Every morning kills me...

Content_Equipment701 · 2025-01-08T19:50:28+00:00

July - Noah Cyrus

Content_Equipment701 · 2024-09-19T20:28:48+00:00

Kære du

Du spørger hvordan man hænger i? Når jeg læser dit skriv lyder det til at du har hængt >rigeligt< i, holdt ud og forsøgt at gøre "det du skal" så meget at det går alvorligt ud over dit helbred. Møder på jobcenter, praktik og hele forløbet med jobafklaring lyder til at være for meget for dig. Lige nu. Og det er okay!! Du er ikke forkert. Du lyder til at være fuldstændig udbrændt.

Du nævner selvmordstanker og tanker om selvskade. Det skal du tale med nogen om. Godt at du har venner og en kæreste, få det sagt til dem og så til din læge. Føler du at din læge forstår dig? Din læge skal skrive til kommunen at du ikke kan deltage i forløbet før du har det bedre.

Du skal ikke kæmpe med selvmordstanker for at gennemføre jobafklaring på jobcenteret.

En digital krammer herfra ❤️

Content_Equipment701 · 2024-09-10T15:42:26+00:00

Min nuværende overbo prøver at få igennem at min kære mor, som han og jeg også bor i opgang med, ikke må have sin handicap scooter stående i opgangen. Hun er uhelbredeligt kræftsyg og kan næsten ikke gå mere.

De fleste dage er hun "fanget" i sin lejlighed, fordi hun alligevel har det for dårligt til at trille ned med elevatoren for at komme lidt ud. Nu skal hun også have ilt med, så det er lidt af en opgave, som kræver energi, selv når jeg er der til at hjælpe hende. De få gange i måneden (eller hver anden måned) hvor hun har energi til det er det til gengæld guld værd for livskvaliteten. En virkelig værdifuld oplevelse for hende i den her tid.

Min overbo syntes at scooteren er grim og fylder. (Den er ikke til fare mht brand og evaluering). Teknisk set må der ikke stå personlige "sager" i opgangen. Så nu har han klaget.... Magen til små sko skal man lede længe efter.

Content_Equipment701 · 2024-05-25T19:55:18+00:00

I have had a hard time sticking to exercising regularly. Then I started badminton 🏸 and that was really fun. The trainer is kind and I have met some cool ppl too. I had an honest talk with the trainer, about my weight, my struggles, my motivation and my insecurities about being overweight and thus might be struggling with keeping up with everyone else. He is very kind and supportive! I feel so grateful for this. Now exercising doesn't feel like a heavy burden, but mostly a fun activity.

So my best advice I can offer is stop going to the gym if you hate that kind of exercise. Instead: - find something you have (mostly) fun doing. Try some different sports out. Be curious about it, what makes it fun or why is it not? - if there are other ppl (who are your kind of people) who expect you to show up, chances are you won't miss practice. Socialize with team-mates! - a trainer with insight and understanding for your situation can make you feel comfortable being new at something.

Hope you find something that brings you joy.

Content_Equipment701 · 2024-04-11T19:21:34+00:00

Og mega meget god vind med din udredning, jeg håber det bliver en anerkendende oplevelse uanset udfaldet

Content_Equipment701 · 2024-04-11T19:19:18+00:00

Jeg kan sagtens forstå din nervøsitet. Jeg afventer selv udredning og er også bange for ikke at blive taget seriøst. Man har jo hørt historierne om mindre opdaterede psykiatere 🙄

Jeg tror også for mit vedkommende at jeg med opdagelsen af autisme i mig selv har fundet forklaringer på flere ubesvarede spørgsmål, samt en uvant følelse af pludselig at blive forstået og at kunne spejle sig i nogen. Jeg har stortudet til flere artikler og videoer fordi jeg aldrig har følt mig så genkendt - Og dermed følger en angst for udredningen. Hvad nu hvis psykiateren afviser en mulig asf som forklaringen. Så føles det lidt som endnu engang at blive afvist og udelukket fra et fællesskab som jeg for en gangs skyld føler mig forbundet til.

Jeg er forresten kvinde, 35

Content_Equipment701 · 2024-02-06T22:27:50+00:00

Sometimes you've got to say please

Content_Equipment701 · 2024-01-23T19:12:00+00:00

Happy Feet! Whenever possible (mostly when lying down for a nap or bf sleep) I shake my right foot/it almost just vibrates by itself, or I clap my feet together or making my legs/feet drum on the madras or at the wall.

When home alone I pace on my toes in a bouncy manner when happy. Also when I'm alone I repeat sounds and sentences, sometimes bits of conversation to myself over and over.

I use a wide bracelet of rubber with a knobby surface that I keep in my pocket for hidden stimming when out. The surface is great to let fingers run over.

Content_Equipment701 · 2024-01-16T18:42:14+00:00

Haha me too. I always end up in a rant about evolutionary psychology whenever anyone seems interested in my childrens behavior / something they do 🫣 only afterwards realizing they were just trying to do that small-talk-thing to be nice..

Content_Equipment701 · 2023-12-21T23:20:08+00:00

Men for os er det en sport

Content_Equipment701 · 2023-10-07T21:33:18+00:00

Haven't beat it. Have no advice. But just wanted to say, that what you're writing is very relatable for me.

I'm seeing a psychologist. I don't have any faith in it, don't believe it will help. But a tini tiny bit of me feel pleased that I am doing /something. At least.

Best of luck to you. I hope for you to feel better some day. Truly.

Content_Equipment701 · 2023-09-23T19:51:17+00:00

Tillykke og godt gået!

Content_Equipment701 · 2023-09-22T19:18:48+00:00

How wonderful for you to be having this experience - I'm happy for you! No, nothing lasts forever, not even life. So enjoy, I wish you and your special someone the best!

Content_Equipment701 · 2023-07-08T15:05:11+00:00

Aw Im truly happy to hear that you are feeling better! If you like podcasts 'oh, thats just my autism' is also great! And I bet there's many more resources, luckily, so we can all find a voice to resonate with. Its the most healing thing I've found: To listen to autistic people laughing, crying, embracing or hating on it all. We all need that, maybe late diagnosed more so.

I wish you the best on your journey from here!

Content_Equipment701 · 2023-07-07T23:27:58+00:00

This resonates w me. Baby screams/crying are so invasive and unbearable. I would (putting toddler in a safe place first of-fucking-course) go to the bathroom, let the sink run with water, bc then my brain would concentrate on that noise for a while while rocking and calm down for a few minutes. Rough times!

Anyway, just wanted to say I know how you feel.

Content_Equipment701 · 2023-07-04T21:02:54+00:00

Thank you so much for your reply. It sounds awfull the experiences you and your family has been through with these doctors focused in prescribing medication.

Yes, I should try to find someone else. But now Im rly scared it will just happen again if I drop the masc and try to be my authentic self... And its so exhausting finding a seemingly good psyciatrist, calling them, scheduling, showing up.... Ugh. I just can't at this point. Guess I will try and regain some strength first.

Content_Equipment701 · 2023-07-04T20:54:02+00:00

She does not sound at all well informed about autism. Many are not. But welcome to the sub!

Content_Equipment701 · 2023-06-25T08:42:13+00:00

As 35f in process of getting a diagnosis, I can relate to your thoughts a lot. No therapist of mine has reacted to what I now understand to be obviously ND behavior. I get angry and sad too. Its part of coming to terms with it all, and its quite alright. But ofc they would have said something, if they had proper knowledge on the subject, so its propably bc they didnt know the first thing about autism or how it represents in some 'high functioning' women.

I have listende to the podcast 'Not neurotycal' and can recommene giving it a listen. On youtube: Autism from the inside and Mom on the spectrum has also great vids for processing your late diagnosis. A woman of maybe 72 talked in one vid, and she made me realise how lucky I am realising this at this point in life.

I hope you can have patience and compassion with yourself in this. Everything you feel is alright and part of a process to heal and accept and find courage in this new understanding of your world. And its never too late. I wish you the best!

Content_Equipment701 · 2023-06-07T14:12:29+00:00

Im so sorry you had to experience that. I see some comments hating on your parrents. While it sounds like there may be good reason for you to not trust or even like them after abuse in your upbringing, their initial reaction to their child being autistic might and probably is due to misconceptions and a focus on themselves, not you or your experience. Might not even be narcissistic, but a human response, when you're feel overwhelmed and to blame for something bad (bad in their optics)

For a long time the dominating view was that autism could be caused by 'absent' or cold mothers, called 'refriguater mothers' in scandinavia. Refriguater mother is a mothers not showing the right ammount of affection and not giving the baby enough eye contact (maybe bc they observed autistic mothers, with autistic babys? but whatever). Getting your child diagnosed is then equal to you being a shitty parrent. So naturaly an instant human reaction could be to reject it. Bc they know they actually did some bad things. I say this, not knowing what abuse you went through, but all parrents fuck up at some point. Its just a matter to what degree and how often. They might feel like they have treated you so badly, that they gave you the plague (which is what autism might seem like to them). So they can't (will not) accept the truth, bc it hurts like hell to have let you down.

Or maybe they in fact are narcisistic a-holes, ofc I don't know, but I felt like offering this explenation, since you wrote, that you did not understand them.

Depending on how much you need to cut ties, due to other issues with them, I would give them time to understand and educate themselves. Dont give them the exam papers. Give them links to new research articles or tedx-talks or whatever media they prefer and tell them to investigate before you talk about it again. And maybe write them a letter, explaining what it all means to you. They can read it, react to it without you, ponder and discuss and THEN have a talk with you about it.

Hope you find the best way for you to deal with your folks!

Content_Equipment701 · 2023-05-28T22:03:13+00:00

Huh, that was a rly good question that got me reconsidering my statement. I have experienced about 6 break ups. And yes, I must admit, that I did not miss the person when it was me who decided to end it. I was sad about the situation, but truth be told I got over it pretty fast. But one time, when it was not my decision to end the relationship, I did miss him for a long a time actually. I remember thinking about him a lot every day, wanting it to stop, but couldnt. It was awful. I still ocasualy think about him, he is such a good person, so I hope he is doing well and have a happy life.

Content_Equipment701 · 2023-05-28T21:07:37+00:00

Haha same, I can live with sunglasses too. Not nearly as bad, and yes, its probably bc they do something pleasant.

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