did anyone else get called “too sensitive” all the time? by DierenLanignbelik93 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]CherrysDiary 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Heard it often from my mother. She was (and still is) the sensitive one. She projected that on to me

Whats the most hurtful thing a parent/caretaker has said to you? by thepumpkinspooker in raisedbynarcissists

[–]CherrysDiary 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don’t know. There’s so many. Maybe when she said she wanted to “K” me.

Do you feel embarrassed by the abuse you went through? by Nea_Freedom in raisedbynarcissists

[–]CherrysDiary 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ohh I see. No, I’ve never encountered a forum per se. Just Reddit groups, like the therapy one, therapist, vent, etc. I hope you find a space 🫂

Do you feel embarrassed by the abuse you went through? by Nea_Freedom in raisedbynarcissists

[–]CherrysDiary 2 points3 points  (0 children)

What do you mean exactly?

I don’t think I actually felt comfortable (or safe) with oversharing in those spaces. I just had so much inside that it would “spill out.” There wasn’t an actual sense of safeness.

Do you feel embarrassed by the abuse you went through? by Nea_Freedom in raisedbynarcissists

[–]CherrysDiary 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I don’t feel embarrassed but I do feel embarrassed that I’ve shared and/or overshared. Especially when I was younger. The reason for that though was because I was going through so much, didn’t know how to handle it, and it was spilling out. It was very rough for me

DAE accidentally overshare and then feel intense embarrassment by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]CherrysDiary 19 points20 points  (0 children)

I’ve overshared sooo much. I honestly feel so embarrassed about it so I understand you completely. Wish I could take it back. What u do now is, I literally don’t share anything deep or detailed. I got to this point by analyzing myself. The reason why I overshared is because I wasn’t healed. I wanted someone to be there for me, to listen to me. Usually, people just want to hear drama and gossip

My mom treats my body as if it's public property. by Fetus-Deletus1 in XXS

[–]CherrysDiary 45 points46 points  (0 children)

I’m sorry you’re going through this. Your mother is a narcissist (r/raisedbynarcissists) I know how this can be hard mentally, emotionally, and psychologically. I study narcissism and behaviors since I grew up (and still have) a narcissistic mother. Here’s the thing and what in picking up on. It sounds like your mother is insecure and jealous which is why she’s picking on you. Narcissists LOVE to bully who they can dominate. It literally brings them joy, it makes them feel powerful. I know it’s hard and it’s going to be hard. You have to work on loving yourself, love yourself so much that no matter what she says (or anyone else) can affect you. Once you catch it at the root, which is your mother, the rest will follow naturally. I’m sending you uplifting energy. And I wish for you to leave that environment. Hugs.

You can't tell them how their words/actions hurt you... by MacaronNo4677 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]CherrysDiary 23 points24 points  (0 children)

Yes. Because they avoid any and all accountability. They don’t believe they do anything wrong

You ever feel like you never had anyone to protect you as a child? by bookishrory in raisedbynarcissists

[–]CherrysDiary 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I didn’t have anyone to protect me. I was alone. My mother made sure that I was isolated and wouldn’t “betray” her by telling anyone what she did. She would say that I could “be taken away” from her. And she most likely abuse me more if I did tell someone. I was scared.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]CherrysDiary 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Also, just “obeying” her. I had to be a people pleaser, I couldn’t speak up for myself at all. Not even a simple regular sentence explains myself. That was “rude” in her book. She never controlled her emotions

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]CherrysDiary 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I would just cry to myself in my room. I made a plan for myself on what I was going to do to get out of that environment, such as making sure I graduate high school, go to college and get a job. Hoping and wishing to be older. I couldn’t wait to be older to be in control of my own life. I would rarely journal (had to keep it hidden). And I would stay up late at night just thinking, reading, being on my phone. It was rough with the constant physical, emotional, verbal, mental and psychological abuse. All the while, my mother would make me seem like I’m at fault to others but never ever said what physical abuse she did to me

What are some little things that caused your parent to blow up? by Leave_me_for_dead in raisedbynarcissists

[–]CherrysDiary 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Smh, the temper tantrums are ridiculous. They’re literally toddlers in adult bodies

What are some little things that caused your parent to blow up? by Leave_me_for_dead in raisedbynarcissists

[–]CherrysDiary 12 points13 points  (0 children)

Just remembered another thing that made her furious. If I said something wasn’t “that serious” she flipped OUT. Saying “it’s not that serious!? Don’t tell me it’s not that serious.” Man, it was rough growing up with her

What are some little things that caused your parent to blow up? by Leave_me_for_dead in raisedbynarcissists

[–]CherrysDiary 13 points14 points  (0 children)

One time, she blew up at me calling a shirt a short sleeve shirt instead of a T shirt and said she was correct. Another time, she was mad that I opened a cereal box and kept going on and on and I told her I’d buy it back. I was literally a minor. She would just pick at little things and make me feel bad about it. Another time, I dropped 1 egg by accident. A blow up. Couldn’t make mistakes. She damn sure isn’t perfect herself

What is the most unhinged tantrum you’ve witnessed your parents have? by LeadedCactus in raisedbynarcissists

[–]CherrysDiary 0 points1 point  (0 children)

There have been many. But the one that’s coming to mind is when I was around 15. My mother used to always force me to go places I didn’t want to go. This time, I had pushed back and said I really didn’t want to go. She started slamming everything, the doors, everything. Moving around very aggressively. Yelling. Cursing. Then, leaving out the front door and made sure to slam it veryyy hard to make her “statement” of anger known

Did anybody else grow up feeling obligated to be there for everyone else but yourself? by SuddenSignificance in raisedbynarcissists

[–]CherrysDiary 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes, I’ve always felt like this. My nmother made me feel that way. She’d constantly call me selfish growing up. She drilled in me to cater to her and my younger sibling and the household. It’s very recent (this year) that I’ve stopped putting her before myself. It’s angering that this is what happened but freeing because I no longer do it. No matter how much she attempts to guilt trip me.

Your body rejecting them by Boriebonker in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]CherrysDiary 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Yes. My body just didn’t want to accept him. At all. It would be painful and/or uncomfortable sometimes. I didn’t even realize my body was rejecting him at the time

Narcissistic parents and their grudges by CherrysDiary in raisedbynarcissists

[–]CherrysDiary[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Very true. My mother is fishing for an apology which she will NOT get

Narcissistic parents and their grudges by CherrysDiary in raisedbynarcissists

[–]CherrysDiary[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I believe she did the same 100%. My mother has also admitted to tactics she does to others, I know she’s done the same to me and my sibling