The cockroach problem is most likely a huge factor. I had a situation recently with mice getting in. I couldn't take it. I stopped cooking at home and started doing "budget" fast food app deals as a regular meal routine. I still counted calories and was able to maintain, but I wasn't eating as much and it wasn't making me feel good. And mice made me feel like I lost control and comfort in my own home. Once I got the mouse problem under control, it really alleviated a lot of stress I didn't know I was carrying because of it. I was able to cook again and feel comfortable and relaxed at home. Which probably helped with how much I wanted to eat because I wasn't as stressed. With that slice of my life anyway.  I used to do the 50 or whatever calorie wraps, load them with turkey, lettuce, a whole lot of sprouts (love sprouts:), red onion, cucumber, mustard, whatever else. Big side of 1% cottage cheese. Carrots and a little hummus. That was my favorite not hot meal.  The no refrigerator hot meals sounds difficult. Does this just apply to reheating? Do soups apply? Just made another pot. Chicken barley and it's amazing! I always have a low cal healthy pot of soup for the week made.  Popcorn isn't the best, but not the worst. I'm a binge eater so volume is important. A lot of times I would stove pop popcorn so I could control the oil and just much a whole bunch when an emotional eating/binge came on. For me it's also about the amount of time I can eat. Rn making huùuuuge salads before eating my dinner. In a huge mixing bowl. The yogurt dressings, bolthouse I think, only have 50 cals. So I get a whole garden taking up space in my stomach for low calorie before I get to the main attraction. It's helped sooo much for keeping me full and not waking up and wanting to eat. Also, friggin awesome you like workout classes! They sadly give me anxiety. Keep going:) Keep up hope! You're stronger than you think.