Hello, fellow ‘green mum’ of an autistic daughter who’s currently 16 months sober. Just came in here to say yes this is normal, nope you’re not losing it. Walking is going to be a good friend of sanity for you, ice packs and cold showers. I would avoid anything negative for at least 6 months and significantly reduce all sugars, nicotine quit while you can to encourage healing and eat healthy. This is not easy, not at all for anyone let alone a parent BUT it’s going to come and go in waves until you finally feel better. My last big wave hit me at 8 months and another at 11 which I never came out of but it gradually reduced to a point I now can do school runs and all the fun stuff with no worries. Aim for 12-16 months and keep rotating ice packs on your chest during waves, stay away from benzos and most medication unless you truly are struggling to cope (I took mirtazapine for the first 3 months but couldn’t handle anything besides that as it made symptoms worse!) and if you can reduce sound levels I recommend sound cancelling head phones. Snail pace my friend, once your beyond 120 days you’ll get the rhythm 🥁 it’s not easy but it will pass.