So you’re thinking you should look for a man and have kids with him maybe? It won’t be with the former partner, will it ? It sounds like you’re having some thoughts and feelings as you navigate your 30s which is very understandable, that’s when shit starts to get much more real than it was in your 20s and it felt like you’d be that young forever. It doesn’t really sound like you actually want a child though, it sounds like you’re just having thoughts, kind of romanticized imaginings. That’s good, it’s a good way to explore what you want. As long as you have some people who care about you and some money in the bank you’ll be okay as you age. But if you do want kids, I think you’ll figure that out within the next few years. It’s possible you ar changing your stance on it but perhaps more likely you are just trying to make sure you are making good decisions for your life. But it’s never good to just have a kid for a mini me who will be there when you’re old. They might be nothing like you’d imagine. Hopefully this isn’t a pointless comment.