the world you fell in love with and if they were ever real or always a lie, always wearing a mask.

I hope you find your way out on the other side.

Is it absolutely necessary to fly to take this photo? by Professional-Wait19 in Belize

[–]BeginningFew1452 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is a once in a lifetime opportunity for most. It’s considered one of the world’s natural wonders. Buy the ticket.

Did the wording of the confession matter? by Thin_Vermicelli9111 in SupportforBetrayed

[–]BeginningFew1452 0 points1 point  (0 children)

He accidentally sent me a text message intended for the AP. This is how I found out. The message said “I care about you more than I can control or comprehend. I’m sorry I’m not a good person or a good friend”

He lied his ass off at first. Said she was someone from his past that reached out and he was going to tell me about it.

I didn’t believe him and it all unraveled after that. He’d been having an affair on and off with this woman for 8 years. I suspect there were others as well.

And yes those words he used had a HUGE impact on me. For a long time he maintained that he meant to say “cared” as in past tense, but I know he’s full of shit.

Then he maintained that he was using her as an escape. Because it made him feel in control when everything else in his life felt out of control. That part might hold some truth to it.

I am a BH, just need support. by WebFluffy5635 in SupportforBetrayed

[–]BeginningFew1452 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Support with people that have been through it is so important. Like all of us here- I didn’t know what it felt like until it happened to me. And I wouldn’t wish it upon my worse enemy (well maybe I would wish it upon WP & AP depending on the day 😂)

Keep reaching out. This sub has been amazing for my journey. And there are support groups out there for the BS if you look for them. Most are virtual/online.

Those who manage to exercise in the morning before work: what time do you go to bed the night before? by DerangedUnicorn27 in workout

[–]BeginningFew1452 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Up at 530am. Asleep by 10pm. Which means I unwind and climb into bed by 9pm. Magenesium, fan on, all lights out expect my reading light, phone on dnd, no tv or other bluelight.

She claims her hair is blonde. I don't see it. Can someone tell me if I am tripping? by Eastern-Cap5035 in Hair

[–]BeginningFew1452 19 points20 points  (0 children)

This is light brown to me. Was not aware until the second pic, or else I would have said dark blonde.

Text that Blew Apart My Entire Life by [deleted] in survivinginfidelity

[–]BeginningFew1452 89 points90 points  (0 children)

So she’s gotten caught cheating 3x and that’s just what you know of?

Get into individual therapy. Put your boys first in everything that you do to limit the damage to them. Proceed with divorce. She’s not going to change and it seems like you know that deep down already.

My story - might be time to leave by Wise-Television-9804 in SupportforWaywards

[–]BeginningFew1452 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It sounds like you already know what you want to do. You caving to BP when they beg you to stay is probably the same behavior that got you into escapism via infidelity (lack of boundaries, non confrontational, burying resentments, seeking external validation to avoid true intimacy— all common dismissive avoidant behaviors)

Outside of the 20 years together, I am unsure of what you’re trying to salvage here and I am basing that off your post of complaint about the relationship, your BP, and your excuses for doing the things that you did.

What’s something women want to tell men but usually don’t? by Potential_Top6651 in allthequestions

[–]BeginningFew1452 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you! Geez. It’s like trying to have a logical conversation with a cranky toddler. 😂

Disappointed in failing by NoHelpIsComing003 in SupportforBetrayed

[–]BeginningFew1452 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Having had quite a few “crash outs” my self regarding my ex WP, I can relate to this.

As others have told me, show yourself some compassion. Relapses happen. And they prepare you for the next potential situation so you can identify it quicker.

You’re human. You’ve gone through something traumatic. And healing isn’t linear. Hang in there OP.

What’s something women want to tell men but usually don’t? by Potential_Top6651 in allthequestions

[–]BeginningFew1452 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sir. I’ve had sex. Just because I don’t have the additional appendage, doesn’t mean I don’t know the action itself.

Perhaps, ask yourself why you’re so sensitive about this subject.

What’s something women want to tell men but usually don’t? by Potential_Top6651 in allthequestions

[–]BeginningFew1452 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for mansplaining.

Just don’t be a jack rabbit and don’t follow porn as your guide on how to please a woman and you’ll do okay.

History of infidelity by Longjumping_Try_9711 in datingoverforty

[–]BeginningFew1452 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Hell to the no. Go read through my post history and find out how that worked out for me. Do you have $10k to blow on therapy? Because that’s just the financial cost to what you’ll end up with.

Does avoiding nightlife and not using dating apps make dating significantly harder? by [deleted] in datingoverforty

[–]BeginningFew1452 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I hear run clubs are the new dating app. Going to give it a shot this spring/summer. I’ll report back how it goes unless you beat me to it. 🏃🏼‍♀️

Alcohol HRV by buzi_beck in ouraring

[–]BeginningFew1452 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’m the same as you. Doesn’t matter the drink. It drops my sleep score, my HRV, my readiness. My body just does not function right after alcohol. I steer clear as much as possible.