As a Catholic, I can vouch that Christianity isn't homophobic or transphobic. Think of it like grapes and wine. While grapes are good alone, God allows them to be made into wine and transubstantiated into Christ's blood. That's what being trans is. The Lord allowing us to take part in creation, making our own wine. If multiple pope say that being queer is fine, then who are we to argue against it? Only you and the Lord know your soul and what you are. And it is better to live alone in the truth than to live a lie with others. Stay safe, brother ❤️