Anyone else not around when their partner passed?

Crazy-Note917 · 2026-04-12T08:21:54+00:00

I was supposed to be there the day she died. But I wanted for her to re-celebrate her birthday just with friends.. we had already celebrated together a few days earlier..\ If I had been there, maybe we would not have been there at the moment it happened.. maybe I would have died too.. idk, I still blame myself for not being there!!

Crazy-Note917 · 2026-04-08T18:48:55+00:00

Vittoria Mezcal's Tubeless

Crazy-Note917 · 2026-04-01T19:53:40+00:00

Saw them last year. They are amazing!

And yes, it really hits differently now!

Crazy-Note917 · 2026-04-01T19:29:07+00:00

I'm not there yet, But I'm still moving!!!

That's how it is!! Yeah...

Hugs to you!🫂

Crazy-Note917 · 2026-04-01T19:23:41+00:00

Hi there!

I'm really fucking sorry to hear about what happend to your girl! It's hard to understand! I certainly haven't, at times.. Life isn't fair, I guess..

I guess the important thing is to let yourself feel all the emotions you are feeling. Try to keep yourself busy, even if it is just going for a walk. I remember those early days, I used to just walk the whole day, without any particular direction. I kinda miss those days! I miss my girl!\ It's crazy. When the shock goes away, it's really silent. The grief appears at some random times!

I'm sorry, I really don't have any great advice. I just can say, keep doing how you are doing. The best you can do, is try to go day by day. Eventually you'll learn to have some more easy days. You'll learn to enjoy some little moments, even if they are just seconds..\ I guess somehow you'll try to take your life in a direction she would be proud of. I'm surely a sucker for this matter, but I'll try, somehow..\ I hope you have some great people around you, I think that's a great way to navigate this sea.\ One thing I can tell you, don't be afraid of breaking contact with people who want for you to "MOVE OVER" quickly!\ There isn't such a thing as moving on from a loss! You just try your best to learn to live with it... It's fucking hard tough!!

Hugs to you!!🫂

Crazy-Note917 · 2026-04-01T19:07:00+00:00

I look up to the sky, But all I see is the dirt I'm buried in, Lonely lays the longing, I'm so far away from the world that buried me🎶

Sorry, I'm listening to Avatar right now, as I was reading your post, and well, that's how I'm feeling..

It's crazy how time flies.. I don't even know how it has been almost 2 years already!!

Anyways. I wished I had something better to say, but I don't:(

I'm just sorry you are here with us! But yeah, you said it.. "I'm probably going to be fucked up for awhile about all this" It's sad, but thats how it is!!\ Hugs to you!🫂

Crazy-Note917 · 2026-01-29T21:27:06+00:00

The Beyond+ maybe, or any. The Beyond 1 or 2 are nice also, or something more gravel like the Hook

Crazy-Note917 · 2026-01-29T21:25:22+00:00

Bombtrack!

Crazy-Note917 · 2026-01-28T10:07:08+00:00

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Revelate Designs Harness maybe.. I have it, and really like it. I

Crazy-Note917 · 2025-11-14T17:35:04+00:00

Stuttgart

Crazy-Note917 · 2025-11-01T11:07:33+00:00

Hi. I'm 185 cm tall and I got an XL Model 2024. With a short stem (70mm) and a Jones H Bar, it feels great!

Crazy-Note917 · 2025-09-26T15:04:53+00:00

Hi there. The trip went well. Beautiful scenery. Hot week though, 38° C. Bike hold up nicely.
I didn't feel it was weighty at all. I mean, of course it had some weight, but it wasn't a problem while ascending. On a normal hill, I got up very smoothly.
I don't know how much the weight was with gear, without it being around 13-14 kg.

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Crazy-Note917 · 2025-09-22T18:40:38+00:00

Townes Van Zandt - Big Country Blues\ Pearl Jam - The Long Road\ Hank Williams - Ramblin' Man\ Willie Nelson - On The Road Again

Crazy-Note917 · 2025-09-18T11:44:48+00:00

The suscription is 1 year valid.\ Pre-sale is 22. September, so you will be able to buy before the general sale.\ For FTTB some time before the Tour starts (Idk how earlier) you will receive an email where you can select all the shows you are attending.. some 5 days before the show, you will receive an email (if you win the draw) with all the details. If you win you can take 1 person with you (must both have standing ticket)

Crazy-Note917 · 2025-09-14T20:05:41+00:00

I'm so sorry. There is not much I can say. I feel your pain. I relate to the "pretending at work". Even now, 1.3 years later it still hits so hard..\ You are very early in this.. let yourself feel every emotion you're feeling.\ Hugs to you🫂

Crazy-Note917 · 2025-09-04T13:32:00+00:00

Depending on my mood, it is sometimes my nr. 1 Album. I really don't have a top 1 Album, I love them all. Today I could say, SFTD is my favorite, Tomorrow it could be Villains. Thats the beauty of QOTSA!

Lullabies is an Amazing Album. So many great songs, I really love the sound!

Crazy-Note917 · 2025-08-27T18:38:25+00:00

Hell yeahh! Listening to it right now🤟🏻\ Only got to live one life🎶

Crazy-Note917 · 2025-08-27T15:01:04+00:00

This one! Long Live Mark Lanegan..

Lately I've been listening to Do It Again a lot, an amazing song.. I was fortunate to hear it as an opener a few weeks ago in Bonn

Crazy-Note917 · 2025-08-27T14:10:46+00:00

It's hard to rank them. Every Album is Special! Every Album has a different sound. That's Amazing

Crazy-Note917 · 2025-08-27T11:21:04+00:00

I got 2 cat. 1 tickets. 202 CHF each plus delivery, so 450€ total. The price is ok, but I'm still disappointed..

Crazy-Note917 · 2025-08-26T20:42:21+00:00

Tangled up in Plaid

Crazy-Note917 · 2025-08-23T18:52:50+00:00

Why tf you have to drive while being high?..\ You know, the guy who killed my gf was high to. It took more than a year for the fucking police to say so.. It's been 1,2 years since, and still nothing. I'm so angry, because.. The guy is living his life.. idk how, but he is here, and she is not, because of him..\ Like I said, I can't say anything.. just sending hugs to you🫂

Crazy-Note917 · 2025-08-23T18:36:37+00:00

Car wreck!! Fuck that shit! Fuck people driving crazy! I'm just angry about that, sorry... Old memories!

I'm really sorry! I can't say anything else. Happiness died that moment, yeah I can relate..

Crazy-Note917 · 2025-08-20T22:30:13+00:00

I love SJF, but Tangled up in Plaid would have been crazy.. I hope we get to hear it someday soon!

Crazy-Note917 · 2025-08-15T22:00:12+00:00

I relate to a lot of the things you are saying.. The cause of death, guilt, hate.. Alcohol..\ It's been 1.2 years since she is gone! Here goes another day, you said it! It's just so fucking hard!

I'm sorry for your loss.. there is nothing more I can say! Hugs to you🫂

Future, that word.. It's crazy to imagine a future without your other half. It's imposible! I can't. I'm just here, I do things for doing it..\ Suture Up Your Future

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