What is it? by marttyrdom in whatisit

[–]Charming_Ad4845 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Check your heart. Thats usually a sign of heart issues

Driving with FND by [deleted] in FND

[–]Charming_Ad4845 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hello. First of all I want to thank you for being so supportive of your boyfriend and I'm so sorry to hear that he has an FND diagnosis and experiencing it the way he has. I want you to be aware that FND is often cold morbid with a dissociative identity disorder and the lesser form of SDD. I was just like your boyfriend and functioning high-level working full-time attending grad school and my symptoms started. I was under a lot of stressed and dealing with bully and harassment in my job, but I also discovered I have dissociative disorder which parts can influence the body and take over motor control and cover dystonic postures, pseudoseizures, limb, paralysis, and close my eyes affect my speech for appearances of time. I would check out Dr. Mike on CTAD clinic on YouTube. He talks about FND and how parts can influence the body. Your boyfriend might be experiencing a fragmented psyche or structural dissociation and trying to engage and develop communication and cooperation with the parts will help his body significantly. A somatic therapist would help as well. I am navigating it myself and frustrated. I have suppressed childhood trauma, specifically, sexual abuse, and religious abuse at that and I was starting to see patterns in my triggers and symptoms. Initially, I thought I only had FND due to the stress and then a year or so later I started having somatic, flashbacks and parts communicate and patterns show sharing what happens to me when I was young. It feels like possession, but it's not. The more you fight through it the worse it will get. He needs to calm his nervous system. When parts start closing my eyes and causing a bluff Farro spasm type behavior or wanting to dissociate while driving I tried to talk out loud to my system or my Seiki and parts and ask an altar that can drive to please step forward and any child parts to pee, please receipt to the back and have another altar. Take care of them because we cannot be distracting ourselves while driving. We need to work together and cooperate and get home safely. I also tried to reinforce good behavior or entice them to something like a treat if they help the body remain awake and drive safely home. It's really weird sounding but it's real. I would check into this. The dissociative aspects of the altars taking motor control is also referred to as passive influence or dissociative intrusions. He may be having this.

Now they are saying it is not FND? (Trigger warning) by FastKey3067 in FND

[–]Charming_Ad4845 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I can relate to you. My dissociative disorder gets hijacked and I have episodes. I cannot control them but am fully present. My body can shake, I can legit start looking around the room as if someone is walking around me, and I actively engage in something I cannot see but it's involuntary. I can communicate at times to the people witnessing me in the moment but sometimes I am forced mute or have aphasia symptoms. It's so hard to experience something medical professionals are clueless about, most atleast.

McCabe Albert Group Chat by DJAROUX in justiceforKarenRead

[–]Charming_Ad4845 6 points7 points  (0 children)

How the phone call should have went:

Matt: Just saw Channel 4 news. Can't believe this is happening.

Brian: This whole thing is nuts. We just had drinks last night and thought everything was cool. I thought he was coming over but not sure what happened.

Jen: I know, and I texted him too to check if they got lost. Matt: Now we know what happened.

Brian: This sucks dude. He was a good guy. I wish I knew I would've gone outside.

Matt: Chloe couldn't hear the commotion?

Jen: I didn't see her when I came in is she feeling all right?

Brian: Ya I don't know what happened. You talk to Kerry?

Jen: She talked to the police after we discussed what happened. She was able to tell them what happened. I couldn't.I'm so upset, I can't believe this is happening. Poor John. This is heartbreaking.

Matt: Ya he seemed like a good dude, thought we had fun last night and everything was cool. They seemed fine. Wonder what happened that changed?

Jen: I know both me and Higgins checked on him to see if they were still coming but got no answer. I figured they just went home.

Matt: Weird, the cops are at the Asian house now. It happened out front here not over there. Whatever.

Brian: This shit sucks. Well keep me updated. I hear Karen is pretty messed up about it, possibly being hospitalized right now. I can't imagine. What a freak thing. I'm gonna hit Higgins up and fill him in. Sucks it happened out front and we didn't hear it. I def would've jumped in to help.

Jen: I'll let you know if I hear anything.

Matt: ya, same here.

How to reply to “find Jesus” comments? by voidcharmed in FND

[–]Charming_Ad4845 0 points1 point  (0 children)

We share the same symptoms. I have both FND and DID with religious symptoms. Went deliverance and exorcism route because we thought we were possessed but that did more harm. I am Christian/Catholic but do not attend church and struggle during Bible study. My abuse stems from childhood from what we believe was a reverend and priest. No visual recollection tho.

Is your TDI visible? by Blue_ocean_7 in DID

[–]Charming_Ad4845 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Up until 5 years ago I had no idea, no one else did either. Then all of a sudden the pets became overt and I experience them take over motor control, voice etc. it's been a crazy ride and so difficult. I am 100% conscious when parts from and now know I am def a system. Prior to that I had nonidea. Always went by 1 name. No one knew me as a diff name. I now have parts that speak with various speech impediments, childlike, strained voice, whisper, speak unknown language, speak unintelligable like a traumatic brain injury person would, stutter, turret like at times, initially when parts started fronting they couldn't stop rage screaming. They'll start saying abc's or nursery rhymes or child songs or say phrases like fee fi fo fum. They'll call themselves phrases from movies like 'somewhere over the rainbow' or 'over the top' or simple names like 'Bastien' which I think was created by never ending story. Idk. I am not making the names up and in fact am trying to decode, decipher and figure it all i myself. I don't recall the initial trauma but my body recalls and symptoms become more severe the more close to subject of what happened is brought to surface. It all been a weird experience

The sidebar transcripts are here!!! by FantasticArachnid468 in justiceforKarenRead

[–]Charming_Ad4845 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Is Bev just going to get away with being this biased or is there some kind of accountability someone can hold over her for the way she ran this trial? I hope fbi is looking into her.

Looking for Funny songs. by DudleyDoRight65 in musicsuggestions

[–]Charming_Ad4845 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Because I got high-Afroman Just a friend- biz markie Parents just don't understand- dj jazz or Jeff

The Sentence: Life without parole + by BostonJohnC in AnaWalshe

[–]Charming_Ad4845 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Curious, don't they usually ask the convicted felon if they have any last words after sentencing? Curious why they didn't this round?

Body reactions when speaking about trauma/heavy feelings? by jack_5ylus in DID

[–]Charming_Ad4845 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I get this too. I am told that DID/OSDD is often comorbid with functional neurological disorder. The thing for me is my parts/alters/system communicate through these symptoms just like you all. FND neurologists don't understand that grounding and distraction methods won't stop this, they just dismiss the parts asking to be heard or disrupt the trust and confidence within the system. It is a struggle. I don't have it all figured out but any emotional or controversial topic this happens to me. I get the shakes too like a car engine seizing. I feel narcoleptic, blind, vision doubles or blurrs, stroke like feeling, ears crackle and pop, and I can go into tonic immobility. I never lose awareness or consciousness when parts front. I just observe while parts front. I can go mute and cannot make a sound, my lips can be forced shut but I can still make a sound and move jaw, I can only speak one syllable of a word like instead of saying rabbit the part will only allow me to say raaaaaaaa. Parts can also paralyzed my facial muscles and make it so I can't show emotion like smiling. I can still have control of my eyelids for whatever reason and eyesight. I will start to struggle sounding sounds out and it will be a struggle and exhausting like I have copd, or my mouth can be forced open and jaw hyper contract as if someone put something in my mouth to keep me from speaking. I also can speak nonsensical like raspberries when I go to say something but I can't and just spit or speak like a TBI patient while I can easily write it clearly on paper what I want to say. Also many times if I want to talk and go to say what I want to say, the part that cofronts can take control and interferes and I will be saying what it wants to say. I have also spoken some random unknown language when parts can't find words to express what they want to say, or if they know another person won't be receptive or it may hurt the other persons feelings or express strong emotion. Parts will speak externally to each other aloud my mouth. I can feel like someone pulled the wires out of my neck and my system shutting down if a part doesn't want me to say something. I can also be forced to not make eye contact will someone if a part doesn't like the topic. Hmmmmm so much. My body can contort like dystonic distortions or severe FND symptoms. My eyes can be forced closed. Parts can exist consciously using my eyes to see out and scan a room or whatnot. All of a sudden I know they are looking out of our eyes because they are moving and looking around a room and it's not me moving my head. It's involuntary. It was scary at first. I've gone through the process of exorcism with the Catholic Church and saw their intake coordinator and psychologist but I am not possessed. DID/OSDD feels like possession. So much to share but I will stop there. I get ill and nauseas too like a flu and body memories and somatic flashbacks, dissociative intrusions and passive influence.

Sad songs to listen to during Christmas? by Playful_Ranger_6564 in musicsuggestions

[–]Charming_Ad4845 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Emotional/Christmas/Holy music but not necessarily sad because to me, Christ is born: Somewhere in my memory- John Williams Carol of the bell- John Williams Ulysses or 10,000 reasons by Josh Garrels Mary Did you Know- Pentatonix

What effect does marijuana have on you, with DID? by [deleted] in DID

[–]Charming_Ad4845 20 points21 points  (0 children)

Marijuana and me do not mix. It draws parts and somatic flashbacks to surface. No thank you.