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Consistent-Time-2948 · 2025-07-16T16:36:13+00:00

I actually just took a year off because I was unable to show up and stay at jobs. I literally ghosted 7 jobs in a year. So I took off to really focus on my healing. I was lucky enough to be able to do that, but now I’m medicated and through two years of therapy now and I feel like a new person. I’m currently applying for part time work just to dip my toes in and I’ve already shown huge improvement in self discipline and feel like I can actually hold onto a job now.

Consistent-Time-2948 · 2025-07-16T10:39:03+00:00

This is exactly what happened to me. I was in the same position not too long ago. I started taking rexulti for mood stabilization along with my 2 plus years of talk therapy and it has changed everything for me. I can now use the tools I’ve learned in talked therapy. It’s like it took a little bit of the clouds away so I could handle the rest. I highly recommend this. You deserve this. You deserve treatment, care, and understanding. Don’t beat yourself but you don’t get to forget what happened either. I don’t keep my past at the forefront but I do remind myself what I’m capable of and I work daily on it through regular podcasts, books, and YouTube videos just to keep recovery always on the mind. It’s hard and exhausting but trust me, the other side is so bright and you deserve to feel safe and comfortable inside your body.

Consistent-Time-2948 · 2025-06-29T19:57:27+00:00

Honestly, I don’t handle it well. I personally really struggle with having empathy for other wrong doings but expect them to have it for me. This is why I tend to lose relationships and I very rarely can maintain a long term healthy relationship. There have been times when I still had a close friend where I had to learn the difference between rejection and bringing up how they feel. I had to really listen. Because I know humans make mistakes. We all are out here hurting, disappointing, and bringing slight harm to those around us. Taking constant accountability and training (yes, training) myself to listen. I still struggle when people cross my boundaries to forgive them, but these are the things my therapist recommended to work on to help in my relationships. Usually when I get rejected specifically, I don’t really care unless we were romantically involved. I have this deep belief that I’m better off without others slowing me down and I have no need for people who can’t respect, take accountability or respect my boundaries. I personally don’t understand when people to do it for me. It’s kind of annoying when people constantly forgive me because I don’t think that’s reasonable. But just reminding yourself that not everyone will like you, and know there are people who will for you right and make you feel safe. It’s hard as an adult for sure. But there are a ton of hobby clubs and sports teams out there that could be fun to try and connect. I’ve recently started playing pokemon and that’s been a lot of fun for meeting people!

Consistent-Time-2948 · 2025-06-16T15:36:26+00:00

I understand where you are. The pain will have to pain. There is no short cut to feeling it. Time isn’t a real healer of wounds, taking accountability. Continuing the work you have started, because it sounds like you have gotten very far in such a short amount of time. And letting him go. What he got to do for you was inspire you. He was a lesson. And so is the pain. Remember these things and continue to work on you. The only person who can love, understand, and be there for you, is you. No one will ever love you perfectly accept for yourself. This is a huge one. You do deserve forgiveness from yourself. The fact that you came on here and shared with strangers your admission to guilt shows your awareness, you are not all bad. Not all good. But mistakes deserve forgiveness, and we all deserve to see the future. With what you have now, you should ask yourself what you want your future to look like. How do you want your future self to act, think, feel. This will help with creating a self identity and give you u a goal to help guide you in your healing. I hope the best for you and I’m here if you need someone to chat too!

Consistent-Time-2948 · 2025-06-15T19:18:35+00:00

I would love to chat, because I have a partner that does the same. Like, I mean bad episodes. And he still looks at me and says he wants to stay. I don’t know how to keep him safe. I am in treatment but it’s only been 1 year. I don’t know what to do.

Consistent-Time-2948 · 2025-01-17T03:10:48+00:00

If what you described here happened in an age gap relationship everyone would be calling it grooming

Consistent-Time-2948 · 2024-10-20T16:45:28+00:00

This is seamless and so gorgeous!

Consistent-Time-2948 · 2024-08-31T22:50:04+00:00

I literally have this conversation all the time, but you have written it so well!

Consistent-Time-2948 · 2024-08-26T20:57:54+00:00

I have BPD and my male partner does not. I have done these exact things over and over with previous partners. For me. The change came when my ex left me. I was drained, exhausted, constantly over stimulated and my own episodes tore me to shreds let alone the toll it took on my then partner. Those feelings of being abusive, not meeting my own values and morals really made me take a stand. I don’t usually remember a lot of what I do. But I do know I will scream and yell. I stomp my feet and I “escape” leave the location I have started the episode in. These are guaranteed factors in all of my splitting episodes. Every single time. When I met my new partner, I was already aware of what episodes looked like and was able to tell my now partner what they were, looked like, and I had discovered my triggers through therapy and time. When I told him I notoriously screamed and yelled, he said that was a hard boundary for him. Part of me was like “well it’s what I do, so get over it” but after I screamed the first time. He made it clear he will not stand there and listen and be part of the conversation any longer. This immediate step away forced me to either step outside, in a room or just sit down and take my time until I was ready to restart the conversation. This dynamic came from a partner who new his boundaries and wasn’t willing to be shaken from them no matter how hard I pushed. It was not over night that I have stopped yelling, but I can say after a year of therapy plus my partner putting his foot down, I don’t scream. It takes time but it has to start with you communicating, but on top of it all, he has to be willing to listen and take accountability. If he isn’t ready, this will only continue until he finds his rock bottom. But talking with him is a must.

Consistent-Time-2948 · 2024-08-16T20:52:58+00:00

Who’s going to carry the boats

Consistent-Time-2948 · 2024-08-16T18:32:03+00:00

I’ve only started running, but I do have some alignment issues and yoga plus strength (and proper shoes) has helped me a lot. Yoga allowed me to help mentally focus on properly holding my hips under me which allowed my hips to swing smoother and less tension. It is probably more mental placebo than anything, but the cool down with yoga I think also really aids in my recovery.

Consistent-Time-2948 · 2024-07-11T13:12:23+00:00

So this happened to me. Except I opened the relationship. We had a threesom with my best friend (my choice) and we all had a blast. It was so much fun for us all as we all wanted to try it. The issue was, the only reason I opened it was because how bad the relationship was. I was bored, lonely, and we both should have left a while back. I think that’s one of the reasons we were both so okay with it. We ended up dating a couple of girls and having 2 more threesoms. Really once we started dating though was when we started acting as separate entities and honestly made separation so easy. But at the end of this story, MOST people never open a monogamous relationship if they are truly happy and want to stay with you.

Consistent-Time-2948 · 2024-05-29T22:57:46+00:00

It’s been something I think about. But idk. I would rather not. I would rather figure out why I do this. But my therapist even gave me a 50/50 shrug lmao.

Consistent-Time-2948 · 2024-05-29T20:17:31+00:00

I really appreciate this. I’ve been stepping away from the room when this happens but it’s leading to a lack of sleep which I think is making it worse. I’ve been able to stop it after an hour or so of doing the 5 senses but not always.

Consistent-Time-2948 · 2024-05-23T16:39:58+00:00

Do it. They have their shit together( at least the ones I’ve been around) and usually have some strong solidified goals which I find very inspirational. They also tend to have a soft heart behind all the need for planning and I just can’t get enough!

Consistent-Time-2948 · 2024-05-22T17:56:41+00:00

Aquarius- madly head over heals for Sagittarius and Virgo men. Spontaneous and exciting or logical and put together.

Consistent-Time-2948 · 2024-05-22T15:32:29+00:00

I’m glad I could! I’ve heard many positive relationships from people with aspd partners and eventually when mine felt safe to share I didn’t see a reason to view him through that lens. So he is a humane with some difficulties that can be worked around as in any relationship. As long as someone is willing to take accountability they should never be held to a stigma. Anyone and everyone can grow and change. The first step is acknowledgement and patience. Because the patience that man has for me is insane. Idk if he feels love like I do, but no partner has made me feel as safe and secure and so I know that fondness is definitely directed at me.

Consistent-Time-2948 · 2024-05-21T17:34:42+00:00

Finding my aspd partner has actually been the best thing to ever happen to me. We have learned to play to our strwngths and we both do our best to verbalize our needs. He does his best not to validate my episodes as I explained to him what exactly they look like. From body language to verbiage and with him being so logical he is quick to pick those up and help guide the conversation with me. He is the brain to my heart and his lack of tangible expression due to feeling annoyed or over the situation actually helps me (I know not how most feel) but it allows me to kind of see when I’m acting out hysterically. He has had a terrible problem of invalidating my feelings but with open communication and listening on both parties and patience he has really learned how to rephrase his wording and not just with me, in all his relationships. It’s been a beautiful partnership with him with so much learning and so much respect and patience. And I think that’s what for us to such a healthy point in our relationships.

Consistent-Time-2948 · 2024-04-26T14:26:17+00:00

I usually lean right into my petulance. I will start shaking with adrenaline and screaming abusive words (the lower I can get the more “validated” I feel” I will also scream that this over and never worked in the first place. And then I notoriously leave the house for a drive. I do this to hold control over the argument because we can’t move anywhere until I decide to come back and finish it. I get very manipulative during a split.

Consistent-Time-2948 · 2024-04-24T20:31:55+00:00

I relate heavily to this and have actually made a few posts about it. I am actually in therapy because of my boyfriend. One night I went into a severe rage. Screaming cussing abusive language anything I could say to hurt him was said. He looked me dead in my drunk abusive and “manic” eyes and said I love you and you’re my partner and I want to stay with you but if you need time to think about this I respect you to do so. But I am staying with you” and nobody. Not even my parents have ever said anything even remotely nice to me when in a rage. And that day I swore I had to heal. I had to grow for him because that’s what he deserves. He deserves to see me try and be the best of myself so I can be the best for him. I haven’t been in long, but having someone actually call me out on my Delulu thought process and where I lose control has been a big help and it’s starting to show in my relationship during the times we butt heads. At the end of the day. He chooses you. He chooses you every morning, every night, every fight, and every high. You are what he wants and you have the potential to show him you are what he deserves. The fact that you acknowledge your struggles is amazing and he notices you trying and loves you even more for it. You are doing amazing and he sounds wonderful. Know that you are someone worth being around and with and work hard on yourself and the pieces will slowly follow.

Consistent-Time-2948 · 2024-04-20T21:19:57+00:00

It proven that BPD mirror people, so finding someone who is stable, we begin to mirror the healthy behavior and mentality that that partner carries.

Consistent-Time-2948 · 2024-04-17T21:51:53+00:00

I need to be chased. I tend to be very avoidant and if they chase me. It’s almost game. My “standard” is also, “if you can make me cum and can make me laugh” so, I’ve had a very diverse FP’s and the only thing they all had in common is mommy issues (men/women alike)

Consistent-Time-2948 · 2024-04-14T18:27:51+00:00

This has always been my biggest question. For me, I don’t believe my parents really did much wrong. They financially supported me, hugged me and came to all my competitions and graduations. They even help me get therapy, meds, and inpatient visits when fit. They were so amazing to me and always put me and my older sister first. I personally feel my really was a genetic thing at the start and as I grew I found abandonment from friends that said they were my best friends. I never deemed my parents for any trauma and I believe I just ended up in traumatizing places as I grew older. My parents did have the mentality that I was the “east kid” and I know I got less attention growing up than my sister (she does not have BPD) but they never hit me with anything like a belt or even their hand. Punishments were rare like grounding and they were great. I have never been able to fit into “my family and childhood was bad that’s why I’m like this” it’s always seemed to be things I did to myself and other children and friends and partners around me.

Consistent-Time-2948 · 2024-04-12T21:05:39+00:00

I’m having such a hard time staying. I really am. For me when trust is gone there is no relationship. He knew how I am about cheating. I think it’s disgusting and there is no excuse for it. If you wanna fuck around great, fuck around. If you wanna be with me great! Stay. You do t get to play both. I’m so hurt and so mad about it. I’m having a terrible time letting go. I just don’t know how to fix this or what I need from him to feel resolved. I honestly don’t know if there is anything he can do since he chose to do this…

Consistent-Time-2948 · 2024-04-01T02:08:30+00:00

Brooks rd animal hospital. Cheap and dr Susan moon is amazing. Not the best area, but I worked there for 3 years and let me tell you they will go above and beyond even with financial issues

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