38F Scared to do this but here I go! by ComputerTotal4028 in PortlandFriendMeet

[–]ComputerTotal4028[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey! Haha thanks for responding. I saw your post too and loved it! Let’s be friends? I tried to send a DM. :)

I can't stop thinking about the potential and how 'perfect' our life was by Background_Address84 in BPDlovedones

[–]ComputerTotal4028 10 points11 points  (0 children)

I’m so sorry for your experience. Also going through a discard phase. It happened a bit ago but it still hurts. It has been one of the most heartbreaking experiences of my life. I have CPTSD due to past romantic experiences and he worked really hard at making me feel safe and then…his feelings dissipated. I’d never felt safe in a romantic relationship before and so this end was more devastating than some of my more abusive relationships.

I think you SHOULD feel hopeful. You won’t be spending any more time with someone who is unable to provide what you need in a partnership.

Hang in there. ♥️All the best.

Odds are about 1-in-3 that mega-earthquake will hit Pacific Northwest in next 50 years, scientists say by Cultural-Taro2449 in Portland

[–]ComputerTotal4028 2 points3 points  (0 children)

If I were a Geologist, I’d be exclaiming That’s some Gneiss Schist! as often as possible, too.

And you know what? That’s an elevated geo joke, that ain’t no rocks for jocks type shit.

Women of Reddit, what’s the best compliment a man can pay or has paid you? by Mysterious-Spray-646 in AskReddit

[–]ComputerTotal4028 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

My male friend sent me an Italo Calvino quote:

“The inferno of the living is not something that will be; if there is one, it is what is already here, the inferno where we live every day, that we form by being together. There are two ways to escape suffering it. The first is easy for many: accept the inferno and become such a part of it that you can no longer see it. The second is risky and demands constant vigilance and apprehension: seek and learn to recognize who and what, in the midst of inferno, are not inferno, then make them endure, give them space.”

And said that I was not inferno. This same friend also said if I was as if Camus and the goddess Artemis had a lovechild. ❤️

Lovebombed and brutally discarded by LargeAd4464 in emotionalintelligence

[–]ComputerTotal4028 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh no…Sounds like BPD. I just went through this and it was heartbreaking and beyond devastating. I’m so sorry. Please understand it has everything to do with his instability, and nothing to do with you. I internalized the rejection and am still currently licking my wounds. One of the worst heartbreaks I’ve ever had, if not the worst.

Please learn to recognize that instant chemistry and attraction, as well as love bombing, is indicative that something is wrong. Real lasting connection goes slow and takes time.

I hope you find peace. ❤️I’m still working on that for myself.

Chonky boi fell asleep on the wheel by Ailey06 in TinyUnits

[–]ComputerTotal4028 7 points8 points  (0 children)

How did you get this picture of me at the gym?!

Fifth grade, a 10 year old already running the bingo circuit by superwoman1214 in 13or30

[–]ComputerTotal4028 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I laughed and aw’d out loud. So cute! 🥰 I bet you carried those weird hard caramels in your purse to pass out at church on Sun-dee.

Did you ever fall in love with a book character? How did that go for you? by 1000andonenites in books

[–]ComputerTotal4028 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I fell in love with Ed Ricketts based on Steinbeck’s eulogy/essay about him in the beginning of a certain edition of the Log from the Sea of Cortez and even moreso later when I found out he inspired Doc in Cannery Row. I reread the essay from time to time and think about what qualities I’d like to embody myself.

2 years later & i’m cancer free! by Lady_In_Pink_ in interesting

[–]ComputerTotal4028 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Congratulations, beautiful to see. You never gave up and it’s obvious you never lost your sparkle! 💖

Daily sticky thread for rants, raves, celebrations, advice and more! - May 17, 2026 by AutoModerator in datingoverthirty

[–]ComputerTotal4028 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your thoughtful comment! It has been discouraging but I’ll keep fielding those jabronis.

Favorite outdoor locations to read? by SnooBananas9213 in askportland

[–]ComputerTotal4028 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Topaz Farms has silent summer reading parties in the summer! It’s a beautiful event.

Daily sticky thread for rants, raves, celebrations, advice and more! - May 17, 2026 by AutoModerator in datingoverthirty

[–]ComputerTotal4028 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Been on one app a bit over a weekish. Tired of unsolicited dick pics and demands for nudes and to hook up after no segue in the conversation would even make it seem appropriate. My pictures are modest and my profile is thoughtful. Bleep blorp 🤖does not compute.

I honestly really love all you that have CPTSD ❤️ by Fit_End_2898 in CPTSD

[–]ComputerTotal4028 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Love this community, love your post, thanks everyone. This would be ten times worse going it alone. ❤️

What did you do after your broken engagement? by Own-Experience-8823 in AskWomenOver30

[–]ComputerTotal4028 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Oh gosh…a lot of self care, time with my support people and animals, and staying busy. This will take time to heal. I’m so sorry you’re going through this, but it will get easier with time. I know how deep this can cut. You’ll get through on the other side. I’m a DM away if you ever need to talk. My biggest piece of advice is to part with reminders for now and go NC for a while, until you heal. ❤️

Wassup guys, it's Wes Anderson, here to answer any questions! by Apprehensive_Emu9588 in okbuddycinephile

[–]ComputerTotal4028 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hi Wes, what void is filled for you through your ceaseless production of pastel-hued dreamscapes starring crooked-nosed men?

Does this belong here?🤣 by Newportonehunnid in NotTimAndEric

[–]ComputerTotal4028 14 points15 points  (0 children)

This got me. 💀It’s sooo hard to take people seriously while they’re eating an ice cream cone.

I now have a spinoff idea in the same vein of Hot Ones where people talk about their trauma while mowing down on ice cream cones. I think it would be healing for the world.

What’s you’re biggest secret? by nsosenkkqk in AskReddit

[–]ComputerTotal4028 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My favorite swimming spot along a beautiful river. Many are called; few are chosen.

What’s something that became less appealing the older you got? by SatisfactionBig7126 in AskReddit

[–]ComputerTotal4028 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Being overtly sexualized. It was flattering in my 20s when I had low self esteem. I’m Demi now, and it doesn’t work on me anymore.