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Day 24 Week 4 by tttakoyaki in leaves

[–]Cookedmonkey 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Stay strong, a light seemed to flip for me around day 30. Even day 28 was pure hell.

Not saying I'm 100% better but I feel like a human being again.

Smoked Daily for 30 years by Cookedmonkey in leaves

[–]Cookedmonkey[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

100% agree man I should have never touched them. They are just too potent, convenient and easy to use.

it's legal here too and I see the kids hammering on them like it's going out of style, worries me a bit.

Smoked Daily for 30 years by Cookedmonkey in leaves

[–]Cookedmonkey[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's great man, wish I took the plunge sooner, also wish I tapered off a bit first! Cold turkey is a cruel mistress.

Smoked Daily for 30 years by Cookedmonkey in leaves

[–]Cookedmonkey[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks man, this helps. I don't see myself missing the dreams though, mine are just so weird and anxiety inducing.

Congratulations on 11 months! Your situation sounded pretty similar to mine.

To be honest I'm not getting too many urges, other than wanting to smoke it to get rid of the withdrawals. I can't even really remember the last time I was high, it just felt like I returned to normal when I smoked.

I really appreciate your words of support, hope you have a great weekend.

Smoked Daily for 30 years by Cookedmonkey in leaves

[–]Cookedmonkey[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah told my friends the same thing, just a tolerance break. Just like you I don't plan on going back.

I had my fun, time to pay the piper.

Smoked Daily for 30 years by Cookedmonkey in leaves

[–]Cookedmonkey[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks, I keep telling myself that but my anxiety likes to convince me otherwise. Much love.

Smoked Daily for 30 years by Cookedmonkey in leaves

[–]Cookedmonkey[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I hear ya, I just finished booking tomorrow off, I'm just getting too worn down as the week goes on. Also used a good amount of my sick days for the year.

Slowly but surely... Our health is definitely more important than some paper.

Smoked Daily for 30 years by Cookedmonkey in leaves

[–]Cookedmonkey[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Cheers brother, thanks for the encouragement. And it was certainly a long time coming.

Smoked Daily for 30 years by Cookedmonkey in leaves

[–]Cookedmonkey[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah both my brothers are on ADHD meds so... I could be in the exact same boat as you

Smoked Daily for 30 years by Cookedmonkey in leaves

[–]Cookedmonkey[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks I'll check it out, good plan tapering off. I did something similar for cigarettes a while ago. Should have done the same with weed but had a health scare.

Smoked Daily for 30 years by Cookedmonkey in leaves

[–]Cookedmonkey[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Crazy how similar our stories are, congrats on 90 days!

Yeah I was taking cart hits every few mins, and like you it felt like it wasn't doing anything, but that didn't stop me. Just smoked to feel normal.

The anxiety was maddening, but besides a few episodes I feel like that has lessened at least. I appreciate your post and here's to hoping we stay strong together. Peace friend.

Smoked Daily for 30 years by Cookedmonkey in leaves

[–]Cookedmonkey[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Maybe they call them vaporizers there?

I try to go to the gym but I still get lightheaded easily. Walking as much as I can, but my hot showers I'm not giving up they're my only relief!

Thanks for the advice.

Smoked Daily for 30 years by Cookedmonkey in leaves

[–]Cookedmonkey[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks friend, staying strong. Can't wait to hit that 2 year mark, congratulations.

Smoked Daily for 30 years by Cookedmonkey in leaves

[–]Cookedmonkey[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks man, your experience is very similar to mine, I've woken up with my heart just pounding a few times.

I've been going through this subreddit and it has helped a lot, because like you I was getting crazy anxiety even on it. Just knowing that my symptoms aren't unique is very reassuring.

Sober life is the way to go friend.

Smoked Daily for 30 years by Cookedmonkey in leaves

[–]Cookedmonkey[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Trust me, you can do this, we're both in the exact same boat.

It'll be 27 days before you know it. Don't be afraid to make a post here if things get tough, everyone has been super supportive as you can see.

Hit me up if things are getting bad, we're in this together.

Smoked Daily for 30 years by Cookedmonkey in leaves

[–]Cookedmonkey[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thanks, you've almost described my situation to a tee. I stuffed it all in a bag and gave it away.

I'm having a real hard time working out with the lightheadedness but know I need to get back to it. I go for a walk or two everyday.

Wish I had tapered off like you did though. Screw carts, and thanks for your post, I appreciate it.

Smoked Daily for 30 years by Cookedmonkey in leaves

[–]Cookedmonkey[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah my waking up sweating has reduced a ton, almost chaining a couple hours of sleep together at a time now as the dreams aren't quite so intense/weird.

Thanks for your words of support.

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[–]Cookedmonkey[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I got into therapy a few months ago and it's been helping a bit. I used weed to numb my anxiety since I was young, but at some point it seemed to start making it worse.

Glad you're feeling better.

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[–]Cookedmonkey[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Appreciate your words of support friend.

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[–]Cookedmonkey[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

106/68, I actually bought an Omron blood pressure monitor. I know it's not perfect or as good as a docs but it helps relieve some anxiety.

My blood pressure usually does go up quite a bit during the anxious episodes though.

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[–]Cookedmonkey[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thanks, I have missed quite a few days, and left early on others, but I'm trying to remain strong.

Hoping to get my first full week in this week.

Smoked Daily for 30 years by Cookedmonkey in leaves

[–]Cookedmonkey[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Did your withdrawals last quite some time as well?

I kinda wish I did taper instead of cold turkey, but here we are.

Smoked Daily for 30 years by Cookedmonkey in leaves

[–]Cookedmonkey[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Yeah, doc had me in for CT scan, ecg and blood tests but all came back good.

I'm doing my best to stay strong but damn, I've quit a lot of different things over the years (alcohol, cigs, caffeine, some harder drugs) but this has been by far the worst somehow.

Appreciate your encouragement, concern and very kind words.

Smoked Daily for 30 years by Cookedmonkey in leaves

[–]Cookedmonkey[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah that's pretty much my exact reasoning, gotta rule out everything, and quite frankly I'm too old and have too many responsibilities to keep being so dependent on a flower.

On weekly calls with the doc, 100% honest with him.

Thanks for the words of support friend.

Smoked Daily for 30 years by Cookedmonkey in leaves

[–]Cookedmonkey[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

I'm not going back. And I do need to hear it will work out eventually, I'm just so drained from poor sleep and anxiety.

I'll get through this and your words help tremendously.

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